Shadow From the Past
Chapter 100

Vano got out of the car again and stood opposite Elvina. She clasped her hands looking at Elvina with her jaws tightened.

"How so? Don't you want me to stay away? Hmm?"

"I'm sorry!" Shouted Elvina loudly in front of the man's face.

"Who are you sorry for being told again? Daddy you? Mother? Or—"

"I'm sorry because I'm sorry, not because of anyone else,"

"Why are you doing this, El? You're starting to fear losing me huh?" With a slanted smile Vano looked at Elvina whose roar of breath had not been regularly returned after shouting loudly just now.

Both of Elvina's hands clenched firmly. Molar against each other, He also gave a sharp look to Vano.

"You don't want to worry, Mas!”

"So why don't you let me go out of the house again and you won't separate from me?"

"Not willing, but not now the time,"

"When?"

"I'm still trying to learn to love you, Mom,"

"What kind of nonsense is that, Elvina? You always say if you want to learn to accept me, you want to learn love with me, but the reality is not at all until now. I've been giving you a year but no signs at all, so what should I do? Wait for you again? I wasted so much time because of you, El. And I'm tired, I said that, right?"

"Wait a minute, Mom. I also do not want to continue to love other people who are not my own husband but I have difficulty doing that, you should understand dong,"

"I've always understood, what lack of understanding am I, Elvina?"

"I'm asking for your time, too,"

"I love you, even one year we walk I always wait for you. But you're always tied to your past, and I'm saturated, El. Other than that I'm tired, I'm saturated with everything, too,"

"Oh so so? But I'm sure the reason is not because I'm tired, you already have another woman so I really want to leave the house again and want to divorce me,"

"I accuse you until you are satisfied. Whatever you do, I told you earlier, that I wouldn't care about your bad thoughts about me. That is your right, I will not forbid even if I am hurt because you accuse me of cheating when obviously not at all. You've gone too far not to appreciate me,"

Vano got back in the car leaving Elvina groaning in annoyance. "Ken, I'm sorry, why is your attitude still this way?"

"You've never sincerely apologized to me, Elvina,"

"Now I'm really sincere. I'm sorry for all my faults. And I'm asking you not to go again,"

"Why? Are you afraid of losing me? I asked you once you didn't answer,"

"No, because I'm not ready to live on my own yet,"

"What's this all along? You seem happy to live without me, you enjoy enjoying your life. Even asked about me to Amih never. Even though you can ask about me to him because I always ask about you to him, honestly I still love you very much, I must know all about you. But you don't do the same thing, as if you were happy that I wasn't there beside you. That's a sign that you really don't care about me, you don't want me in your life anymore. Aye, right? So what are you waiting for? Better make your wish come true,"

"What?"

"You want to split up, don't you?"

"Not separate now!"

"Sound! I don't know what you want, it's not clear! Used to not play thrashing do not want to be the same me, the owner himself. Uh now change his mind apparently. But I asked for a clear reason instead of being loved. Yes, you like it, El,"

Vano is about to drive forward but Elvina is standing right in front of her husband's car deliberately blocking Vano's intention to speed away from home.

Elvina hit the front hood of her husband's car hard and it was enough to surprise Vano. The car is safe, which is worried by Vano is the hand of his wife.

Vano quickly got out of the car to scold Elvina who had acted unexpectedly just now.

"You're crazy, aren't you?! Huh uh?!"

"I'm sorry about you, I'm asking you not to go, but you're still stubborn. Less what else? I beg you, Mom!"

"please? When's? I don't remember. Or are you the one who snags? From that moment you were angry, instead of pleading with me, Elvina,"

"What do you want me to do, Mom?"

"Don't make it up. Where do you beg?"

"OKay! You want me to do that now?"

"No! Not at all, but I don't like you who are always a queen drama. You get in the house, I'm leaving, don't stop me anymore,"

"I don't give you permission to go,"

"Yes why? You know why? Who told you to do all this, Anatha? What is your papa? It means you don't really want me to go home, do you?"

