Possessive Past
Chapter 3

Space immediately smiled as it reached in front of Hazel. The smile that had been looking sweet in Hazel's eyes turned out to store a lot of pressure. Space initially just wanted to do what his mother wanted, but, the more he knew Hazel, the more he loved her. Hazel can turn her dark days into color, so it's hard for Space to forget, let alone hurt her.

"So who?" hazel asked, apparently he saw that Angkasa was talking to women at the food reservation.

"I don't know what his name is, which is clear he's our junior brother at school, he once reprimanded me several times at school when there was no you," replied Angkasa honestly.

Hazel nodded her head as she glanced at the woman of yesterday— who was still excited, I don't know what to talk about.

"If there's a beautiful woman you can be comfortable with, would you turn your back on me, Ka?" hazel asked as she stared fixedly at Space.

The small smiling Space, the way he looked at Hazel and the way he talked to Hazel, was very different to how Space looked at and talked to others. Everyone who sees it will feel the difference.

"You jealous?" tanyakanya.

Hazel immediately threw a pissed face. "I asked him again."

This time the sky laughed. "I've been looking for comfort outside, but not everyone can make me comfortable. Once at ease with one person, it is difficult to find comfort on the other side. I can't be that easy to open my heart, Hazel, you know what my character is, right? You once said that you know me better than I know myself." Space Smile imprinted after saying that.

Hazel couldn't help but smile when she saw Space's smile. The space has a smile that can bewitch anyone who sees it to smile. Even when silent, her face often makes Hazel smile.

Without Space and Hazel knowing, from different directions Firga looked towards them. Phirga can at least be silent when he sees people committing sins. Because of this, he often counseled others with his scathing words. The business is run or not, it has become his own responsibility, which is important he has advised. But this time, it was impossible to approach them just to advise, especially there was very crowded. Firga finally threw her face to the side.

"I won't let Kiara be like her" Firga said in her heart. Although Kiara is often upset with him, Firga always thinks about Kiara, the boy was not like that, he was wrong since Junior High until now. His age is only one year different from Firga, now he is in the eleventh grade of High School in the same school as Firga.

"On behalf of Firga" said the waiter.

The heads of Angkasa and Hazel turned simultaneously as Firga woke up from her seat. Hazel immediately threw away her face, for some reason when she saw Firga she always felt annoyed.

Angkasa stared at Firga until the person came out of the restaurant, in the eyes of Angkasa, Firga was a good man, only, the way he showed his kindness was very different from others. He was in a class with his sister Firga, even his sister was reluctant to him, in her hair class looked, but when she wanted to leave the class was immediately tidied up for fear of being discovered by her brother. It can be seen that Firga is a strict man.

"You had a crush on him the same time?" Hazel's words made Space's head look forward and then smile lightly.

"Yes, I have a crush on men, I'm a normal man, Hazel" said Angkasa.

Hazel hissing. "Partially concerned about aja daritadi, try to see a woman like that, I've pinched your hair."

Space just laughed in response to Hazel. During the two years of contact with Hazel, every minute and second, Angkasa always felt guilty, even though his love and affection were no longer fake, but because of his initial intention of wanting to take advantage of it, he continues to feel guilty. He can't imagine Hazel knowing her initial motive.

"Why else, now even look at me like that, make what mistake are you?"

Space shakes. "I love you" he said, rubbing Hazel's head.

Hazel just smiled, although she felt suspicious, because she believed in Angkasa, she dispelled the suspicion.

"I love you more" said Hazel, smiling sweetly.

...***...

When he arrived at the house Firga immediately rushed to his sister's room. He knocked on the door a few times but Kiara never opened it.

"Well, I'm sorry," he said gently, "I brought your favorite food, let's go down, we eat together, today the same father will come home late, you most do not like to eat alone, you most do not like to eat alone, right?"

What others see is only Firga with his spiciness, whereas, Firga also has a gentle attitude, therefore Kiara is disinclined with him, Firga does not like to be denied, he said, but what he said for Kiara's sake, Kiara was often angry with Firga, but Firga always apologized with him, whenever anyone asked how the real Firga, Kiara just smiled, she said, they don't need to know, her brother is a rare species on this earth.

Finally Kiara came out, she was still wearing the clothes earlier, her face reddened from crying.

Firga smiled slightly as she rubbed the cheeks of her only sister. "Sorry," he said.

Kiara nodded, in a hoarse voice she said, "i'm sorry too."

Firga immediately rubbed Kiara's head. "I love you, so I forbid you, I don't want you to be considered a silly girl. Women are jewelry of the world, do not humble yourself with clothes do not close the aurat, excessive and so forth, understand?"

Kiara nodded as she wiped the rest of her tears.

"Let's eat." Firga immediately embraced her little sister's body.

"Where are you out of?" kiara asked as they descended on the stairs.

"To my father's office, it's stop by to buy food" replied Firga.

Kiara nodded. "That's why I didn't have to cry, mending follow Brother out earlier."

Firga laughed a little. "Some of you, it's still a big whiny."

Kiara pursed her lips. "Finally, Brother always makes me check, if I'm out of words, right, all I can do is cry," said Kiara honestly.

Again Firga laughed a little. "You want to go outside?" bargained for.

"I'd like to take you outside, but don't wear your clothes like this, your face too, don't be that thick, remove it."

Kiara nodded. "Yes, I'll remove it later, I'll change my dress, but really, yes, sister?"

Firga nodded right at the last rung of the stairs. "Yes, let's eat now, we have to run out, yeah, but?"

