Pursuing the Love of My Husband
The Part 02 MCS

#Pursuing My Husband's Love part 2 (Best Decision)

Days passed so slowly, it had been six months since Sheila's wedding, I busied myself with work.

It's not easy to throw away memories of when he was mine. Moreover, he still often sends WhatsApp messages to me.

I've replaced the slammed phone the other day, but to change the number, it's somehow very heavy.

I don't want to lose contact with Sheila.

You idiot! Stupid as I am, clearly Sheila has become legally owned by others both religion, and the state. I still expected it.

But, as hard as I could forget him, those memories were so attached to the heart.

I always told him that ‘I'm fine’. In fact, I was alive but like I was dead.

Losing Sheila, like losing half of my own life. Why do I love him so much? It was hard to move on.

Despite working in the same place, I always avoided meeting him. I don't want this wound in my heart to get worse.

Luckily, we have different divisions and shifts, so our meetings are not as intelligent as they used to be.

Sheila, that beautiful, pointy woman was my first love. So, it's only natural that I love him so much.

I'm trying to reimagine life as it used to be before I met him.

Slowly, but surely all will pass. I'm sure that when I remember his name, I won't feel pain anymore.

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 [Rizki, you should know, my body may be his, but my love remains for you]

 [Rizki, he's rich. But his heart is not like yours. His love is not as deep as your love. But I deserve to regret it]

 [Stupid yes, Ki. I left a man as good as you for material things. Ki, can you turn the clock around?]

 [Ki, I miss you. It's hard to see you even if we work in the same place. Are you okay? Or you still can't forgive me?]

[Ki, please don't disappear from my life.]

I read back WhatsApp messages from Sheila.

He often sends these kinds of messages. There was a sense of happiness knowing that he had still not forgotten me either.

But, my little heart thinks that this is not true. What if her husband finds out that Sheila still sends me messages?

The wedding was still corn. Sheila must not tarnish the sacred bond they have built.

If only she were single, I probably wouldn't feel this way. Instead, I will try to get it back.

However, everything is impossible, no matter how much I love her, I can no longer shadow Sheila's life and become a benefactor in her household.

I do love her, but I'm still very sane not to tarnish a wedding vow.

 [La, I'm fine. You should be happy with your marriage. I'm getting married next month. Lala, to me, you're just the past. I love my future wife so much, because of her, I can forget you. So please, stop complaining about your marriage. Appreciate your husband, cherish your marriage. I'm nothing more than a little memory that's ever lived in your life. And he's your husband. The person you should be more than your own parents.] I sent the chat to him without hesitation.

Three years he was with me, but his loyalty simply vanished when the rich man came into his life.

As sick as it may be, I cannot be the bad guy who is up to the heart of cheating with someone else's wife.

I have to figure out a way for Sheila to no longer ‘menggodaku’ with her messages.

And all of a sudden my finger reflexes pressed those words. Then I sent him, is it okay not to lie for good?

Before long the flat object vibrated again signifying the incoming message.

[You must be lying, Ki. I know you, more than you. This is just your reason for disappearing from me right?]

I put the phone back on the bedside nightstand. I have no intention of replying to the message.

If I reply again to chat from him, I guess there will be no end.

Sheila's character is always strong with her stance. It made me confused to give her a reason to stop doing all this.

Drrr... Drrtt. drrtt..

The wire vibrated signaling the phone came in.

The screen on the phone shows the name of the caller, ‘Sheila’.

The string trembled a few times. A moment, quiver again.

Sheila did not give up. He kept calling 20 times.

[Oke Ki, if that's true, I'll wait for the invitation. If it's TRUE, you'll get married. I promise I'll give up. You can disappear as far as you want from my life, then you live happily with your wife, I promise I won't interfere. But if you're LYING, you have to take responsibility if I walk away from my husband and run to you. I've been thinking about this maturely. It feels like, hearing the lie you're going to marry just hurts. I don't want to be late Ki, I don't want to waste you anymore.]

The deg!

Sheila, she was always arrogant in making decisions.

A little bit I know the character of her husband from work friends. Why would she have such thoughts of hurting her husband?

Although I don't know for sure what happened between them, still, what Sheila did was wrong.

Is this really the Sheila I used to know? I can't be the cause of Sheila's broken home.

But what should I do? Told Sheila that I was getting married soon, while the boyfriend just didn't have one.

Oh God!

I regret not blocking the number from the start.

Ah, but free. He could have easily contacted me back his way.

The only way for Sheila to give up is for me to get married! Yes, MARRIED.

That way, he'll stop wishing for me. And back to her husband.

***

“Hah, looking for a soul mate? It's not wrong of you Ki, ask to be sought into the cave? Are you asking for help or really? You know, the cave is also single” Ajis who was playing his game immediately turned to me, when I asked him to find a mate.

Still amazed, she asked why I was in such a hurry, when she knew that I could not forget Sheila.

Ajis listened carefully as I told her all about Sheila's behavior lately.

From time to time she texted, called, and confided in him about what happened between Sheila and her husband.

Even though I never retaliated, Sheila just kept doing it.

And for a long time I became worried that Sheila would leave her husband just because she still wished for me.

Ajis understood, now he understood why I was in such a hurry to find another woman.

“If you're serious about getting married, gua saranin you're looking for a good woman. Don't let the fate of your marriage be the same as Sheila. Married not out of love, and still in shadow with feelings for the former. Eventually, it became a shame. And the person who was married became a victim failed to move on. Remember Ki, marriage is no joke. Sacred promise when ijab qobul it directly to Allah.”

What Ajis said is true. Marriage is not to be played with.

My mind grew riled up. Will marrying another woman make me forget Sheila?

Will I get married, Sheila will stop?

Should I be honest with Sheila that what I said yesterday was just a lie?

But what if she really leaves her husband?

I'm afraid it's gonna happen. I really don't want to be the cause of her household rift.

I'm sure Sheila was just confused by her feelings.

She just hasn't adapted to her husband's character, so whenever she has a problem, I'm the first person she remembers and that's why she always sends me those messages.

“Terus according to you, what cave should be, Jis? Cave really confused now.”

Ajis who had been listening to my explanation seemed to be confused by this situation.

“According to the cave, you should really get married, Ki. We know, that Sheila is not the type of person who messes with her words.”

Ajis's right. Sheila was not the type to mess with her decision. What he said, that's what he's going to do.

“How to get married in the near future. While you know yourself, since with Sheila, the cave has never been close to any woman.” My complaints to Ajis who had been faithfully listening to my grievances.

“Yaelah, Rizki. You have sono! Lu handsome, the cave sure will not be difficult for you to find a replacement Sheila. But advice cave, find a good woman. If possible, the pesantrenan woman. Let you get lucky. You can ask to find both of your parents. Because parents can not choose anyone carelessly for their children.” Sahut Ajis gives seriousness.

“Lu itself why not, Jis?” manya tease him.

“Udah. But said Mother, no one wants the same cave.” We both laughed when we heard Ajis saying his fate with a sad face.

Alright, it seems that Ajis's advice is the right choice. I have to get married so Sheila stops acting.

I'll try to ask Mom and Dad for help to find a future wife.

Hopefully with this effort, I find the best way.

Seriate...