Shadow From the Past
Chapter 94

"We go home first,"

Arman and Dini leave the residence of Elvina and Vano after Vano arrives home.

Vano really came home early, according to what he told Elvina before leaving for Tata's birthday party at a restaurant. The most important thing for him is, Tata has seen his presence and he has also explained to Tata that Elvina can not attend his birthday event because Elvina's leg is sick.

"Be careful, Dad, Bun. Thank you for coming, though,

"Yes, you're welcome,"

"Vano, be patient with Elvina. But if you are not able to be with your child, please do not hurt him. Leave it to me in a good way,"

Vano frowned after hearing Arman's sudden impressed speech.

"Well, what does that mean?"

"You may be tired of Elvina's temperament. You may also be tired because he did not love you until now. All you ask for is one, don't hurt him. Give him back to Dad, don't throw him away. Because he's half my life, dad,"

Vano feels before he arrived, Elvina and her parents were involved in a chat about her household with Vano. That's why Arman talks to her like this.

"Well, until whenever I'm going to stick with Elvina,"

"But, Elvina has no intention of separating from you, Van,"

That sentence made Vano's world seem to collapse. Elvina did not love him, but she did not expect that Elvina would be separated from him. He thought, Elvina will survive until they love each other and can live happily without a fight almost every day just because Elvina is selfish and Vano who is sometimes tired of Elvina.

"Whatever the continuity of your relationship, I hope you don't hurt each other,"

Arman followed Dini who had already been to the car. Before that, Arnan patted Vano on the shoulder with a smile and left Vano pensive.

Splitting up was never in his shadow. But it turns out Elvina had such a wish.

Did elvina give up? Though he hopes his wait and patience all this time bear sweet fruit. Elvina can love him like when she loves her ex-lover. But apparently not, Elvina already had plans to get away from him.

Vano went into the room. Elvina is apparently not asleep. The woman looked at her husband who did not say a word but buried himself under the covers.

"Mas, what was Tata's birthday? Excited huh?"

Vano did not answer, his ears still felt ringing after hearing Arman's words about Elvina, let alone his heart. Don't ask what pain.

"Mas, how are you quiet? You haven't slept, have you?"

Vamo still held on in his silence. Elvina breathed a rough breath and shook her husband's arm slowly, which she believed was not sleeping.

"Mas, answer dong! What the hell are you? It's okay, why are you so cute now? You didn't answer my question, you know,

"Mas--"

"When do you want to separate from me, Elvina? I just found out about that. Are you secretly filing a divorce suit? Hmm?"

Vano, who had previously been lying on his back to Elvina, now turned to his back and his head turned to the side where Elvina was sitting leaning on the head of the bed.

Elvina was silent and did not give any reaction. He was surprised because suddenly Vano spoke like that.

Vano immediately moved to sit down. He needs Elvina's answer now. Is it true that Elvina has secretly filed for divorce? If so, Vano is devastated. Just like when Elvina decided not to have children by taking the contraceptive pill, Elvina seemed to not appreciate it. Without any prior conversation Elvina made her decision as she wished. This is about both of them.

"What are you talking about, Mas?"

"I asked you, Elvina. You want to separate from me because you really can't love me, right? Since when do you have that desire? You need to know, no matter how long I wait for you, I do not have the slightest thought to divorce you. I'm patiently waiting because I'm sure you'll love me, forget all your past, and we'll live happily together. But what turned out? You want to separate from me? Yes, Elvina?"

Elvina swallows her saliva chelates. He can see how bad Vano is now. The man looked chaotic from the look of his usual cheerful face, now turned weak and even his eyes were glazed.

"Do you know that I love you? I want to live happily with my chosen woman. But you don't want the same thing?"

Elvina still did not give any reaction. He bit his lower lip watching Vano who now grabbed his own hair while sighing heavily.

"Why does it feel so tight?"

"Mas, I'm sorry,"

Elvina took her husband's hand for him to hold tightly. But Vano immediately let go. Vano needed to be convinced that what He heard from Arman was not the truth.

"Yes, I want to separate from you. I can't live too long with a man I don't love. We have been all right, although there must be a fight, I think we will be happy even so our lives. But it turns out, I still feel depressed because I live the same person I really don't want,"

Vano should have anticipated this. Who would want to live with an unloved person not even filling their head at all. He should no longer be surprised to find that Elvina wanted them to separate.

*****

"Mas, where are you going?"

