Shadow From the Past
Chapter 50

“Hai Bro. I'm getting closer to seeing,”

Vano chuckled as Shahir greeted her while flirting. Syafir is his college friend with Danu. Shafi came with his wife who immediately invited Elvina to get acquainted.

“Hai, I'm Dina,”

“Hai, Dina. I'm Elvina,”

“Wah his name we are almost the same huh,”

“Catching means,” Syahir said to the two women.

“Eh I met who had a show first, which is again a birthday. Where is he?”

“Tuh again at another table,”

The concept of the show Danu approached one by one the guest table. Danu will chat with them so that the friendship relationship gets closer.

Vamo immediately approached Danu who was shocked when his shoulder was patted from behind. “Happy birthday! Happy always, more success,”

“Wah this is the one I'm waiting for hahaha. Thanks brodie. Thanks for the prayer and thanks for coming,”

“Sama-sama. Oh yes, this is my wife, Elvina,”

Danu immediately reached out her hand wanting to introduce herself and was immediately kindly received by Elvina.

“Hai, Danu. Happy birthday yes. May long life, given continued health, abundant provision aamiin,”

“Hai, Elvina. Thank you, good prayer for both of you. Come sit dong,”

Danu immediately invites them to occupy one of the tables where there are already Danu friends who Vano knows as well.

“Hai guys, Vano here bring his wife, Elvina,”

“Wuidih, hi Elvina,”

“Hi everything,”

“Gue is not called that?”

“Hai, Vano ugly,”

Vano laughed as Ardy greeted her with a ketus, accompanied by another laugh. “Ah gilirna nyapa Elvina on real friendly,”

“Yes should be. New ornag should be called so warm, old people mah back first,”

“Oh I have to step back now? Okay,”

Vano instead stepped back instead of sitting on the prepared chair. Vano's friends laughed at that.

“Don't dong, that's not the point. Let's sit around, let's talk. Rarely ‘kkan we chat like gini,”

The five of them were at the table, and each of them brought a couple except Danu as the owner of the event.

“Eh girl where?”

“She suddenly got sick, she was coming, yes even though she was sick anyway she just wanted to maxain. Eh even fit to say he did not feel strong I finally told him at home. Notar abis this show I to his house,”

“Yeah, hopefully get well soon huh. What pain, Dan?” Ask Vano who just found out that Danu's partner is not okay.

“Same high fever dizzy. I was not feeling well from yesterday, but he still wanted to go here. Eh even very sick just want to go, he was not strong afraid even fainted. So instead of why I told him not to come, rest at home,”

“May cepet improve yes,”

“Aamin-Aamiin, thank you. He just say hello to everyone,”

“Elvina, lo ‘kan his student si Vano, how is marriage with the lecturer? No exclamation? Or is the challenge really feeling? Do you learn at home?” Ask Hafiz.

Vano immediately turned to his wife who was thinking of looking for an answer. And it was considered an intervention by his friends.

“Eh lo do not neken bini you make a good answer,” said Ardy Smabil pointed at Vano.

“Hahahaha not that. Let him be honest. Jeez, I could have thought I'd miss him,”

“Oalah kirain,”

Vano laughed, He really felt comforted by the accusations of his friends. Just because He was looking at Elvina, they thought He wanted to press Elvina so Elvina could answer about him.

“Hmm how are you? Marriage with the lecturer is exciting if in my opinion. It is said that learning every day is also not. I studied like normal before I married Mas Vano,”

“Diajarin she fierce no?” Ask Kevin.

“No, he's firmly not fierce,”

“Tuh I did not say anything lo, he answered honestly according to his heart,” said Vano while raising both hands.

“Hahahaa yes-yes good, justin bini lo honest yes,” said Denis who this time came with his wife, Febia. The arrival of Vano and Elvina adds warmth to the table.

“Keep if on campus treat him to lo how? Kayak at home or just different like lecturers with students?” This time Hafiz was curious about it and wanted to get an answer.

