Shadow From the Past
Chapter 90

After Elvina graduated from college, Elvina was immediately brought by her husband to live in their long-prepared residence by Vano.

“You will have lunch in my room. We had lunch outside. But instead of me coming home, you better come to the office to save time,"

"Look at me later,"

Vano scowled at his wife's short answer. Can't answer 'yes' for sure? He just invited Elvina to lunch together.

"Aren't you going to my office? I am not ashamed of the other teachers. People just come into my room for us to go eat together. Are you busy?"

"Yes not really. Just lazy to your room,"

"Well, what is it, El? Come then. Lazy time to the husband's own room?"

"Lunch alone,"

"Geez why the hell? I don't want to have lunch with my husband,"

Vano finished breakfast getting up from his seat to the room picking up a cell phone.

He left Elvina alone in the dining room while he rushed to the room to pick up a cell phone before leaving for work.

He searched the nightstand because he remembered He had put it there but He could not find it. Then Vano searched under the pillow.

"Where is my phone?"

"No one, anyway,"

Vano ransacked the bed that was neat because of Elvina. He was clucking because he had not found it yet.

Vano ducked down to look under the bed. It may have fallen there but it turns out there wasn't either.

"H Where the hell is it?! There's no. Oh my goodness, what a bad luck,"

Vano opened one by one the nightstand drawer next to the bed. Yes, although it feels impossible to meet because he never keeps a cell phone in the drawer.

"Eld,"

Vano called out to Elvina with her loud voice. Elvina heard faintly but was lazy to approach her husband because he was having breakfast.

"El, where's my phone?"

Elvina did not approach even to deny reluctantly. Vano clucked in annoyance at not getting an answer. Vano slammed his body on the bed.

"Where's my phone? Geez! I keep it where the hell?"

Vano hasn't opened his wife's dresser drawer yet. He opened drawer number three but not the cell phone he found. There are things that actually shift the focus, namely drugs.

"It's for pregnancy prevention, isn't it? I've seen mothers buy this time to the pharmacy," murmured Vano staring at the contraceptive pill that is clearly owned by Elvina who said she was ready to conceive but turned out to store a pregnancy-preventing pill. Who else would be in this room if not Elvina and herself? But he never took this kind of drug. And inside that drawer was all Elvina's stuff.

"Oh my God, so Elvina put this on,"

It was very difficult to know Elvina who apparently took a pregnancy-preventing pill. Whereas all this time Vano has been waiting for their baby. Elvina has graduated from college so she wants to have children. Finally, he did not have to resist that desire anymore. But it turns out that secretly Elvina took a pregnancy-preventing pill.

"Why doesn't Elvina have a previous agreement with me?"

Vano gnashed his teeth until he clashed against each other. Vano opened the door of the room violently and went down the stairs quickly.

"Elvina!"

"What the hell? Why else? You call, I deliberately did not answer because if you need to stay come to me. Don't you need to scream. I still have breakfast anyway,"

Vano placed the pregnancy-preventing pill on the table violently and that second also the deathly pale Elvina.

"Mas, you get---"

"What's? So it turns out you're wearing it and you didn't tell me before?! If indeed you do not want to have children, you just say the same to me. Why the hell, Elvina? You can always make me hurt. You're outrageous. This kid's problem is both of us. But what are you doing? Huh huh? You're wearing this without my knowledge. You know for yourself that I was hoping for something,"

Vano vented all of his heart without pause. Elvina has gone too far. Vano until not finished thinking with the attitude of his wife who seemed to take the decision to postpone the presence of momongan without he knew before.

"If it's not ready, you just say the same to me, dear," Vano's voice began to humble and the look on his face really illustrates how sick Elvina was made.

"I will not force it. What I don't like is the way you are, Elvina. You don't say anything to me. I'm your husband, though,"

Elvina swallowed her saliva to see how disappointed Vano was towards her. He again made the man hurt for the third time.

Vano will not force if indeed Elvina said not ready to conceive. Ken will wait until his wife feels ready. Is it hard to talk? They have good communication. Every day we meet. Just tell me that he does not want to have children.

