Possessive Past
Chapter 1
The hard slap successfully hit Angkasa's cheek, the man could only close his eyes while clenching his hands hard.
"Why? Why is getting perfect grades so hard, Space? Wh why? You always occupy the second position, is it difficult to raise the value and get the first position? You always humiliate me! Mothers are always the subject of scorn for other mothers because you are always the second of your own lovers? The reason I told you to approach Hazel was to get what she got all this time, why can't you just take her?"
Angkasa closed his eyes, his hands were still clenched hard, his emotions were already at the top, but to yell at his own mother he could not take it—though his mother was very annoying.
"If you can't use this method, break him up, make him hurt to not focus on learning again! During the two years of being his closest person, you even walk in place, no progress!"
"I really love him, Mom, not to use him" Angkasa said.
The slap this time was even harder, even his mother pushed Angkasa down to the floor. Tears his mother dripped, he did not expect that Angkasa— the only child who became his hope—can to do so.
"Mother, every human being has his own capacity, don't always ask me to be perfect, do you know how bleak my days are? Out there, the child who ranked in the top ten also received an extraordinary award from his parents, but Mother, only Mother I have, I have, but I can't feel how to be a normal kid in general. Did you ever think, how bitter was my eighteen years in this world?" Space shed tears, only this time he dared to let out his heart.
"Because of your only hope Mother, Mother always demands that you be perfect, that you not be humbled by people, not like your father who was a fool to death because of his stupidity, I do not want to! This is all Mom did for you!" The eyes of the Mother of Space were round, she was crying with passionate emotions.
"I'm not a father, Mom, and I've never been ashamed of having a head like a father. Mom did this out of hatred for Hazel's mother, the woman who was the father's first love in the past, so I want to lower Hazel's mother's name and her family's, that's, right, Mom, that's, the real reality?"
Again Angkasa got a slap, a slap this time making the tip of the right lip of Angkasa bleed. "Hit me as much as Mom, I hope, the pain that I have felt so far can heal Mother's heart" said Angkasa.
Her mother was crying more and more.
"I'm not going to hurt the people I love, Mom, I'm sorry" Angkasa said.
This time his mother screamed loudly, the objects around him threw just like that, Angkasa could only stare with a sad face, his tears flowed but his face did not show that now he was crying.
Until his mother finally got tired of herself and chose to plop down on the cold floor, he hugged his knees firmly. In fact it is like that, his youth was too painful—where the man who would become his husband turned out to love another woman, he was still nineteen years old, but had to marry because of family demands. Household bland, until finally had to separate because her husband had to die for helping his first love, it makes him depressed, he wanted to make the first love of her husband suffer at any cost.
Because only Space he had, Space was the bait to make the Hazel family suffer. However, everything did not go as he wanted, it turns out his son was not on his side.
"You are all the same, you all kill me slowly, killing me in a vile way" said the Mother of Space as she tightened her arms around her knees.
"Mom, I beg you, let go of everything that has happened, I will continue to be miserable if I hold that grudge, let go, Mom, please," said Angkasa, the child is now there beside his mother. He rubbed his mother's shoulders, hoping that her mother could be calmer.
Space Mother brushed Angkasa's hand off her shoulder and went to the room just like that. Space could only exhale slowly while staring at her mother's increasingly distant back.
...***...
In the morning, the dining room that was messy last night was back as neat as before. Angkasa smelled delicious food from the kitchen, before long his mother came out of the kitchen carrying two dishes of fried rice, her smile expanding as before. Space smiled even though his cheeks hurt.
"Let's eat" said the Mother of Space.
Angkasa nodded while pulling the chair for him to sit on.
"Study right, you should be able to get the best value, this afternoon I will go to the boutique until late at night, you lock the door if I do not go home, I bring a spare key. Do not play much," said the Mother of Space after finishing her morning breakfast, she took an empty plate and then rose to the kitchen.
Space sighed softly, the hope of having a mother who could appreciate what she had turned out to be this difficult. He thought that after he put a burden on his mind, his mother would be conscious and not restrain him anymore, but on the basis of hope, it was not necessarily a reality.
"The departure time, Mom," said Angkasa after taking the bag from his room. Her mother did not say anything when she could see her mother in the kitchen washing dirty dishes.
Finally Angkasa who approached him, but had not had time to step closer, his mother immediately forbid.
"Just go," said his mother.
Space nodded then turned around, every day it made no difference. And he's used to all this.
...***...
As her bike is parked in the school parking lot, Hazel runs to get to her side. His smile expanded, it made Angkasa smile as well. He has known Hazel since Junior High. He did not dare to approach because his mother always forbade him to be close to Hazel's family.
Hazel is this sweet, she always looks cheerful. When his mother told him to approach Hazel, he still had no real feelings, but, two years, he knew her and her family closely, he is stuck with his own feelings—antara wants to keep the feeling so that his mother does not hurt, or forget what his mother said so that Hazel does not hurt. To this day, he is still confused about his own feelings. But when someone asks her if she loves Hazel, obviously, she loves Hazel.
"So, why is your face bruised?" Hazel's smile suddenly faded away. "Who are you fighting?"
Angkasa smiled as sweetly as possible, he held the hand of Hazel who was stroking his cheek slowly. "Well men, all men must have fought, don't worry, this is not how much, you know, right, if I am strong? Let's smile again, you're sweet if you smile again" said Angkasa.