“I was treated like my friends. How is his attitude to me before marriage, yes so is his attitude to me after marriage, this is if on campus yes. If at home yes like husband and wife in general aja,”

“Ih very exciting yes,” Elena Hafiz's wife immediately imagined as fun as what life Vano and Elvina who is a lecturer and student if on campus. But at home a couple of husband and wife.

“Lo is also exciting, Len. You see men lo lecturer, lo nya guru. Well both pengahar tuh just different temoat ngajarnya aja. Hafiz on campus, lo at school,”

“We are all with each partner that has an exciting life all really, depending on how we look at it aja,” said Danu who was immediately answered sepremlak ok all who sat with him.

“Iya right,”

“Eh if you as a doctor, have a lecturer's wife, how is life?” Hafiz asked Denis and Febia.

“Beuh, don't copy. Ribet! I rarely see you, often argue. Must really be able to set the time, not busy mulu. Btar couples can be jealous yes?” Denis replied while glancing at Febia.

“You're often jealous ‘kan?”

“You are,”

“Hahahaha,”

The debate between Denis and Febia became the next entertainment. It turned out to be fun to discuss the life of a husband and wife who have different professions.

“Well that stewardess, try to explain dong, don't be in-house,” Febia appoint Marisa wife Kevin.

“Kevin his manager, Marisa stewardess. That's how's life?”

“Complex bye, don't ask further,”

“Iya really, too complex, but exciting ‘kan, Which?” Marisa asked her husband who immediately smiled and nodded his head.

“Seru all trees,”

Throughout their conversation, Elvina was not uncommon to smile and laugh. But when he realized that his friend Vano's wives were already the best versions of themselves, he suddenly felt the smallest of himself. He was still a student, while they had a profession that made Elvina amazed.

“I'm still their student already a doctor, lecturer, teacher, flight attendant. Is Mas Vano not shy about having a wife who is still dwarfed like gini?” Inner Elvina.

Actually no one offends the profession or anything here. Their chat is just for fun, but Elvina is easy to get carried away.

Realizing his wife began to look uncomfortable, just from the gestures Vano could read, Vano finally took the initiative to leave first.

“Eh I same Elvina back first is okay huh?”

Elvina herself was shocked to hear her husband saying goodbye, even though she thought there were still a few minutes ahead for them to remain in a warm situation full of chatter like this. But it turns out her husband is taking her home now.

“Okay, be careful, Bro,” said them all when Vano shook hands with them as a sign of farewell.

“Still here, Van, El,” Danu said to Vano and Elvina.

“Iya equally,”

After saying goodbye to the event owners and their chatting friends earlier, then Slvina and Vano rushed to leave the cafe where the Danu birthday event was held.

“Mas, how come we suddenly go home? Wasn't maish fun talking?” Elvina asked as she continued walking next to her husband, and her hands were held warm by Vano.

“I know you are no longer comfortable there, I as a husband must be that, even though I still want to be there but can not be selfish. I should think of you too. Besides being afraid of the night until home,” said Vano who immediately made Elvina's eyes open wide. Vano was impeccably flawless, while he did a lot of woe. I don't know why they were meant to be together. This kind of Vano made Elvina feel less confident, less and less.

“Mas, was embarrassed?”

“Then why?”

“Yes shame, Mas. You were not embarrassed? Shame for what it is,”

Vano opened the door and let his wife into the car.

After that Vano also entered the car. Vano had used the seat belt and he made sure his wife had also done the same thing then he sniffed his car left the cafe parking area.

“So what did you ask? Sorry I haven't answered,” Vano said on the way. He just remembered his wife had a question but had not been answered by him.

“You feel ashamed?”

“I am confused by your question, can it be clearer? More specific shame as to what you mean,”

“Then have a wife like me, Mas,”

Vano widened his eyes to hear Elvina's question, which he guessed was feeling insecure.

“Yes I ‘kan just aja, Mas,”

“My answer is no! I've never been ashamed of having a wife like you. What makes me ashamed? No reason I'm ashamed,”

“But ‘kan, the wives of your friends are all beautiful, keep their profession on good yes, Mas. Well while I what? I am just your student. Aren't you ashamed, Mas, have a wife who maish be a student, not yet be anything, can not be proud,”

Vano breathed a rough sigh over his wife's words. Honestly He was not happy to hear the words of Elvina, but He could not blatantly say that He did not like. He should explain carefully, and speak good language. Because people who are losing their confidence should be spoken to carefully. Not even scolded or anything like that. The unbeliever must be convinced that He is not that low, that He is not that weak, He is no less powerful than the rest of humanity.

