Protective Physician
Disconnecting

At 09.10. In the room of Dr. Ines, one of the doctors who did a series of tests on me three weeks ago. The three of us sat facing each other. Me and Fian, facing the doctor Ines who was holding my examination. The doctor whose age had entered the head of five but looked younger than his age was seen weighing. Maybe he knows, Poor me who's an orphan. But I am still strong, ready with all possibilities. Even though I don't have a family, I still have Fian. You promised to get married next year.

"How's doc? Please tell me everything clearly." My love, who can't wait for the result.

"positive. There must be surgery before the stage increases" said Dr. Ines, looking at me with a look of pity. Slowly, he showed me some of the examination papers while explaining in great detail.

"What about the cost, doc?" my many. This is one of the most confusing things. As an orphan girl, I relied on myself to survive. Currently he only works as a contract laborer in a drug factory.

"For that matter, please ask the administration." doctor Ines closed the conversation with a smile to keep me excited.

Me and Fian walked out of the room. My world is actually collapsing knowing this reality. At the age of nineteen, he developed stage three brain cancer. Before I felt fine. Healthy, nothing less. That's why I work so hard day and night.

The daydreaming me suddenly realized when Fian was no longer walking by my side. He stopped his steps until he was left behind.

"Why? How did you stop?" my many. Netraku looked at Fian.

"Ris, I'm sorry. But it looks like our relationship has to end here." said Mas Fian. Although it was slow yet sounded like the sound of lightning roaring in the ears.

"Huh, why?" I came back so I wouldn't be at her distance. In this situation, I don't want to joke because my heart is not fine. He was the only encouragement in my life.

"I can no longer accompany you. Hope all your business is good, Ris." Mas Fian turned around.

"Wait for me!" I'm chasing Fian's steps. "Why suddenly say break up like this? Is it because I'm sick? The doctor said there's still a chance of recovery if I get surgery."

"Operation? You realize no, the cost of the operation is not cheap. Could be hundreds of millions. Even though your salary is only two million a month, not to mention having to cut living costs. How can you expect to be operated on? Who's gonna take it all, Ris?" He slightly shouted to attract the attention of people who passed by in the corridor of the hospital b.

"Astagfirullah ...." I really feel slapped by the words of Fian mas. It seemed unexpected, the man who expressed love to me five years ago could be this much. Though he was the one who was chasing, even said he could do anything for me. But just hearing it hurt like this, Fian had given up, he had not even done anything for me.

"Ris, I don't want to be a hypocrite. My life is not good either. You know, my college is still neglected. My work is also shabby. So don't expect me!" said mas Fian. "I'm an ordinary man anyway, how can I live with a sick woman like you. Even though I love you, it must also be logical. I also want to have children, Ris. I also want my wife to help my economy later, to serve me and my family. Not just a life ride to me. You know, when you're healthy, it's hard to give your blessing, especially if you know you're like each other now. You will be more troublesome later. Mother's blessing you'll never get. So, just end this."

The words of Fian again slapped me. This mouth feels locked, although there are many words that want to be thrown.

"Please continue with your soon life, Ris. You can go back to your home or home. May you be happy!" he stepped back.

"Mas ... wait a minute!" Call me. "I mean, Fian Laksono. All right, we're breaking up. I am grateful that you finally want to tell the truth, rather than accompany me. Thank you for your good prayer. I'm going to get on with my life, enjoy every second that I have so well.

But I'm telling you. From now on, don't even think about coming back to me again because I won't accept a calculating man who doesn't have a heart like you.

Sorry I didn't listen to the words of my friend and mother who said you were insincere, just using me.

Remember, I've proven that I can survive on my own without your help. You do not forget, it was during these five years that I was always supporting the cost of living, college, to your family. I even helped you with motor loans.

I'm really sorry to be dating you. Ahhh I should have heard the words of the mother of the house that the courtship only brought bad effects and you were a bad effect for me. Maybe that's why I'm sick, because I work too hard for you and your family. But you don't appreciate that. Now, please go and never beg to come back again. I'm not going to be Sudi!" I squealed, so that made the people who were passing by in the hospital look at us. But despite the attention I don't care.

"Basic sick woman!" Fian quickly passed because he was embarrassed to be a spectacle of people.

"Aghhhh, why would I get hooked like that!" I patted my chest slowly. Why it feels so crowded. True what Fian said, I am a disease that will soon meet its end.

I really want to cry. But no one will listen to me. It hurts so much to be a kara. I think Fian mas can be a substitute for Family, but his love is only that.

I was born an orphan. Up to seventeen years of age living in an orphanage. Then continue to live in a boarding house located in South Jakarta, not far from the drug factory where I work. There I had only one friend, Tari, who was against my relationship with Fian because Tari was always suspicious of Fian and now Tari's suspicions are proven. My best friend will fool me for his stubbornness all this time.

Now, I really don't feel like I have any more hope. It's all over. Hope for happiness is just a mirage. There really isn't. After all, Dari also always said that Mas Fian did not really want to make me a family because he was always grateful. I'm too stupid to believe his sweet mouth.