Possessive Past
CHAPTER 12 - Not Easy to Let Go

A week that usually feels short, now passes so slowly. During this holiday Hazel is really full time with family, no vacation with friends or. Crying every night, pretending to be happy when the morning comes so as not to get the father-nagging-it really feels slow and unpleasant.

Today he will start school again, which usually feels good, this time it feels scary, he is still not ready to meet with Angkasa. He could still be thankful that their classes were not the same, so he could still avoid them.

Hazel's eyes rounded when she saw Angkasa in the parking lot, she immediately ran away before Angkasa saw her. Honestly, it was painful, two years of contact, now he has to try to avoid and pretend not to know.

"Hazel, wait!" That's Ayesha's voice. Hazel immediately patted his forehead, his friend who did not know that he was no longer in contact with Angkasa. Because of Ayesha's voice, Angkasa, who was unaware of Hazel's whereabouts, turned to face Hazel as Hazel turned to Ayesha with a pale face.

Angkasa lowered his head, wanting to greet Hazel, but he already had no right to do that. She was sure that Hazel would hate her now.

"Where you go, connected can not, even though my vacation fits the same kids go to the beach, be lo not invited."

Hazel laughs awkwardly, she does not activate her phone in the morning, afternoon and evening, she is only active at night - before bed - to check important information only. It feels like when using a mobile phone, memories with Angkasa seem to spin back, so avoiding it is the best way not to be sad for long as his father said.

"Gu-go ...."

Hazel had not yet finished her words, Ayesha's head turned around as she watched Angkasa pass by them without even turning her head. Hazel did not stare at Angkasa at all, her heart instantly beating, upon seeing her dry wounds as if wet again. Bemoan.

"That's the Angkasa don't see what? How about nyelonong?" ayesha asked, "usually if you see it stop immediately."

"Gue is the same as he broke up, Sha," said Hazel hoarsely, she was holding back a cry, I don't know why when asked something by a friend when the problem is still happening it feels so painful to want to cry immediately at that moment.

Ayesha's eyes were round, she looked in disbelief. "No way, I can, crazy! Why?" he asked with a face of shock.

The more asked the more wanted to cry, this time Hazel immediately hugged Ayesha, her friend this one has followed her love story with Angkasa from seed until it collapsed like now. Hazel cries in Ayesha's arms.

"Don't cry here, you want to get gossip? Let's go to the bathroom for a minute." Ayesha immediately pulled Hazel by the hand, Hazel could only duck while covering her face while walking towards the bathroom.

"Gue lied, Sha, I ...." Hazel's getting after. On the other hand he wants to tell everything so that people know that Angkasa is a liar, but on the deepest side he does not have the heart, he does not want Angkasa in bad-stamped. All he could do now was cry.

"Duh, Zel, there's a lot of good guys out there, don't nangisin jerk, no matter how good a human being there must be a bad side, come on ... later if you cry he even feels like winning has lied to you," said Ayesha as if she understood what Hazel said.

"Don't tell anyone about the Space that lied to me, I still don't believe, I can't bear him being the talk of people, I beg you, Sha. I tell this story to you because I believe the same lo, do not break my trust, I'm afraid I can not believe the same people again if you to do similar things like him," hazel said in a cry.

Ayesha rubbed Hazel's back slowly. "Crazy, why also I dismantle my own friend's problem, if I open it, you open my disgrace, most also my disgrace rather than disgrace, just calm down."

"Gue was so sad, Sha, I still don't think, I can't tell you what the problem is because it's a big problem, I .. ah I can't speak."

Ayesha took off Hazel's embrace and patted her shoulder with a smile. "Gue will help you sincerely, let's go to class, remove the tears first, do not forget to wash your face, later if the bell hit our punishment."

Hazel nodded while wiping her tears, her shoulders still shaking, fortunately she was not wrong to look for a friend when she chose the wrong lover.

...***...

Angkasa pinched his forehead when he reached class, he deliberately threw his face through Hazel, not because he hated her, he just did not want to add to the sadness when he saw her face.