“Elvina, you heard my words well. I love you, and I can't make my heart fall in love with who,” Vano said as he grabbed his wife's hand and held it tightly.

“If I meet you who have been a doctor, flight attendant, or lecturer even though that one profession is the same as me, not necessarily I can love you. I love you this is not seen from the profession, but my heart chooses you who happen to be my student. After all, you are ‘kan still need to process, your time is still long, your age is young, you have many opportunities to not lose pride in the profession that you will hold. No need to insecure. Because the insecure will not make progress,” said Vano with a soft tone soothing Elvina, while her thumb rubbed the back of Elvina's hand.

“So you never feel confident in the morning. They become doctors, lecturers, and others that ‘kan also need a process, are they directly so like that? No, they also go through the process, just like you. Only the difference, those whose age is above you have already arrived at the end point of their process. Well you ‘kan still young, age below them, yes it is natural if it has not reached the end point of your process. I'm sure you won't lose your pride from them. Now you ‘kan again in the process. Everyone's got time to finish, El. Thank you for whatever it is, never feel insecure, do not also feel jealous of what is in the hands of others now. We do not know how heavy the process they have passed, and later when you have become what you want, they also do not have the right to feel jealous, he said, because they don't know what you've been through,”

“I don't feel jealous, Mas. Even I feel ashamed, I am also afraid you are ashamed,”

“No shame if it's any more processed, El. If shame is not going forward, you will stick there. Percapain people, we should make motivation alone, do not even be a reason for you to feel insecure,”

Elvina nodded her head. She returned the hand of her husband tightly. His mind and heart were opened wide by Vano. He should not feel ashamed or insecure after knowing the wives of Vano's friends are all great men. He should make them as motivation, not even make it feel ‘kecil’.

“Udah yes, don't ever think like that again. You are great, you are beyond good, do not assume that you have no marriage. You're that precious-bsnar, El,”

“Makasih Mas has made me aware, and calm now,”

“I finally know why suddenly you seem uncomfortable when previously you seemed comfortable with the chat earlier,”

“Iya I am really comfortable, I enjoy the togetherness of us all earlier, I, I enjoyed the chat but for a long time I realized that I was a dwarf when compared to the wives of your friends, Mas. I'm nothing in front of them,”

“Stop don't think about it anymore. I'm not you you feel embarrassed, insecure, and such. If you are still like that, it means you do not respect yourself. You do not appreciate also the greatness or advantages that God created for yourself,”

“Now I'm sober, Mas,”

Vano smiled as he rubbed the top of his wife's head. “It is dong,” praise while rubbing the cheeks of Elvina dnegan soft.

“Thank you for taking me to his friend's show, Mas. I get to know new people, I get to have new friends too, and I can learn to respect myself more, appreciate my strengths, appreciate my process,”

“Iya equally, but remember yes next time you can not insecure again. Always keep in mind that you're great, you're amazing, you're valuable, okay?”

“Okay, Mas,”

Vano smiled at Elvina's reply. If only now He was not driving, He would have peaked his wife's head in appreciation of Elvina who was willing to learn to no longer feel small or worthless.

After about fifteen minutes they were on their way home from the cafe to the house, finally at half ten they arrived at the house whose atmosphere was already quiet. They've guessed that.

“It looks like it's on break yes, Mas,”

“Yes, we also have to rest now. You can't lack rest,”

“Mas also dong. I should even be the one talking about it. I ‘kan student, not as busy as Mas who lecturer,”

“But you're still testing tomorrow, don't forget it,”

“I want to open the material briefly, Mas,”

Vano had made sure the door was safe, then he and his wife went up to the second floor where their room was.

“I Temenin, I also want to be done again,”

“Yes we've been a little bit late tonight, Mas,”

Vano chuckled softly and nodded in agreement. They cannot go to sleep because they have their own obligations. Vano ounya ojob that He must finish before going to bed, while Elvina wants to study the exam material tomorrow.