Finally Hazel smiled, she could not help but smile when Angkasa looked at her like that.
"All men have quarreled, but I hope you don't fight, what if you get sick? If there's still a peaceful way, why fight, energy drain!"
Space laughs back. "Yes, my Hazel," said Angkasa, "ah now I know why your father and mother named Hazel, your eye lens hazel, I love to see her." Although this is a reality, in fact he is trying to divert the conversation.
"If you want to date not at school, do not know adab! Muslim but his behavior is not appropriate," hardened a man of great stature, this man is indeed known as the annoying upperclassman of all time. Whatever doesn't fit in his eyes, he's a judge.
Space laughed at Hazel's angry face, under any circumstances, Hazel still looked adorable in her eyes.
"But every time he meets he must make my blood rise, yesterday I was lectured because my hair looks like, he is a great hobby, anyway, blasphemy people, like it's good," Hazel said, "who is he, anyway?" he asked Angkasa who had been staring at him with a smile.
"She's the target of many women, you know, are you not interested in her? His name is Firga Gunnar Zakhi son of Gunnar's extended family, who has a large company, his father and mother are religious experts, the money he has he donated to orphanages, boarding schools, pesantren, schools in need, they're good families, I know this because the news has spread to the mass media."
Hazel clucked no like. "Oh, I don't think he's, for me Space is number one! About the rich kid, want to be arrogant? Ah, my mom's dad also has company, but I'm not arrogant, I don't like him, nyebelin!"
Space is laughing again. This is the Hazel she knew. He most do not like to be upset, if something makes him upset, he does not hesitate to say spicy words, if he is unable to say he will cry.
"Don't take too much of another person's word, his intention may be pure of our compassion, we should say thank you, don't overdo it, you say, right, if there is a way of peace, why should we fight? You also, more patiently become a human, to get used to, as adults later, life will be heavier, if we are not familiar with the word patience, we will be stressed, you know," angkasa said as he rubbed Hazel's head.
Hazel smiled sweetly while nodding. "Well, are we going to class, okay?"
Space nodded, they walked hand in hand towards class. Everyone already knew that Angkasa and Hazel were dating, according to the people, they fit in, one was meek, the other was quite bar-bar if it was angry. So complement each other.
...***...
After school Hazel crosses paths with Firga, she doesn't look at Hazel at all, but instead she looks at him with a look of annoyance, she still holds a grudge against this annoying fellow.
"Basar lo you arrogant man!" hazel said behind Firga.
Firga stopped her steps and turned her body, she looked at Hazel who was looking at her with a fleeting look of hatred.
"What are you saying I'm arrogant?" ask Firga.
"Yes because you are arrogant, mentang-about rich people's children so apply as good as the eyed, you think everyone is happy with the same spicy words that you say, I hate the same lo. You think, only your parents have a company, my father and mother also have a company, but I've never been arrogant like you!"
Firga smiled obliquely. "Are you sure you're not arrogant? I never talk about who my family is to anyone, other people know who I am and who my parents are, but you, subconsciously you are bragging in front of me. Do not be too easy to say hate, all things can turn around with unexpected conditions, do not let you be ashamed of what you say in the future. Beware of the oral, Prophet Muhammad also advised us to keep the oral, remember, your mouth your tiger." After taking out those words, Firga immediately turned around and walked back, leaving Hazel who was still idly fixated after being stained with words that managed to make her still freeze.
"He's not human, heck, really cool ah!" Hazel immediately ran towards the parking lot, her face reddened, between enduring embarrassment and crying, she wanted to quickly meet Angkasa.
...***...
The pensive space looked at the cloudy sky, soon it would rain. He looked to the right and to the left, looking for Hazel. He said he wanted to go home together, because that's why Angkasa didn't go straight home. He was not a class with Hazel, Hazel was in class XI-1 while he was in class XI-3.
"Why is your face red?" ask Space.
Hazel got on the Space Motor. "I'm so happy, Ka, I met the class sister again, I want to anger her, even get hospitality again, really cool," said Hazel while hugging the waist of Angkasa.
"Next year he graduated, anyway, don't deal with him anymore, if he talks don't get used to it, you'll be tired of yourself if you keep thinking about him."
Hazel nodded her head. "Take me home, will you, Ka?"
This time it was Space that nodded. "Yes I'm taking it."
...***...
Arriving at Hazel's house, Space is welcomed. Although Hazel's mother knew that Angkasa's mother hated her so much, she never hated her child, for her, if Angkasa and Hazel were happy, she would agree. Hazel's family did not put forward religious issues in her life. That's why they let Hazel date.
"Gold, eat first, yuk?" haggard Hazel's Mother.
Space smile. "Thank you, Auntie, but sorry Angkasa has tutoring, next time Angkasa must be eating together, Aunt."
Hazel's mother smiled as she rubbed Angkasa's shoulders. He looked at Space like his own son.
"Yes, learn the right thing so that your mother is happy, always love her, Angkasa, only you hope now, Auntie pray that you are given ease in everything."
Space nodded as he made Hazel's mother speak. After that, he immediately let her go home. His mother had already paid a lot of tutors to guide him, if he did not come to tutoring, his mother could be angry again.
...•••...
...He came to give color after I approached to hurt. But I was caught too deep and confused by what decision I should make....
...Davier Space...
...-...
...Do not hate someone too much, because humans are not always consistent with their own feelings. Believe it?...
...Firga Gunnar Zakhi's...