Elvina chased after Vano who this morning looked like usual when he was about to go to the office but what made Elvina confused and curious was, Vano brought a suitcase.

Vano will certainly leave home in a few days when viewed from what he brings today.

"I want to get used to living alone without you, Elvina. You yourself said that we were going to split up, right? Let me get used to it,"

Elvina pushed her husband's chest until Vano took a step back. "You're all right?! Huh uh?! I'm not saying that we're going to split up anytime soon, so why are you thinking that way?"

"I know sooner or later you're going to file a lawsuit. So let me get used to it and maybe as long as I'm gone, you realize that I'm actually valuable to you, and so you can think more carefully about everything. Because I honestly don't want to be separated from you,"

Vano pulls his suitcase and Elvina goes back to chasing the man. No breakfast together, no chat after waking up, now Vano suddenly carrying a suitcase.

"You forbid me to get out of the house if we both have problems. And this is what? You want to leave the house, Mom?"

"Elvina I need time. I'm too sick right now, you understand? Huh uh?"

Vano opened the trunk of the car and put his suitcase there. After that he opened the car door ignoring Elvina who really did not understand and difficult to digest everything. It's too sudden for Elvina to think that he and Vano will be fine even though last night it was a matter of separation.

"Mas, what do you really want?! Huh uh?! You want me to stay with you while I don't love you? Didn't he? I'm not happy with you, Mom! You should know about that,"

"Yes, that's why now I love you happiness before the breakup time really comes. I give you time to be happy alone without me. Okay, Honey?"

Vano drove up his car at high speed leaving Elvina who felt her blood boiling from toe to head.

Elvina kicked the tire of her now self-parked car without her partner. Elvina exclaimed angrily, She no longer knew what way to vent her emotions.

"MAS VANO!”

******

"Well, Mas Vano left the house. I don't know why she's suddenly upset because she knows I want to leave her and she left the house this morning, Dad,"

Elvina went into her father's room and immediately complained about her love story with a new title today to the father.

Arman immediately hugged his daughter who came up with his problem. Elvina cried in her arms.

"Before a second, tell me slowly, don't cry like this, son,"

Arman accompanied his son to sit on the sofa in his study. Elvina took off her arms at the father and then wiped away the trace of her tears that made Arman claustrophobic.

"Why? Explain to me slowly, let me understand,"

Elvina held back her sobs so as not to hinder her from telling her story with her papa. The purpose was to come here to complain about his problems with Vano. He no longer knew who to complain to.

"Mas Vano knows about me separating from him, Dad. We talked about that last night. This morning all of a sudden he had a suitcase and left the house, Dad,"

Arman sighed softly then massaged his head. The body gesture made Elvina realize that her father had made her stress now.

"Well, I'm sorry I brought Dad with me. But I don't know who else to tell, Dad,"

"Nothing, it should be that the child is open with his parents. But I want you, you don't come straight to cry. You explain everything first,"

"I'm sorry, Dad,"

Arman hugged Elvina tightly and Elvina came back crying. Every time in time slumped and met with the right backrest, surely his cries broke.

"I said frankly with Mas Vano that I can't live long with people I don't love. I'm not actually happy with him. And this morning Mas Ken said that he wanted to make time for me alone so I could be happy without him,"

"Well, what you did should be what you wanted, right?"

"Well, but that's not the way. He suddenly left me. I feel banished, Dad. I'm not saying that I want to be separated from him anytime soon,"

"Sister, if he leaves suddenly and wants to throw you away, he has gone without saying goodbye to you. He said he wanted to go, right? It means he still appreciates you even if you think the way he's still wrong,"

"Say she would get used to living without me, Dad," Elvina said with her cynical smile. Every time he remembered his conversation with Vano this morning, suddenly Elvina's emotions rose again.

He couldn't take it when Vano just left. Like what He said just now, that he felt like he had been banished by the man. Vano also forced the will to want to continue living with him while he objected to it.

"Dad need to talk to Vano? Hmm?"

"No, I just want to tell the same story. I am grateful to have a place for stories. But I don't want you to mind and even interfere in my and her problems. Just calm dad, yeah,”

"How are you? Very strange your relationship with Vano yes. You tell dad with a cry, it has made dad think then you ask dad not to interfere? How can you be calm, Elvina?"

