Replying to the Betrayal of my Husband
Not Being Touched

"The jewelry was safely kept by the mother. If you take the fear, I don't think you believe in me anymore."

Bang Rama spoke after a moment of silence. Her face seemed to mind once as I discussed the jewelry.

"I can speak well with my mother. And I want you to help me convince mom. Even though the jewelry wasn't too much, it was worth it to me because of how much I bought it before we got married. And this time I want to makai jewelry. I'll keep asking mommy for it even without brother's consent."

That's enough. I don't want to be fooled anymore. All this time I've been quiet and played.

"Yes already, later the brother who asked the same mother. For tonight please prepare our dinner" said Bang Rama as he took my hand, but I quickly moved until his dirty hands did not manage to hold my hand.

I cannot tolerate his betrayal. Bang Rama was quite snapped. "Why are you avoiding?" tanynya.

I smiled so that bang Rama did not ask much that could make him suspicious. "I want to cook because I know you're hungry. This is the first time my brother came home early after these few days of overtime. Although today I'm pretty tired too, but for my brother's sake I still cook delicious food."

Bang Rama laughed and it broke my heart. I still can't believe my man made love to another woman.

"You are the best wife" he said.

"Yes, I hope that you don't betray and don't waste your best wife." I stared at him so sharply, that the laughter of Rama's bang faded. "Let you have no regrets later on."

"What are you talking about?" Bang Rama looked wrong. He took the laptop I had put on the bed. Intentionally dodging my eyes.

"Take this as a warning, Bang." I laughed trying to melt the atmosphere I felt was starting to heat up. It's not easy to pretend not to know that my husband is double. "Oh, yes. How's it working today? Tumben's brother came home early."

Bang Rama saw me again. My heart can't wait for the answer.

"Sales target is fulfilled. Earlier, the brother and the other team immediately dispersed and returned to their respective homes."

My blood is hot. My chest feels tight to hear the lies of Bang Rama. You idiot! I shouldn't have asked because I knew this guy couldn't have been honest about his affair.

I quickly went to the kitchen so that bang Rama did not see the tears that had dripped. I really feel like this heart is very sick.

"Once she lies, she'll keep lying. I don't know how far he's been lying to me."

"Who do you mean?" Mother's question caught me by surprise. I didn't know she was in the bathroom. "Who did you say was a liar?"

Mom looked at me sharply.

"Nobody, Mom. Tonight let Rima cook." I picked up raw vegetables in the fridge. I don't care about a mother who doesn't seem to like seeing me.

"Try Rama married Citra. His life must have been more successful than it is now. What's more now that he's a manager at Rama's place of work."

I closed my eyes. Trying to refrain from getting hooked. Even though I was so gasp knowing that Citra was the manager bang Rama.

"So, I crave the image of being a mother's daughter-in-law? Then why don't you get married to Leon?" ask me with a trembling voice. "Or, do you want a matchmaking mother with bang Rama."

"If you allow it, why not?" I talk with a laugh, but it feels like I'm burning my ears.

"Leon has no intention of getting married. He still wants to mess around. Not home from yesterday either. In fact, I hope he can also talk to Citra."

I couldn't focus anymore as if what I heard was Leon not coming home. So, that night with whom did Bang Rama sleep in Leon's room? Could it be true if the contraceptive device was indeed his and Citra's?

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"Why don't you tell me that Citra is your brother's manager?" I asked after Susan finished eating and left. I don't want my son to hear adult talk.

Bang Rama's face looked wrong looking at me. "I don't think that's an important thing to discuss. And about your brother's work is not your business," he said.

"Yes, you just know how to waste money, " mother chirps.

I breathed a long sigh, hoping to be able to withstand this attitude of theirs.

"Mom, I'll get my jewelry later, yeah. Wanna wear it."

My words made mom choke. I pulled out a glass of water that my mother immediately spent.

"What are you wearing for? Want sold?"

"No, Ma. I want to wear it. I told you the same Bang Rama, really."

"Yes, Mom. Return it to Rima. Let Rima keep the jewels." Bang Rama is supporting me this time. And mother did not speak anymore but objections could not be hidden from the look on her face.

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The jewelry finally came back to me. Little by little I will take my and Susan's rights. Yeah, it's not just for me. But I have to prepare for Susan.

It's been a long time since I've worn the necklace I bought before I married Bang Rama.

"Beautiful" said bang Rama as I tried it out in front of the dresser. "You're still as pretty as you used to be."

Basic male. His mouth is unbelievable. Yesterday cornered me and my daily negligee. If for him I am beautiful, it is impossible for him to be captivated by the beauty of other women.

"And I hope I'm still the prettiest in my brother's eyes" I deliberately provoked his reaction. Perhaps there is a little regret in his heart has wasted the beauty of his wife.

Bang Rama approached me. He's standing behind my back. His hand stroked my hair without me avoiding it. Our views met in the mirror that fused with the dressing table.

"Ehkm, how many nights has this room been quiet. Don't you miss my touch?" ask Bang Rama without further ado. His hands are pinching my back. Things that are always done before the man does his duty as a husband in bed.

I went to face Bang Rama. Bang Rama's hand just fell. This time I avoided his touch.

"Why?" Bang Rama looked at me questioningly.

"I want to see Susan for a second, Bang. I promised to sleep in her room. Susan must be waiting for me."

I rushed away without hearing the sound of bang Rama again.really I did not want to be touched by him. Bang Rama has really managed to ruin even destroy our dreams first.

My knees were instantly weak as I walked into Susan's room. Until I sat down and stared at my daughter's sleeping back.