Possessive Past
CHAPTER 10 - It's Time

Thinking of Space, Hazel couldn't sleep until morning. Fortunately, today was a holiday. He is still anxious because Angkasa still has not returned his message, he is afraid Angkasa why-not. The more days he gets confused, the more curious he is about everything, and he feels.

Actually he wanted to ask, but he did not have the guts, for some reason it felt so heavy, his conscience seemed to say.

After breakfast, Hazel re-enters the room, not as usual. Usually during the holidays Hazel prefers to be outside the room. Either bother her brother, chat with her mother, or ask her father a lot. Seeing Hazel moody, her mother approached the room. He thinks Hazel is fighting Space.

"Hazels?" call Miss Lily from Hazel's room door.

Hazel immediately replied and then opened the door, her smile immediately when faced with her mother. Apparently ... smiled to cover the wound was this difficult, usually Hazel always revealed what she felt, but now.

Miss Lily smiled, she went straight into Hazel's room and locked her room back tightly.

"Why you?" ask Miss Lily.

Hazel trembled, the look and smile her mother gave her seemed to hold a lot of meaning. His heart was pounding, apparently he was too late to realize this. He's getting more convinced .. There's something in the past.

Hazel shakes. "I'm nothing, Mother," said Hazel.

Miss Lily rubbed Hazel's shoulders gently. "You can tell everything to Mom, I'll listen. Don't be damned yourself, I know you're not doing well. Are you the same Space quarrel? What did Zayn say, Angkasa to the dress shop with another woman? Are you the same as he did?"

Hazel stared deeply into her mother's bead, figuring out the hidden meaning of the stares and smiles she looked at. But nil, he is not good at reading the faces of people without asking questions and listening to the answer directly.

 "I .. I've been kind to Angkasa, last night he came here, sorry I didn't say, I'm afraid Mother and sister Zayn didn't let me out, I didn't let him out, that's why I came out without your knowledge. She's clear on everything, and she says .. her mother made her go with Arsy."

Ms. Lily nodded, she had expected this, Erika's mother would not be satisfied before her grudge was met. "Are you the same Space actually loves? Does Angkasa like to lie to you? Did his mother treat you well? When you go to the Space House, do you feel comfortable?"

Hazel frowned. "What happened in the past, Mom?" ask Hazel suddenly.

It managed to leave his mother speechless, his smile faded, but he hurriedly smiled back.

"What happened in the past .. whose past? Obviously a lot has happened in the past, do you have to tell it every time? It must be longer than a drama, hundreds or even thousands of episodes, are you sure?" mrs Lily said with a laugh.

Hazel was silent for a moment. "I feel .. The mother of Space does not like me, her gaze, her smile. And I also feel, Mother, father, brother Zayn, you're like you're keeping something from me. Father and brother Zayn who always told me not to overdo it, even dad did not hesitate to tell me to stop loving Angkasa, and Mother ... it feels like Mom's gaze on me and Space holds its own meaning. I didn't know ... all night I thought about this, and I admit, I was late to realize it. Is my feeling wrong, Mom? Or is it true, there's something I don't know?"

"Hazel .. you seem to be overdoing it" said Ms. Lily, rubbing Hazel's shoulder.

Hazel shakes. "Mother's attitude convinced me more, what exactly, Mom? What the hell's going on? Why are you all hiding it from me? I beg ... I also deserve to know, right?"

Miss Lily was silent, she looked at Hazel with a sad look. And in the end, Hazel must know this dark story.

"Are you sure of how you feel?" ask Miss Lily.

Hazel nodded enthusiastically. "Yes, I'm sure, Mom."

Bu Lily sighed softly then nodded with a small smile. "You're right, and maybe it's time you knew all this."

...***...

Ms. Erika continued to stare at Space as the child fed her, she acted like a fine person, as if forgetting what happened before. It makes the heart of Erika's mother sick, on the other hand she feels sorry for her son, on the other hand she does not like what her son does. The face of Angkasa is very similar to her husband before, about her attitude that is almost equally revolted for what she wants - she was upset, she wanted Space different, she wanted to be different, he does not want Space to defend people he hates.

Since then Angkasa did not say anything, he just kept quiet while feeding his mother. In that silence, his heart and mind were not well. His brain was filled with a dialogue of debate between him and himself.

"After taking the medicine, you better go to bed, I'm gonna go out for a while."

"Where are you going?"

Space stopped, but he did not turn back. He had promised Hazel that he would come back to his house to apologize to his family, but.

"I want to eat out, some days I'm less refreshing." After saying that he just came out.

When he got to the room he immediately took a shower and prepared to leave for Hazel's house. After tidying up he just left without asking permission again with his mother. He thought his mother was sleeping now because he had seen in some of his medicines that contain sleeping pills. In reality, his mother did not take any medicine.

Ms. Erika suffered from mild depression, she often acted spontaneously, her feelings were upset. Hugging her knees while crying is the only way she can't hurt herself. Without Space knowing, he is often like this, crying over everything, acting unnatural, afraid to hurt yourself.

Space hissed as he looked at his own face on the pawnshop, he looked pale and terrifying. Hazel would be worried if she saw him like this. He exhaled and then rubbed his face slowly. His smile was immediately imprinted.

"With a smile, people will not realize how I feel right now, just smile, that is enough," said Angkasa. After saying that, he rushes his bike straight to Hazel's house.

Today her father, mother, and brother are at home, she has to mentally prepare to face everything, especially her father and sister Hazel who always look at her with suspicious looks.

When he got to Hazel's house, he squinted, there was a motor parked in front of the gate, the driver was pressing the bell. His eyebrows shot up, he knew who the man was.