"I don't want you to get so emotionally burned when you talk to him,"

"No, I want to talk well. Maybe with dad, you guys can get back together,"

"Or put it this way, you let Vano go, until the time he wants. Maybe he just needs time and you need time to think about everything. Are you sure or do not want to separate from Vano? because papa look, Vano is really good with you. Even though you don't reciprocate her feelings, you can see that she's trying to respect you as her wife, making you the queen of her life,"

"You should be grateful for that, Elvina. And you learn to accept him. You and he have been united, have hurt many parties first. You should be living happily now. But how good it is up to you. Only you can decide where your wedding will take you,"

Arman grabbed his daughter's hand and held it tight. Elvina looked at Arman. Arman gave her a smile and it made her feel calm.

"Don't be selfish, think of other people's feelings as important. He wants to wait for you until you are willing to open your heart to him, to reciprocate his feelings. You should have thought about that. Vano is also human, Elvina. He's tired and tired. If you feel that you are unable and nothing can be maintained, maybe before you decide to separate from him, first he wants to leave you,"

"Dad wants papa's son-in-law to get along. If life gets along, peace, it'll be good. So how? You need to talk to Vano?"

"No, Dad. Dad said, let him go. It's up to when to return. I don't care anymore, Dad,"

"That's not good of you. Your words really show that you don't want to appreciate Vano all this time,"

"Actually I don't know what he wants, Dad. If I can't love her at all times, do I have to stay with her?"

"The answer is in you,"

"But I'm not sure, is it true that there's not even the slightest love for Vano? You live together for almost twenty-four hours, only parting ways when you have activities. Given how he behaves to you, are you sure there isn't a bit of that feeling for Vano? Hmm?"

"Remain, I still haven't forgotten the same time la--"

"Don't bring the past because your life is in the present and for the future. Don't look back again, don't you?"

Elvina lowered her head as Arman warned her firmly. Arman's chest is hot hearing Elvina discuss the past. How Vano doesn't eat heart when it comes to competing with Elvina's past.

"Which past made you not love Vano yet? Your own ex? He ‘kan already have a new partner and they are happy, El,”

"Well, I'm not bothering. I keep walking on the path that has been set for me. Only I still can't open my heart to Vano. Don't be mad at me, blame my heart for not being able--"

"Dad doesn't blame you, at least respect your husband even if you don't love him yet. Understand no?"

Elvina threw her head against the sofa and was completely kept silent by her stern father. And this time it looks like Arman is on Vano's side. Why is it like that? Elvina should know the answer. Arman will not defend the side that he thinks is wrong.

"If you already appreciate each other, life will get along well, and it's good for you to go through everyday life without arguing. I am sure gradually you will love each other and live happily together. If you still can't open your heart or love Vano, no problem. At least you appreciate him and even if you split up, there will be a good impression that you leave for Vano,"

Elvina moved out of her seat now. "I'll go home first, Dad. Thank you for listening to my story, for taking time for me,"

"Together, don't cry most. Focus on your recovery foot as well. Here with a stick must be hard for you. Let's take you home, please,

"Yes, Dad,"

******

"So now change. I often come to play if I have a problem with Sarah. Now you're the one who came to me,"

Vano smiled in response to the Ajun that he came to his office this afternoon and unceremoniously invited Ajun to eat outside. Flowing his complaints that are currently in a rage.

"Well, if he wants that, Van. Just separate now, your people have no children either,"

"By the way you are,"

Vano poked Ajun with his dead cigarette butts. Ajun laughed because Vano who seemed not to accept the suggestion.

"Why did you? Elvina is not having children, so no one is thinking too much,"

"Gue won't, Jun. I'm really hard to get rid of him,"

"Yes from lo this. Why the hell can our problems be the same? I'm equally lo this is not desirable, not loved by the couple. The difference is that Sarah already has children so want how it is necessary to think more mature so that not selfish to the child. If you're the same Elvina's not having children yet, so I think it's easier. Just because you've been very bucin to the wife, so it's natural to feel objection,"

"Honestly, I have no problem if he can't love me yet. But at the very least, there is no intention to separate from me, continue to appreciate me that you know, Jun,"

"For you, he doesn't appreciate you? Yeah, 'cause he's not in love with you,"

"Well, does love have to be able to appreciate me?"

"What is he not pricing you? All this time I've seen him good at you,"

"I find it hard to appreciate my existence in his life,"

Vano certainly will not tell how the attitude of Elvina during this time who likes to make him eat liver. Acting impolite as if Vano is not her husband, but Vano has tried to be kind because he appreciates Elvina, until Elvina refuses to have children from him, Vano did not mind. He accepted the decision even though he had to swallow the bitter truth.