Kiara nodded with a smile. "Yes." Yeah."

...***...

After dinner the clock still shows at eight. Hazel who still does not want to go home invites Angkasa to go around, Hazel is the type of person who likes to see nature rather than shopping and the like when with her lover. Last year she took Angkasa to the mountains with her classmates, climbed together to the top, it was what Hazel liked, her face was feminine, her soul was adventurous, because Hazel was very concerned about her parents, she said, if you want to go everywhere must be permission, and every permit he submits does not necessarily get approval if it has entered his father. Therefore once out want him to go directly around seeing nature.

"Ka, later if we have graduated High School, we go abroad, yuk?" hazel said a little screamed because he was on the bike.

Angkasa smiles, but his heart feels pain, even Hazel always thinks their relationship continues to last, even though it is still ambiguous, whether until when all this will stop, and either stop on the basis of what— denied mother, or leave Hazel.

"Would you get permission from your father?" ask Space.

Hazel laughed as she spread out her arms, the streets were quiet, if it were crowded she would not dare to spread out such hands.

"I have a mainstay style to persuade dad, dad most can not see I do not eat because I can not get permission to go out, not get out, surely later on Dad said nothing as long as you take good care of yourself. My father is a fierce face, his heart is soft. Hah ... This world is full of deceit, yes, whose fierce face can be soft heart, whose soft face can have a bad heart, may I never be fooled."

Angkasa's smile faded, his chest tightened, it didn't feel good to be in this position. Where he must be masked to be a good man. He doesn't even know if he's a good person or not.

"Ka, brother Zayn once said, he said I am the same you do not fit because you are too soft while I think gini, haha .. he just envy me, all this time he, right, I guess, never thought of a relationship called dating."

Space laughs blandly. "You are also soft," said Angkasa.

"I'm too spoiled, selfish, always following emotions rather than conscience, that's the truth" Hazel said, hugging Angkasa from behind.

"Don't be ugly yourself, Hazel," Angkasa said, wiping Hazel's hand on her stomach.

"That's the truth, Ka, so I'm grateful to have a boyfriend like you. The fire against the fire is getting bigger, but if the fire against the water can be extinguished, and you are like the water in my life, Ka."

Hearing that Hazel is grateful to have her, the desire to fight for her relationship with Hazel becomes even more passionate, but when she remembers only the mother she has now, her guts return. He could only cover it all with a smile. As long as he can be with Hazel, he will try to make her happy. In the end, however, he will make Hazel happy while it is still there.

"I know why you are given the name Angkasa, when I look at the sky, my feelings become calm, she looks beautiful. It describes the figure of Space that I know, you are a beautiful creation of God, every look you, I always feel calm, in a sense, I am calm because I can still look at you, your smile, you are, everything that is on you. Angkasa, since two years I know you, related to you, your name has been attached to my heart.

"Sometimes I feel inferior, you are too perfect, even to this second I have never heard of your ugliness. Someone else must have thought, I'm the lucky one to get you, and they feel sorry for you for having a boyfriend like me. That's reality, I don't mind."

"I'm also lucky to have you, Hazel. Do not listen to the words of others, others can assume, our duties, do not swallow their words. Strain first, the good apply the bad leave," said Angkasa.

"Aa. .. You are very clever, yes, make people float children," said Hazel while pinching the waist plan of Space, Angkasa just laughed in response.

...***...

After driving Hazel home, Angkasa went straight home. Apparently his mother had gone home, but the clock still showed at nine o'clock past. This morning her mother said she was coming home late, maybe not so.

"Where from?" asked Angkasa Mother while combing her hair that was still wet, it seemed like she had finished bathing.

Space stopped its steps. "Go with Hazel" he said.

The Space Mother nodded. "Good, yes, you, now you dare to leave the house without permission."

Angkasa sighed softly while clenching his hands hard. Every night that never changes, a fight before bed that is like a daily activity. There was always something his mother was concerned about.

The Mother of Space woke up from her seat and stood in front of Space. "You're really in love, huh, same kid?" tanyakanya.

Space lowered his head while biting his lower lip. He just nodded.

The mother of Space threw the comb that she had just held into any place. "Remember this well, until whenever I won't approve of you, if you still want to get in touch with him without the frills of utilizing, don't show your face in front of me, you're not my son anymore!" After saying that the Space Mother directly went to her room.

Angkasa closed his eyes, remembering how his relationship with Hazel had been. Since living in the world, he never felt comfortable, at home there was always a fight, often a target of emotions, constrained to be perfect, and so forth. However, when he knew Hazel, he could feel what comfort was, what it felt like to be loved without being restrained to look perfect, it was not easy to determine. Actually, he was very sick of what his mother had done in his life all this time, but, to leave him, he would have no power. Although his mother always felt less with what he had, what he got, he still loved his mother, and no matter how his mother treated him.

Space grabbed the hair hard without making a sound. His face was red, but his tears could not be shed. His chest was tight, but he couldn't cry. It was like being squeezed in a room without oxygen, trying to survive this stuffy life.

Just as he was about to step into the room, his phone rang, there was a phone call from Hazel. The space immediately lifted him without making a sound.

"You're home yet? There's nothing, right, on the road?" ask Hazel.

Space just muttered in response.

"Thank God, if you go to sleep immediately, even if tomorrow is a vacation, you still can not stay up late. You were pale, like a sick person, just I didn't say anything, take care of yourself, yes, my space, I love you, I love you, good night, have a good dream." After saying that Hazel immediately disconnected the phone. Angkasa smiled wryly as he looked at Hazel's contact name.