“But you are not less rest, eleven hours sleep yes, it has been gasket night, you know,”

“Okay, Mas also yes?”

“I'm easy, what time I sleep, wake up not bad luck kok,”

“Ih but we are both human, and the human should not be less rest let alone a busy human like Mas, a lot of burden again,”

“Sok know you,”

“Lah is right. Load so lecturer, burden so husband anyway,”

“Not a load, but a responsibility. We have our own responsibilities as human beings,”

“Okay I clean first yes, Mas,”

“Iya, I'm out of you,”

While waiting for Elvina to clean her body in the bathroom, Vano took her laptop in the study and took it to her room. He struggled with work until he did not realize that Elvina was finished.

“Mas, I'm done,”

Vano did not move and did not respond to anything. Elvina knew that her husband was mum until he realized that he had finished bathing and talked to her.

Elvina finally approached her husband. He touched Vano's shoulder which immediately flinched in shock.

“Shock yes? Sorry, but I'm slow,”

“I am too serious so let me be touched slowly also shocked excessive. Oh you're done, right? Yes if so I take a shower first,”

“Wear warm water do not forget, Mas,”

“Okay,”

Vano had entered the bathroom, and Elvina was still standing behind the chair that had been occupied by Vano. She shook her head to look at the table on her husband's laptop screen.

“Mas Vano again what is it? Another time value huh? Dizziness I see, do not understand too,” muttered Elvina as she passed to the dresser. She used her facial products to comb her hair before ending up in bed with her own laptop, as well as two books.

“Bismillah, strengthen me, O God. Hopefully I do not sleep amiin,” said Elvina before starting her busy learning tonight. After attending the birthday event, instead of taking a break, he just had to be busy with the preparation for tomorrow's test.

When Vano came out of the bathroom, Vano smiled seeing his wife already struggling alone with her laptop on the bed.

“Excite yes,” said Vano while clenching one of his hands cheering the wife.

Elvina immediately turned her head towards her husband who had taken a shower immediately sitting in his room earlier.

“Still, Mas,”

“Yes, you don't want my passion too?”

“Passion also make Mas handsomeku,”

“Hah can aja,”

“I don't know what else. Dizziness I saw the tables. Is it not dizzy?”

“No, it's normal. This again makes the material summary equal value data,”

Elvina nodded her head. Come to think of it too. Her husband was already used to the job so there was no way she would feel dizzy.

“You if you are sleepy, or dizziness is not strong continue to learn ya continued tomorrow morning. Janga was held back not rest, later even sick,” Vano's message to his wife who immediately nodded his obedience.

“Iya, Mas. I go to bed later if for example I'm sleepy,”

“Do not hold,”

“Okay, Mas,”

Each one is busy. Wife is busy studying for exam preparation tomorrow while husband is busy with his duties as a lecturer.

Until an hour passed they had nothing to say, both locked their mouths because they were serious until the sound of Wlvina's stomach distracted Vano.

“You hungry?” Vano asked as he turned to his wife who immediately chuckled in shame.

“Iya, Mas,”

“So we didn't eat like that? Because busy chatting,”

“If nights out like gini ih,”

“Yes his name is also not eating. Yes, you eat. What do you want to eat? Let me pesenin. If the food is warmed over time, you hunt more hungry,”

With his attention Vano offers his wife to eat according to what she wants. Instead of having Elvina busy heating the meal because according to Vano his wife will be more hungry if waiting for the food to be heated. If you order, Elvina just eat.

“I want kebab can't, Mas?”

“Iya can I pesenin yes, or you just want to pesen? Here's my phone,”

Vano handed her phone to Elvina who was immediately accepted by Elvina. She wanted to choose which kebab she would buy.

“Mas also want?”

“By me, let's eat with you,”

“Okay wait a moment yes, I chose nothing ‘kan?”

“Neverything dong,”

“But what Mas want to buy elsewhere maybe Mas has its own picihan, I join Mas if so,”

“No-no, it's up to you. Choose as you wish,”