"Nobody told me! Why do you always think that?"

"Because it usually is,"

"I'm sincerely sorry for you and I don't want you to go,"

Vano exhaled his breath violently. Then Vano left just like that leaving a confused Elvina. Vano did not go by car but rather into the house.

Elvina came back to catch the man. This time Elvina is adding to her stock of patience in order to serve Vano who is very draining of her emotions.

"Now I'm asking you to sit down, and we're talking about us with a cold head, no need for emotions,"

"What else do you want to talk about? All is clear, I'm sorry and I don't want you to go" Elvina repeated the sentence.

"You want that? What about your next plan?"

"Well, no, Ken. We live like we usually do,"

"I wouldn't have come back here if your attitude was as good as it was before, never appreciating me, and focused on your past,"

"Yes, I'm going to try to change,"

"Just want to try? Don't want to be worked on?"

"Yes, I'm going to try to change all my bad manners, Mas,"

"So you accused me, Elvina. You're accusing me of having an affair. Think about how I felt after you confessed it to me,"

"Yes, I'm annoyed with you. Why not go home and bitch me for a few days? You stop asking me through Amih,"

"Because I feel free. Why am I the same attention of people who never even pay attention to me, I'm tired of it,"

"I'm sorry," Elvina softened her voice. He doesn't know why it's so hard to let Vano get out of the house again. He enjoyed his solitude without Vano. She could be happy without her husband. But after Vano came home, he objected to letting Vano go again. All the stubbornness, ego, and laughter as long as Vano goes slowly crumbles.

"I turned my attention back to you again. I sent you some food, but how did you react? Eaten up?"

"I eat, anyway,"

"Because of necessity? You are hungry and Amih's cooking is not yet cooked so you eat huh?"

"Why do you know? From Amih?"

"I can guess how the story goes until you eat my delivery,"

Vano smiled cynically. He patted the dining table slowly after straightening his hands. He looked at Elvina who was staring silently at him.

"So how?"

"What?"

"You want me to come back here?"

"Yes, if you don't mind,"

"Lho, how has it changed? It wasn't a play ban on me until I stopped my car. Now it's up to me? What do I mind?"

"I don't think you'll mind. I know you miss me, Mom,"

"Don't be overconfident, Elvina,"

"That means it's true that you have a new one. Aye, right?"

"Acuse me again, until when will you accuse me? Hmm?"

"You don't think you're the same as me, right?"

"I'm back to that question, do you miss me? No, huh? Well, sometimes I have the same answer as you,"

"I felt like there was something different after you left. But I try to enjoy my solitude as long as you don't exist. What about you?"

"I'm the same, but the difference is, I can't escape your shadow. But if you must have forgotten that you have a husband. Aye, right? Right what did I say?"

"Who said I forgot?"

"But your attitude does not describe that you remember me,"

Seeing Vano move from the dining table after they spoke together, Elvina immediately held Vano's arm.

"You still want to go? Then I'm not wrong anymore. But purely you're wrong because I'm sorry, but you're still angry with me,"

"If you really want me to go home, let me go for a while, please,"

"Well?"

"Like it I want to do, what does it have to do with you?"

Elvina was silent to hear the sharp voice of Vano who almost never said such ketus especially while giving a cynical look.

"But you really want to go home, don't you? After leaving for a while, you came back here?"

"Hmm, if you really want that. But if you don't want to, I don't mind. I'm comfortable living alone, too,"

"I want you to go home. Less obvious, huh? That's what you want to hear, isn't it?"

"Okay, wait a minute. I'm gonna go first,"

Vano left the house after they spoke more calmly together at the dinner table. He went out to pick up his clothes at the hotel. He was convinced to return because Elvina wanted it. He said that if Elvina wanted Him to come home, she would go home. But if Elvina doesn't want to, she won't go home.

