Shadow From the Past
Chapter 55

“You are really outrageous, Elvina!”

Elvina was startled when suddenly her mother entered the room and was instantly enraged. Dini looked at her son with sharp eyes and hardened jaws.

“Mother why? I don't understand,”

She placed the book on her son's bed. Elvina widened her eyes in shock.

He did not expect the book containing his photos with Rendra was in Dini's hands. It was kept neatly in the closet of his books.

“Bun, where can you get this from?”

“You don't need to know where you get it from. Mother ‘kan already said sebum you marry cleanin all your memories with Rendra, there is nothing left. Because you want to be someone's wife. Apparently what? You still keep your pictures with your ex. Have you ever imagined how Vano feels after seeing the photos? Hmm?”

“So this is Mas Vano who told you?”

“No! You don't accuse Vano,”

Elvina gritted her teeth in annoyance. He couldn't believe her answer just now. He believes Vano was the one who had given the photo album to Dini which eventually made Dini angry with him.

“Why do you still keep your photos with Rendra?”

“Because I can't, Bun,”

“Can't be what?”

“Neither can I waste my memories with Rendra, I still can't escape him, Mother. I—“

“Hey you realize that you are hurting your own husband? You never borrowed her feelings? Bayangin if you are in the position of Vano see photos of his ex's same wife,”

“Mas Vano knows that I still can't move on,”

“So until now you have not been able to escape Rendra even after you married, after you honeymoon, after seeing how good Vano to you? Yes?”

Elvina exhaled a rough breath. He had a hard time admitting it because if He admitted, it meant that He was very evil to Vano. But the truth is like that. It's been almost five months of marriage he still can't forget Rendra.

“Jawab, Elvina!”

“Iya, Bun. I can't forget Rendra, I can't love Mas Vano, Bun,”

“Astaghfirullah. But Vano never told anything like Mother or Father. It means he's been saving everything himself,”

“But Mas Vano understands. She wants to wait, she wants kaish akuw aktu to learn love with him,”

“Yes want to see when he's waiting?!”

Elvina flinched as Dini's tone rose. Dini is rarely angry, especially to let out a high tone like this. If Dini is already angry, it means that the cause of her anger is outrageous.

Dini really did not expect that the marriage of Elvina and Vano was not as happy as it seemed. Vano kept to himself the fact that his wife until now still could not escape from the shadows of his past. Dini can't imagine how hurt Vano must be to compete with the men Elvina should hate.

Instead of being hated, Elvina has not been able to get rid of her feelings for the man who hurt her.

“You don't have a heart or a mind? You just don't appreciate your husband, if you still can't escape Rendra. You hurt your own husband for the sake of the man who has made you sad, made you fucked up. You're gonna regret it, El. Listen to Mother's words. You will regret Vano,”

Elvina heard the regretful word had frozen for a while. Instantly his memories of Vano swirled in the head.

How good Vano, patience Vano, immediately made Elvina realize that she was already that bad to her husband. But he has trouble controlling his own feelings. He also did not know until when the name of Rendra was written in the mind in his heart, which should be occupied by Vano whose status is husband.

“I even still like to eat Rendra's picture in my hamdphone, Ma. Several times look the same Mas Vano,” I Elvina slowly and while looking down.

“Gosh, you've desecrated your own marriage that way, El. You know what you do is including your cuckoo. You think of other men, you still love him, still like to take pictures of him, when you already have a husband. A marriage that should be holy, that should bring happiness, even you tarnish, even you make as a source of pain Vano,”

“Mother, but I'm not cheating. I'm not communicating with Rendra. Not even with him either. He was busy with his partner and I was busy with my new life,”

“Alright, as long as your brain and heart are other men, Mother considers you have betrayed your own marriage. You should be able to price Vano! At least if you can't love him yet, you don't hurt him with the fact that you haven't mkve on dong!”

“Yes in fact, Ma. I can't cover it, and Mas Vano knows. He ‘kan from before marriage already know that I have an ex that I can not escape. Mas Vano said love can come because he is used to it and he still wants to marry me yes that means he is ready with all the risks that will happen, he said, including one of them I who still have not moved on from my ex until this moment. I look happy just like Mas Vano, but not really, Ma. The same life weight of people I don't love, Bun,”

“Astaghfirullah are you aware of your own words? Mommy can see how Vano tries to make you fall in love, how good he is, how to appreciate him to you and our family, he said, but how can you really like to go to Vano? Don't stop him loving you, you continue to feel as good as his heart hurts. Remember, El, he's human too. There is fatigue, there is boredom. If he is tired of not being appreciated by you, his efforts to get your heart ignored are so, yes do not blame him if he chooses to go find his own happiness. You don't regret it!” Said Early while pointing at her son's face continuously and it made Elvina even more afraid. The mother is really-bsnar's angry now.

“Your path yes! Mommy doesn't like the way you think. Smooth all the photos of her on your phone, stop stalking her sosmed account, throw away all these photos of your time dating! How to forget people everything you still keep. You don't have any effort to forget him!”

Dini accidentally took a photo album of Elvina and Rendra while Elvina was in the bathroom earlier, and Vano accompanied Arman fishing.

