Parents For My Baby
The Delayed Happiness

"Kamilaaaa." Anton's voice calling me felt so soft. I went up to him and held his hand.

"Yes Mas, I'm here, you survive Mas, I'm sure you must be strong Mas."

"Kamilaaaa." her voice grew louder, suddenly her eyes closed again. I panicked so much that I called the nurses and doctors on the IGD, and they rushed into our room.

"OK, my friend why doc? he just woke up and called my name but then he was unconscious again."

The doctor then smiled "You don't have to worry, it's just a reaction to the medicine I gave him, we just pray that he can be awake as soon as possible."

"Yes doc, thank you so much."

"Together, I live first yes, tomorrow morning it can be moved to the treatment room."

I then nodded, all night I kept Anton in the IGD room, I worried so much about him that he could not sleep and stayed awake beside him.

I saw his face that was so pale, his handsome face now felt so pitiful filled with wounds, his burly body also looked fragile due to bruises all over his body.

"I'm sorry Anton, it's my fault." I said as I continued to cry.

Towards the morning the drowsiness began to whack, finally my eyes were closed accompanied by the sound of the morning adhan reverberating. Suddenly I was struck by a soft caress in my head. I opened my eyes, how shocked I was when I saw that I was asleep on Anton's chest.

"Ma.. Sorry, Anton, Mila didn't sleep here on purpose."

"Father Mila, mas seneng can be as much as you."

"It hurts so much."

"There's Mila, that's enough for me" he said with a laugh.

"Owww..."

"Why Mas, there is a pain so be careful that Mas Anton's hand is cracked, do not move much." I said accompanied by a cry that dripped on my cheek. Anton then looked at me, I was so nervous that even looking at his eyeballs I couldn't.

"Why are you crying Mila?"

"Sorry Mila, because Mila Mas is like this."

"It's okay Mila everything for you, don't think, if I don't understand you maybe I've lost the most meaningful person in my life."

I cried even more when I heard his words. "Sorry Mila mas, Mila still can't accept Mas Anton."

"Mila, I know your past, you just don't want to open your heart to others, try to open your heart Mila, forget your past, don't get caught up with Mila's past, your future could be ruined if you're still stuck in the past."

It's true that Anton said, maybe I can forget Randi, but I don't want to move on from my past with him.

"If you are a beautiful and smart woman, don't waste your time on uncertainty, make peace with the past and open a new page."

I nodded at Anton's words, which he said were true. I cannot make peace with the past. Actually, in the depths of my heart, there was something I thought about meeting Anton. I may have unwittingly started to love her, but I always denied that feeling. I always remember the trauma I experienced when I parted with my first love.

"Yes I understand, I must indeed forget all the bad memories in my life and start a new life."

"What about old man? Do I need to tell you about the circumstances?"

I was so surprised to hear the condition of the Anton family, I could not believe that behind his cheer he kept the problems in his family. The look on his face turned sour when I talked about his parents.

"Yes already Mas Anton do not have to be sad, there is Mila here, Mila promises to take care of Mas Anton until it is completely healed." I said with a smile.

Anton's face changed, his eyes sparkling with happiness. "What's really Mila, do you want me?"

"Yes Mas nih Mila promised, Mila will definitely nemenin Mas Anton until healed." I replied as I formed the number two on my finger.

One week in the hospital, Anton finally allowed to go home. I drove him home in a taxi. Anton's house is in a luxury residential complex in the Sleman area.

When we entered the house was so quiet, there were only two housekeepers and a gardener who was cleaning the yard.

"Ehhh den Anton is home, what would you like to drink?"

"When you want to drink what?"

"As for Anton."

"Bawain orange juice two yes Mba Murni bring to the room."

"Good den."

"Just go to my room, Mila, I want to sleep, my head is still a little dizzy if it stands too long."

I then helped Anton into the room, the room was so spacious. After helping Anton sleep in bed, Mba Murni came and gave us some juice. When Anton was drinking his juice I was interested in stepping foot into the balcony of the room, it felt like the wind was blowing so fresh and I wanted to enjoy the wind. I closed my eyes as the wind blew on my body, suddenly my body was so warm, I was so surprised when Anton was hugging me from behind."

"Mas, you're still sick, you're just sleeping Mas."

"I also want to enjoy the wind with you Mila."

Anton then hugged my body back, I began to lulled in his arms, without feeling like our lips had touched. Unconsciously I enjoyed it so much, that we were surprised by the raindrops that began to wet.

"If I love you, Mila, don't ever leave me."

I can only nod in his arms. The feeling in my heart I don't want to deny anymore if I really love him so much.

But at that moment I realized when I saw an object that signified the difference between me and Anton was in one corner of his room. A large cross adorned the corner of Anton's room. I started walking away from him.

"Mas, there's no way Mas, we can't possibly be together."

"What do you mean Mila?"

"Mas, we can't possibly unite Mas, we're different."

I ran away from Anton, my tears flowing down my cheeks. A confused looking Anton couldn't catch up to me because his condition was still not possible.

In the rain I cried and cried."Why God? Why did it have to happen again? Is it my fault why my love story has always been like this? When I started to love other people why couldn't she and I be together? Why God?Whyaa? Do I not deserve to be happy?"

My screams grew louder, people passing by seemed to notice me but I didn't care. It feels so painful.