...***...

Hazel fell silent while sitting on the bed, her face turned serious, her hands clenched. Suddenly his tears trickled down, he bit his lower lip to hold back his crying voice.

"Is it possible that the people were rumored to be right, Angkasa approached me because he wanted to use me? Wh-why, Mom? Why do I feel so claustrophobic about this ...." Hazel's shoulders trembled, her cries completely breaking after knowing everything.

Space Smile, her gentle treatment, everything she had on her, all the perfection Hazel saw from the figure of Space swirled back in her memory.. He was still trying to positive thingking, but the speculation about Angkasa approaching him with the intention of wanting to take advantage of it actually attacked his heart blindly.

"Why didn't you tell me this in the beginning? If you know this, wouldn't I hate her, like her mother who always hated our family? Mom ... how is this, I really love her, does she really love me?" This time Hazel's cries were already unbearable.

Seeing Hazel cry, Lily's mom started crying, she felt guilty for not telling me this at the beginning.

"Do I have to hate him, Mom? Then what about my feelings? Do I have to bury him forcibly, torture myself? Really ... why he's so bad. Her mother snatched Mom's lover, she hated Mom and tried to destroy Mom, and now Angkasa, does she want to ruin my life too? I really hate this fact, where I have to love my own enemies."

Miss Lily hugged Hazel. "Don't hate them, don't remember bad memories, all humans can change over time, you can't conclude everything in one response, it could be, right, he's really sincere. I beg ... if you are like this I feel guilty from all sides. Let the memories of the past happen, but now, open a new page with a beautiful story, the darkness of the past is enough in the past."

Hazel is getting chased, her feelings like being torn apart, how can she hate Angkasa? How could she let go of what Space mom did to her family?  How should he choose? How do you forget the people you love? Pulling or staying away so as not to deal anymore, it makes Hazel stress.

"I'll end it all now Mother, let it be, I ...." Hazel dropped to the floor and cried even louder. "But how ... how is he so good at masking everything that it makes me love him so much?" Hazel's body shook.

Miss Lily can only cry while silent, she increasingly feels guilty for bringing her child with her problems in the past that never ended.

"Don't be rash, Hazel, don't hurt your own heart, you can discuss this with Space directly, you can ...."

"What can you do, Mom? Even if he really loves me, why he lies, why his family is so evil, I really hate him."

"Don't keep one evil alive until it's firmly rooted, let it happen first, don't spill the problem then to his children, including you and Angkasa, I beg you ... you can discuss this first, don't be rash, don't hurt your own heart, or you'll hate yourself for being late to tell you."

"Hazel, there are guests ...." That's Zayn's voice.

...***...

The space approached towards the man, when their eyes met, they were both silent.

"What are you doing here?" ask Angkasa, it turns out that man is Firga.

"Told to come with Arga" said Firga.

Angkasa knitted his eyebrows together, his face relaxed again when he found out that Hazel's family with the Firga family was close to him. There may be something to talk about, which has nothing to do with Hazel.

Shortly after seeing Zayn's face from behind the gate, he stared at Angkasa and Firga in turn without speaking. Until he finally opened the gate wide.

"Please come in, bring the bike inside, then go straight to the living room." After saying that he went straight into the house first.

Firga went first, after that Space. Firga was walking leisurely, while Angkasa was walking with a huff. From Zayn's gaze alone he could already guess what would happen inside later.

When it was in the living room, Firga and Angkasa were both silent. It was a long wait until Hazel came out with her mother, just the two of them. Before leaving thought Hazel would be worried about him, but now she was worried about Hazel, her face reddened, puffy, like someone had just cried.

Hazel, who usually smiles and approaches when Angkasa comes to her house, this time is different, she sits down next to her mother.

"Firga called om Arga, huh? He said he wanted to talk about the company, your father contacted us last night, could go directly to the workspace, already there is Arga and Zayn there, let's transfer aunt," said Miss Lily.

Hazel pulls the edge of her mother's shirt when her mother wakes up from sitting, Lily smiles and takes Hazel's hand off her shirt. He wanted to give time for Hazel and Angkasa to discuss the matter.

After his mother and Phirga left, Hazel remained silent, and Angkasa woke up and went to him first. "Why you?" tanyakanya.

Hazel instead moved away as Angkasa approached, Angkasa knitted his eyebrows together confused, not usually Hazel like this, is it possible that he is still upset by yesterday's incident.

"You're still mad at me?" angkasa asked, "i'm really sorry, I didn't lie, I really forced my mother."

Hazel nodded, her face turning red. "Yes, you don't lie about that, but you lie about something else, you ...." Hazel shed her tears, she immediately covered her face with her palms, her body shaking withstanding the burst of crying.

Space tries to touch her, but Hazel always brushes him off. "How is this ... What should I do now, Angkasa?" hazel said in her tears.

Space is getting confused. "What's? You why? Try to explain slowly," said Angkasa.

"I already know everything, you who should be lazy now, where will our relationship go? Should we stop it now?"

Space lowered its head, its heart pounded, and in the end Hazel knew it all. He nodded his head while smiling softly.

"And in the end, the carcass will still smell even though buried underground, I am a loser," said Angkasa.

"How serious? Is it true that people say that your goal is to approach me because you want to use me? Is that true? Can you explain? Why are you so evil? Wh why? I should have hated you, because your father and mother had made my family's life unsettled. Do you want to ruin me now? Dropping me slowly? Why, Space?"

Space nodded without looking at Hazel. He took a slow breath and turned towards Hazel. "Yes, that was my original goal."

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