"Yes, enjoy your excitement. Sure enough, later also better continue to live happily you two, have many children, let's be his friend Kila,"

"Where is there? She doesn't want to have children with me. So he did not want to until I refused the time I asked one time not to take a pill. I really don't want to, yes" Vano grumbled in his heart.

"According to you, my decision to leave temporarily from him, right or wrong?"

"I said, right. Let Elvina know how it feels to stay. Well, you see how the reaction is. Once he realized that your role in life is very important. Lo who has been patient with him, lo who became an extraordinary husband for him when other men are not necessarily able to kayak lo,"

"Jun, you don't know I have to feel his name competing with his past,"

Vano held back those words from escaping his mouth. What He can tell others, He will tell to reduce the burden. But what he thought was inappropriate for others to know, he kept it.

"If he doesn't feel lost after I stay, what about, Jun?"

Vano sipped the avocado juice before him then looked at Ajun who was currently sipping his cigarette deeply.

Ajun exhaled his cigarette smoke into the air then chuckled. "Yes, accept the fate,"

"You can't make my mood improve,"

"Well, how did dong end? I am confused too. But I'm sure he must be feeling lost, Vano. You have lived together for a year, yes there is not the slightest sense of loss? At best, he woke up already knowing something different and unusual because there was no lo next to him,"

*****

"Mother, where are you going?"

"Go with friends, why?"

Amih looked at Elvina from toe to head uncertainly. He watched Anatha's legs for longer. He was not sure Elvina could go with her friends when her leg condition had not recovered.

"Mom sure you want to go, Mom? Mother's feet again so. It's better at home, ma'am, if I may give you some advice,"

"I'm bored at home, mummy too, Mih. So mending out. It's nothing to be lame and ashamed of,"

"No shame, Mom. But I can't bear to see that the road is a little difficult. Pak Vano's passage messages so that the mother rests a lot at home-"

"Not to carry the name Vano, Mih,"

Amih blocked Elvina's seemingly difficult steps with her crutches. Elvina was stubborn, even though she gave advice to stay at home because it was not hearty if Elvina had to go with her legs that had not recovered after cracking.

"Now, don't piss me off, yeah,"

"Mom, I'm sorry, I have to make sure you're okay at home. I do not want to happen something with my mother, Mr. Vano also has been sending messages to me so that I take care of Mom,"

"You want to hear his words? Huh uh?"

Elvina looked at Amih sharply. Instantly Amih made a shrivel. He lowered his head in fear. His good intentions who wanted to make sure Elvina was okay were met with Elvina's anger.

"Why did you hear her talk?"

"Sorry, Mom. Mr. Vano paid me so I have to hear all Mr. Vano's messages, ma'am. Besides, Mr. Vano told me like that because he did not want Mom for anything, Mr. Vano wanted to recover quickly. It's wrong that I obey Mr Vano, huh, ma'am?"

"Oh so because Vano is your salary? Didn't he? Hmm?"

"Let mom's legs be healthy and normal, Mom. If used to walk now, fear even more pain. I see my mother grimacing constantly," said Amih to divert Elvina's words.

"I'm bored here, okay? I need a diversion from all the burdens that befall me now,"

Amih cleared her throat then touched both arms of Elvina and smiled. "Well, what do you want to do to not get bored? Let me follow. Do you want me to jog? Cook something? Or what?"

Elvina squealed in annoyance. He took Amih's hand away from his arm and then he went back to the room.

The one who saw it smiled. Elvina did not force her will to leave the house and she was happy at once and relieved.

It just so happens that Amih will return to work but Vano's message goes to his phone. As usual, Ken diligently asked about Elvina to Amih.

- Anatha is busy what, Mih?-

I had to go in the room again after I forbid to go out, sir

Vano reading the message was really upset. Elvina is stubborn for her own good.

*****

"You don't try to call Vano again. Don't have to be served if he calls or sends you a message,"

"What's the matter, Mom?"

"For what do I still care about? 'You're gone,"

Amih was silent just wanted to listen because he really did not like the attitude of Elvina. Husband just wants to know about wife, is it wrong huh?instead of good, Ken still cares, still wants to be responsible for Elvina even though she is leaving home.

"Mom, I do not deserve to interfere, but I think there is nothing wrong with Mr. Vano's attitude. I was amazed because Mr. Vano was still attentive to his mother even though he was not at home,"

Elvina rolled her eyes off guard because there was always someone defending Vano, and Elvina felt she never had any supporters.