Not only does Hazel rarely use social media, she also does. During the holidays he was busy taking care of his unconscious mother for three days and when he woke up he had a stroke until he could not speak. After realizing that his mother looked strange, often revolted until a sedative subscription was injected, three days continued like that he was finally taken to the Mental Hospital because his mild depression had now become acute, and he was taken to the Mental Hospital, he did not even recognize Angkasa as his son.

Suffering never stopped raining, he was really tired but not given a gap to rest. Now that he has officially become the twelfth grader of High School, there will be a lot of costs incurred, now he is confused about where to get the money from. His mother would not be able to work if it was still like that, inevitably he had to work.

He could not sleep overnight just to think about this problem, not only that, he also forgot to eat.

"Lo why, Ka?" ask Petrick-his friends.

Space immediately rubbed his face violently then smiled. "It's okay."

Petrick hissing. "Lo nyeremin, Ka, I know you again there is a problem, but still like to cover up the same smile you, during your vacation do not eat time? You're a little thin, keep your eyes red too, like a sleep-deprived person, uh or drunk lo, huh?"

Angkasa laughed, he did not dare to come to the club or drink alcohol again. Once drinking alcohol regretted it protracted.

"Gue couldn't sleep last night, my mother was sick" Angkasa said.

"What pain?"

"It was originally a heart attack, but now it has to be treated at RSJ for depression." After saying that Angkasa immediately exhaled slowly, wanting to be cursed no matter how this news will be revealed even though he did not say it, so why cover it.

Petrick covered his mouth with a palm. "Why, why did you get depressed?"

Space shrugs its shoulders and shakes its head on the table. "Don't ask anything first, yes," said Angkasa.

During his sitting with him - since the eleventh grade of High School-Petrick never saw Angkasa angry, he so did not dare to talk again, said the person who rarely angry it if already angry can be very scary.

Without anyone knowing, Angkasa cried, it felt really crowded, for eighteen years living with restraints, now he must be able to survive on his own. He did not dare to ask for this - it was to the family of his father and mother, who he knew, after the father died the family relationship between his parents stretched, even when Lebaran arrived, his mother never visited relatives or visited him, he doesn't understand his family's problems, it's complicated.

...***...

Ayesha really helped Hazel to recite the Space, why she said she gave it up, she said that forgetting it would not be possible, because the more forgotten it would be remembered. The best way to move on is to let him back together or with others.

"Let's go to the cafeteria, I'm sure there's a lot of handsome juniors in our school, people say our school's a handsome man's harvest every year. All race how to be senior brother, gas!" ayesha said as she pulled Hazel's hand.

Hazel smiled and hugged Ayesha, since this one friend kept trying to make her laugh.

Just down from the second floor, Hazel was instantly frozen with the sight before her. Arsy pulls Space's hand, Angkasa brushes him off until he finally falls in Space's embrace. Hazel's face immediately flushed red, it's not that easy to give away our loved ones.

Hazel immediately turned around, her eyes were already hot, wanting to shed tears immediately.

Ayesha hissing. "Crazy, how crazy you are to be a girl" Ayesha said with a small laugh with a condescending face. "Ka, I marked you" he said again before turning around to chase Hazel.

Space immediately released Arsy's body from his embrace, Arsy who was not ready immediately fell to the floor, people who noticed immediately closed their mouths to hold back laughter.

On the other hand Hazel cried back in class, she had tried to hold him back but could not. He really did not want Angkasa to be close to any woman, but he already had no right to prohibit. 

"This way, Sha, I can't stop crying" said Hazel, shaking her face with her hands.

"Inhale .. discard .... Let's go again, take a breath .. discard .... How's it?"

Hazel put her shoulders up, still trying to calm herself down.

"Drink now" said Ayesha.

Actually Ayesha is still confused by the problems that occur between Hazel and Angkasa, especially the female center Arsy. Unheartened, he dared not ask, afraid that Hazel was getting sad when she told him everything.