Vano hope after this they have no more problems and they are not separated anymore. Her hopes grew even greater about Elvina wanting to learn to accept him even love him. Hopefully Elvina can make that happen.

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Vano took all the clothes he had brought to the hotel where he was staying. He put it all in a suitcase. Before leaving, he stared at the entire room with a deep gaze.

"Now I want to go back home, thanks for a few days, not only for this room but other hotel rooms I've been to" murmured the man. Afterwards Vano came out of the last room where he spent the night. He finished the check-out process after he pulled the suitcase back out to the basement where his car was parked.

Vano immediately opened the trunk of the car to put his suitcase in the trunk after which, he sat behind the wheel.

He is ready to go home again to gather with women of the heart that continues to disappoint him but never really can he hate.

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Both corners of Elvina's lips were drawn upwards to see Vano coming. The man came into the house with his suitcase pulled. So it turns out Vano really wants to go home. Vano did not lie when he said that he wanted to leave for a while. Apparently the man went to get his suitcase.

“I'm glad you're home,”

Elvina stared at Vano's face which was staring at her as well but with a flat face. Both Elvina's eyebrows were confused.

“Why? Are you happy to go back home?”

“Who said?”

“Yes that is proof of your face no smiles,”

“I'm happy but don't want to be too happy,”

“Means?”

“Fear of being hurt again, I'm really afraid of being disappointed again with you,”

Elvina rubbed Vano's arm slowly. “I don't want to disappoint you again,

“Yes, I hope you can hold your talk. Actually, I would not want to separate from you if it was not you who asked me to leave your life and we really separated. But after I thought about it, why wait for you to tell me to leave? If it can be as fast as it is accelerated, after all it is ‘kan you want?”

“Mas, no. I want to learn to accept you, Mas,”

“The problem from the past until now you always say so. This time let's take a look. You really learn or just plain nonsense,”

“Now save your suitcase,”

“Do we sleep separately?”

“Why are you saying that? Do you want to sleep separately from me, Mas?”

Elvina looked at her husband suspiciously. If Vano answers yes, he increasingly believes that Vano actually has an affair. There was no wind and no sudden rain the man wanted them to sleep apart. Even though after a few days they separated the bed, when there should be one more house, there is no story of wanting to split the bed.

“Yes maybe you want that. I ‘kan have to make sure,”

“No, I didn't say I wanted us to sleep apart. Don't take me with you, if you really want to sleep separate beds with me,”

“Tuh ‘kan, ugly talking again to me, it appreciates me its name?”

“Ya your strange ending. Where there we sleep split beds, sleep in one place!”

“Woah you apparently do not want to sleep separate the same place I yes,”

Elvina rolled her eyes smooth. He grabbed Ken's suitcase and took him upstairs. Ken immediately banned it.

“Let me alone, it's heavy,”

“I can,”

“No need to leave if you know,”

Vano immediately snatched his own suitcase from the hands of Elvina who wanted to be kind enough to carry her suitcase but He did not allow it because the suitcase was heavy. During the climb the stairs should be completely carried, not pulled so quickly to the top floor and the suitcase is not damaged.

Elvina opened the door of their room and let Vano in. Nothing changed from the room he had left one week. Remains typical fragrant Elvina and clean even though the bed is a bit messy.

“What is your leg still hurting?”

“Hmm no longer, but if again fatigue likes to come pain, but a little anyway, not like the early-early time,”

“What are you tired of? You still work at home? Not all held equally Amih?”

“Yes if I'm tired of the core road,”

“Everything don't like to go for a walk. If asked to rest, the doctor should rest, not be stubborn. This is not a man, just healed already a walk with friends. Where else does it look. Oh no play,” quipped Vano discussing his meeting with Elvina with his friend when he went with Ajun and his son Ajun. He saw clearly the figure of his wife but his wife was not aware of her existence. He saw Elvina go with two women and a man. With which men are so familiar it seems. Until he saw the man rubbing his wife's head. Vano's chest was very hot at the time, but he had to be self-conscious. Why does he feel hot? Elvina doesn't want it. He even thought Elvina had started looking for a replacement even though her status was still as his wife and it was a big mistake.