Dini had intended to talk to her son after she witnessed for herself Vano seeing photos of Elvina and Rendra. He really did not feel the heart to have to witness the sadness in Vano.

He borrows Vano's feelings when he must know that his own partner still keeps his memories with ex-lovers. It must feel so crowded.

“Astaghfirullah, have you come home yet? Since when?”

“Bust Coke, Bun. I'd like to talk to Mommy for a minute,”

Dini accidentally met her daughter-in-law when Dini was going down to the ground floor. He nodded when his son-in-law wanted to talk to him.

“Bun, sorry in advance if I was presumptuous to talk to Mother. I'm asking you, don't worry about my marriage and Elvina's. We're fine, Bun. I know Mommy loves me so I said it was like that to Elvina, but Elvina is actually not wrong, Bun. Indeed Daria wal I ‘kan already know that for example Elvina is still in love with her ex-boyfriend. When I decided to marry Elvina, it means I have to be ready for the fact that I married a woman who has not been separated from the shadow of her past, and I promised myself to try to take Elvina's heart. I'm sure Elvina will love me, and miss her ex, Bun. Elvina still needs time, I beg Madam sanar first yes,”

Dini reflected on hearing the words of Vano who gently asked her understanding so as not to overflow again on Elvina, more patient to face the fact that Elvina was not able to love her own husband.

Her daughter-in-law was already this good, but somehow her only daughter was wasting Vano instead.

“Vano, Mommy is sorry for all this. Sorry Elvina can't be a good wife to you. Mother has spoken to El may she open her heart and mind. Mother only wants your marriage to be good, peaceful, no problem whatsoever, and you are both happy. Uda, that's only hope Mother,”

“Yes, our wedding will be as Mother expected. Doain yes, Bun,”

Dini patted the shoulder of her only son-in-law briefly. “Mother please be with you, more patient again yes to face El, sorry if the impression Mother is selfish, but Mommy hopes you can both continue and love each other happiness. But if indeed if you feel tired with Elvina, you can talk about it with Mother's Father, do not hurt El yes, son, even though he never hurt you. Can you return El to us if you give up,”

“Mother, don't say that. It's just the beginning. My marriage with El is still a few months away, where maybe I give up. I'm not gonna give up, Bun. So Mother just calm down,”

“Pessimistic mother El can reply to your feelings and lupain his ex. Because the brain is as his heart was locked to death. Mother also did not think why she could be as loving as that same man who even had cheated on her, making her messed up. And now it's you who can be the cure, but he chose instead to ignore,”

“Not yet, Bun,”

“Yes hope that you can be happy with El, because what Mother saw, you have tried to love happiness for El. Once again Mother apologizes because your mother's child has been disappointed, has made you hurt continuously,”

“Nno, Bun. Don't talk about it. Mother or El nothing is wrong. Now I calm down El first y, Bun. I'm sure El is still in shock after being reprimanded by Mother, or maybe now he's crying,”

“Yes justin let El think what he's wrong and he can change,”

After saying that Dini left and Vano rushed to the room. He saw his wife looking at his pictures with Rendra. I don't know what's on that woman's mind right now.

“El,“

Vano approached his wife with slow steps so as not to surprise Elvina who immediately raised her head to look at Vano who had just entered the room.

“El, you—“

“Mas ‘kan who already kaporan same Mother if I still save photos I same Rendra?!” Elvina asked with a voice full of emphasis and an angry look He gave to Vano.

“What? I am the report? You accuse me, El?”

“Halah Mas don't have to lie!”

Suddenly Elvina stood up and threw the photo album over the bed. Now he pointed at Vano with an angry expression that had not disappeared as well.

“You ‘kan who already reported the same Mother if I still save photos of me and Rendra? Yes ‘kan?!”

Vano lowered Elvina's index finger while smiling. He did not want to face Elvina with emotions also because if the same-same emotions even lead to harm.

“Not me who reports to Mommy. I swear I don't know anything, El,”

“Don't lie, Mas! Mother just got angry with me. Mommy should not know that I still keep my memories with Rendra because Mommy never holds my book closet,”

“Yes maybe Bunda—“

“Mas don't lie! The one who reports. I'm just you, Mas,”

Elvina exclaimed angrily while pushing Vano's chest which was really trying to hold back her emotions. He was not wrong but blamed. As a normal human being, he would not accept. But what he is facing right now is the woman He loves, the woman He has betrothed in a good way, so He must embrace it in a good way.

“As far as you want to believe or not. Obviously, I never talked to our parents or your parents. I never told them about our marriage because in my opinion, they do not need to know the bad things that are in our marriage, he said, unless things are happy we must share with them,”

“Ya continues why Mother knows I still save the photo, Mas?!“

“I don't know, Elvina. Try asking directly Mommy,”

“Which mother may talk. Mother must protect you, Mas!”

“Gosh, how many times do I have to say, I never report about the photo to Mother,”

“But Mommy may not suddenly know I still keep my photo with Rendra. You must have told Mother and you asked Mother to anger me. Yes ‘kan?!”

“Quite yes you accuse me!” This time Vano made a strong voice. He must firmly argue that He did not do what Elvina accused him of.