Parents For My Baby
Tragedies

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Repeatedly Dad slapped me with a slap so hard that the tip of my lips spit out a little blood.

I didn't want to fight back and argue because I realized it was all my fault. Mba Rani then approached me.

"Remember Mila, after Mom's death procession is over you have to leave the house immediately, let me and Dad take care of Amanda!"

Then they all left me for the morgue, I could only sit on the hospital floor. I cried so much, to stand up I couldn't. Maybe I have had too many sins until my body can no longer sustain it.

I don't admire the question mark gazes of people passing by. As hard as I could, I tried to stand up and I went home and waited for my family to bring my mother's body home.

People are crowded in my house. Amanda looked so sad and cried incessantly. Mother is so meaningful in her life, Mother who has cared for Amanda from baby to this size.

Before long Mba Tari and her husband came from Jakarta, she who had heard my story from Mba Rani only approached me for a while without a smile etched on her lips. "Remember, after all this process is over I'll make a calculation with you!"

I could only cry hearing it, all my family was hostile towards me and hated me so much. Finally, my body came from the hospital. I saw my mother's face one last time, looking so peaceful etched a faint smile on her face. I hugged her and apologized in her ear 'Mom forgive Mila, Mila love Mommy.' I whispered.

Mba Tari was still in this house until one week we finished doing studies. But there was never a conversation between the two of us, and neither was Father who still ignored me. But it's okay for me, the most important thing is that they all still love Amanda is enough.

"When you come, we all want to talk to you" said Mba Rani. I saw that Father and Mba Tari had also been sitting waiting for me.

"If you know we made a deal, even though Mom is gone, that doesn't mean you can be free from our deal, we all do not want to bear the disgrace of the sins you have committed" said Mba Rani.

I just fell silent and nodded while stroking my stomach. My stomach is actually very small, maybe the weight of this baby is very low because I am so much pressure and stressing me so rarely consume food and milk for pregnant women.

"Mba Tari has thought of everything, and your son will give it to Desi, a long-married friend of Mba Tari who has no children, who has no children, one more month when you're six months old come to my house Mila, and remember you don't get out of the house too often, we don't want people to know how you are!"

My heart was so relieved when I heard that there were good people willing to accept my baby, I did not need to feel confused about who to give this baby to. His future is not as bad as I imagined. Although I was really sad to have to part with him, he was my real son after all.

"Yes Mba Dance if it's for our good together I want to give this baby to Mba Desi."

"Good, one more month waiting for your arrival in Jakarta, and remember never to try to escape this situation, or else we won't let you meet Amanda again!"

"Yes Mba Mila knows she won't make any more mistakes."

"Yes already Dance home first yeah well, Rani, take care of Daddy and Amanda well, keep an eye on Kamila lest she act again!"

I could only see Mba Dance say goodbye to Dad and Mba Rani, but not to me. I then went into the room, I rubbed this stomach again.

"When we stay a little while, in a few months you'll meet the parents who will take care of you."

A kick I felt, I was so happy to feel this baby respond to my words. 'Son,," my words held back, I could no longer bear to continue it was so painful to imagine this separation with him.

Finally a month passed, today I am getting ready to leave the house. After a long silence, Dad finally wants to talk to me."Be careful on the road, son, in the deepest part of my heart I still consider and love the baby in your womb, but please understand with the condition of all of us Mila, this is also for your good in the future."

"Yes well, Mila understood, Mila also did not want Amanda to feel the impact of Mila's actions."

I just nodded, then for the first time I touched my stomach and felt my son's kick."Look at him kicking Father Mila's hand, you're also Grandpa Nak's granddaughter, one day we'll definitely meet" she said with a smile despite tears streaming down her cheeks.

"It's been mba, I've tipped off Daddy and Amanda ya Mba."

"Let's just relax, mba and Dad will take good care of Amanda, since childhood mba already considered her own biological child mba." 

"Thank you Mba" I said in tears, Amanda was in school, I was deliberately leaving when she was not at home so that I would not be too heavy to leave her, I couldn't see their sad faces when I left.

"The door of this house is always open to you when you can leave your child to the right person. Believe me Mila this is the best decision, you certainly do not want your child to get insults from others, very bad for your child's psychological development, you certainly do not want your child, I also want to keep Amanda from being made fun of by her friends if people know you're pregnant."

"When you understand, thank you for your kindness, when Mba Rani leaves now it seems like it is going to rain." I then follow Mba Rani into her car.

The day is so cloudy, I do not want if it rains we are still on the road because it can interfere with vision when Mba Rani is driving a car, Mba Rani's eyes minus quite high, and the eyes of Mba Rani, it will make him have trouble driving in the rain. But not long ago we drove suddenly Mba Rani's car broke down. Mba Rani also looked panicked and confused.

Many times he opened the front hood of the car, but we were just a woman who knew nothing about the car engine.

"Mba, Mila just took a taxi to the airport, afraid late, you should call Mas Ardi to ask for help finding a car mechanic."

"Are you okay Mila?"

"Father Mba I can take care of myself, I have also ordered a taxi online, maybe soon to come."

"Yes, you have been careful on the road, if you have arrived in Jakarta you tell mba."

"Yes Mba" then I walked towards the highway to make it easier for me to get a taxi quickly. I saw a black car approaching me and standing right in front of me. 'This must be the cab I ordered.'. Then I got in the car without checking the app on my phone.

"To the airport sir." I said.

After driving far enough away from Mba Rani suddenly the car stopped, I was so surprised, my chest was pounding so fast. I heard the driver laughing, I was like a stranger to hearing his voice.

"Good morning dear Kamila, where are you going?" he said, unceasingly laughing.

"It's none of your business, Randi!" I tried to open the car door, but the door was locked.

"It's very easy Mila don't try to escape from here, you won't be able to get away from me before we have fun baby, don't you miss the warmth of my body? Didn't you miss my lips when I kissed you?"

"Stop your words I'm disgusted at you, you irresponsible striped-nose man, your place is only deserved in hell!!!"

Hearing my words the look on Randi's face turned full of anger, his laughter stopped and looked at me so sharply. Then he came closer and hit me on the nape. "Taste this basic lady j*lang!!!". Then I lost consciousness.

These eyes felt like they had been closed for so long, I just woke up when I felt the liquid dripping on my face. My body and my hands are tied, I was held captive by Randi in an empty house.

"Have you woken up, dear Mila?" he said chuckling while holding the bottle of mineral water that had been dripped on me.

"Free me Randi, basic bi*dab!"

"Of course I'll set you free, Mila, but first you have to serve me, I've missed you." Then he moved closer to me.

"Tidaaakkkkk Pleasegggg...Helpgg!!!" I could only scream hoping someone would help me.