"Come to the cafeteria, you should look in to him if you manage to escape him, don't even run away, in the dodol, come on!" ayesha.

Rubbing her nose with a tissue, Hazel got up and walked back to the cafeteria. He will follow Ayesha's words, if he meets Angkasa again, he must look happy, he will prove that he can be happy even if he is not with her.

Along the way to the cafeteria, he felt noticed, probably because of the incident around the stairs earlier. Only such an incident has become a public spotlight, he must be mentally prepared if the inhabitants of this school know that he with Angkasa has broken up. Ah, must have been a lot of women who approached him, he was indeed the target of many women.

...***...

"Lo want me to drive you home?" ayesha asked, today he brought a motorcycle.

Hazel nodded, even if Ayesha did not offer him, he would have asked for it. Now no one is ready to take him home, want to ride the bus is not in the mood, yes mumpung Ayesha bring a motorcycle, the term, use the best friend possible, shoulder to shoulder it, right, good.

"Eh-eh wait, isn't that brother Firga?" ayesha.

At that very moment Hazel stopped her steps, right, it was Phirga, she came with her father. There was also the principal there and drove them to the parking lot.

"I think they want to be donors of this school, right he said old donors are bankrupt, our school is poor, fortunately many students are tajir here," said Ayesha.

"Well .. the Principal is very friendly, usually his lips never smile," said Hazel.

Ayesha shut Hazel's mouth. "Terror twisted later lo."

Just as passing by the parking lot, Gunnar-Firga-dad turned to Hazel, he smiled. "Hazels?" he said, the one called Hazel who looks over a lot.

Hazel smiled faintly, Ayesha immediately pushed him to come closer, saying it was impolite to be called an old man but not to approach.

"Yes, Om?"

Firga looked at Hazel at a glance and turned her gaze to the mobile phone. Firga's face always looks unfriendly.

"It just so happens that Om will go to your house, go home with Om, how?"

"But, Om ...." Hazel turned to Ayesha, but Ayesha waved her hand, saying, "go first, Zel." That kid is.

"Hazel knows Gunnar sir? Well ... You are both smart, glad to have students like you."

Hazel just smiled awkwardly.

"Hazel is smart, his father, mother, and brother are also smart" said Gunnar.

"Thank you, Om."

"Jude, come home with you, okay?" said Mr. Gunnar, "Firga opened the door for Hazel," he said again, turning to Firga who was standing beside him.

Firga nodded according. Just as Firga opened the door for Hazel, Angkasa reached the parking lot, he could clearly see Hazel getting into the car that Firga had opened. This is not only a spectacle of Angkasa, some students and students in this school who are still passing by can see it.

"Thank you, brother," said Hazel, in fact he was reluctant to call Firga with that title, because now there is Gunnar sir too, he became unwell.

Firga nodded. "Together" he answered.

Hazel is a little weird with Firga, this guy always looks relaxed in any situation. When teased by his father and brother he just laughed, betrothed just smile, and now act like a good brother. It turns out Firga isn't as annoying as Hazel thinks.

When the car started to run, Hazel accidentally saw Angkasa, she stared at the car until it disappeared from her sight. The gaze of Space never changes, looks deep, soft and meaningful. Until now Hazel still does not believe Space can be that bad.

He looked down, staring at the wallpaper of his cellphone that had not changed - the picture of Space was staring at the sky. He breathed slowly and smiled, smiling, it's time he changed the wallpaper and deleted everything about Angkasa on his phone and hopefully he can also erase the beautiful memories with Angkasa that ended this sad.

Without Hazel knowing, Firga looked at her from a deep sepion, Firga already knew that if Hazel broke up with Angkasa, she must be doing no good.

"Hazel, you want some chocolate?" firga said suddenly.

Hazel was immediately startled, Firga had never been this smooth before. He opened his eyes and said, "uh?" He immediately patted his lips. "Bo-can."

Firga takes a mini chocolate from the car drawer, after which she gives it to Hazel. Gunnar just smiled.

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