“Do you want what my suitcase is?”

“I remove the contents. Do you have any souvenirs?”

“Ya there is nothing. Do you think I just finished my vacation? My people stopped by, not the holidays. Besides I only go to hotels, so there is no story I have souvenirs for you,”

“You stay at hotel?”

“Yes, not just one hotel. If I get bored, I move hotels. Yes, it suits my heart. I want to enjoy my solitude, honestly I feel so single again as long as I don't stay with you. It was heavy at first, but used to it for a long time. Just stay aja 'could not—-“

Elvina who was serious about hearing her husband's story immediately raised one eyebrow because Vano suddenly stopped her speech.

“Can't what?” Asked Elvina who was curious about the continuation of the sentence of the husband.

“Not able to forget you,” in the heart Vano said. He just doesn't throw it through his mouth. So that Elvina does not feel big head and know that as weak as Vano without Elvina as hard as any effort Vano to forget for a moment with his wife.

“Can't what the hell? How not to talk about it, Mas?”

“Not so ah, don't ask that again,”

“Okay, now I take out all the contents of your suitcase yes,”

“Take it out, people don't have anything. You want to search also no problem,”

Elvina opened the suitcase that her husband had taken away. As soon as He took all the contents out of there, it only contained clothes.

“This clothes clean all, Mas?”

“Iya, I ‘kan laundry,”

“Oh, continue this directly I return it into the closet?”

“I just, why do you take care of that anyway?”

“Lho, don't I usually take care of your clothes?”

“Now it's not common anymore is it not?”

“I'm being nice, even commented, turn—-“

“Okay-okay, whatever you want my shirt is,”

Vano invited Elvina to do anything to her shirt. Vano was still standing at the door and Elvina was unpacking the contents of her suitcase until it was completely exhausted.

“You one week go all her clothes in laundry?”

“Iya, I was ‘kan already talking,”

“Okay, don't ketus is the same as me, Mas,”

“You love to sniff with me,”

“So the story wants revenge huh?”

“It is, once in a while, so you know what it feels like to do it. Not good, and you've been so often to me,”

Vano returns home with a slightly different fight. If Elvina notices, Vano is not so sweet as usual.

“You why are you still standing in front of the door? Don't want to rest?”

“I rest here? Seriously?”

“Yes, when I lied, Ken?”

“Yes already, if so I want to sleep,”

Elvina nodded, Vano immediately laid her body on the bed while Elvina was returning her husband's clothes into the closet, also returning her toiletries into the bathroom.

“If you're tired don't have to be forced. Could be tomorrow alone, later I'll fix everything, besides that ‘kan clothes me all,”

“Nothing, I can kok,”

Elvina finished her activities well while Vano was already asleep. Before catching up with Vano who had gone first to dreamland, Elvina went downstairs to get drinking water. He wanted to make a cold drink.

“Mother, what do you do?”

Amih saw Elvina who was taking ice cubes from the refrigerator. So he asked his master.

“You make sweet iced tea,”

“For mom?”

“Iya, Mas Vano again sleeping,”

“So Mr Vano has returned to this house huh, Mom? Mr Vano not going again?”

“No, he's home and now rest,”

“Alhamdulillah I am very happy to hear, Mom. May the same mother Mr. Vano well kept his relationship,”

Elvina agreed inwardly as her hands moved into the cabinet cabinet taking stock of green tea.

“I did it, Mom?”

“No need, I'm aja, Mih,”

“What Mr Vano not taught me first, Mom?”

“He didn't ask, like he's not hungry, if he's hungry later he just take it himself,”

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