As, I'm sorry. I don't want it anytime soon. I-i-"

"Yes, I get it. Why not talk from the beginning? You know what, I've been hoping for, Elvina? You've been laughing at me all this time, haven't you? Because I wish it was impossible,"

"Mas, I'm sorry. I'm afraid you're disappointed, so I didn't tell you I was procrastinating,"

"I'm more disappointed that you're like this, Elvina. You should have talked about it from the beginning so I'm not surprised. All this time you know for yourself that I've been very hopeful. It turns out you secretly made the decision to delay having children. I'm disappointed in you. Very disappointed because you just don't appreciate me as your husband. Though I deserve to know about whatever decision you make in our marriage,"

Elvina looked down at her interlocking fingers to strengthen herself who felt so hated. He knew it would disappoint Vano. Vano revealed it and felt very guilty.

Vano left the dining room and rushed to go to work. Elvina was crying in her eyes at the dinner table.

"Vano was very angry with me. Obviously, because I'm not honest with him. And he was hoping for it,"

****

Since the quarrel, Vano decided not to go home. He left Elvina at home with only their domestic assistant.

Elvina contacted him but Vank always ignored her. Message or phone, deliberately left alone by Vano who still has not recovered his wound.

"Mom, just daydream. No breakfast, ma'am?"

Elvina nodded and immediately looked at the bowl of cereal that she had made just now. Today is the second day Vano is not home. But Anatha kept cooking, hoping that Vano would come home to enjoy her cooking and they could talk together. This time He could not dwell because He did something wrong.

Elvina ate her breakfast quietly while staring at the phone occasionally. Guilt makes him look different from Elvina who is usually indifferent to Vano.

"Mom, you go home," a whisper from Amih made Elvina immediately turn to the direction that Amih pointed. Elvina immediately followed her husband who climbed the stairs to the room.

Vano came home with the intention of taking clothes. Not to go back to this house. No, he didn't move or leave the house. It only took him a moment to get away from the source of his injuries all this time.

"Mas, you're home? I'm really happy. Have you had breakfast?"

Vano opened the room door and maintained his composure. He did not care about Elvina who was trying to greet him and act like everything was fine.

"Mas, what do you want?"

Elvina certainly knew that Vano would leave after seeing Vano take out some of his clothes then put them in a suitcase.

"Mas, where are you going? We talk to both of us first, right? Please don't go. I know I was wrong. I'm sorry, Mas. Don't go, we'll talk both of you through, all right,"

Vano kept busy moving some clothes and other necessities. Yesterday he bought clothes and because he was still lacking, he decided to go home. Not just because you want to get clothes. The main goal is to make sure Elvina is okay in this house. Yes, Vano still has such a great affection for Elvina even though she was made to be in constant pain.

Even when he first set foot at home and saw Elvina who was in good condition, Vano was eager to hug her to vent his longing and also apologized for leaving Elvina without any news. But anger still prevails so that simple desires are not fulfilled. Most importantly he had seen Elvina healthy, that was enough for her.

Vano finished preparing the items he would bring to stay for a while at the hotel.

Vano will come out of the room and Elvina still faithfully follows him. "Mas, don't petgi just yet. I don't want you to go again, Mom. We can talk to both of us first, right? I know you're disappointed and angry. I'm sorry about you, Mom. Sorry to make you like this. Mas, don't--"

"This is what you want? Huh?"

"No, I don't want you to go. I don't want us to fight,"

"But you present the cause for our quarrel, Elvina. I'd better find another comfortable place to recover myself. Because you never want to understand what I really feel, Elvina,"

The banging of the room door that was closed violently made Elvina flinch in shock.

There was nothing Elvina could do but cry. He began to despair of getting an apology from Vano. He asked for time so that they could talk together, Elvina seemed very reluctant.

Elvina decided to get out of the room. Maybe Vano hasn't left his house.

"I'm taking Elvina,"

One short and simple sentence but managed to shake Elvina's mind was heard when Elvina arrived on the ground floor. He sees Vano's back getting further away after leaving a message to their housekeeper Amih.

Elvina runs after Vano but Vano is in the car and immediately gasps to leave the house.

"Mother, the meal was spent" Amih told Elvina to get Elvina to go back to the dining room. He knows very well, people who are sad must be reluctant to fill their stomachs. Elvina's appetite since getting into an argument with Vank also decreased, Amih realized that.

"Let's eat first, ma'am,"

Amih grabbed the hand of Elvina who was about to rush to the room. Elvina according to him. He was guided to the dinner table by Amih.

"Eat it goes on, Mom. If you're sick, you'll think,"

"Did he care, Mih? He's gone, don't want to forgive me,"

Amih smiled and immediately sat down beside Elvina. He grabbed one free hand of Elvina not holding the spoon.

"Mom, you're just a loner for a while. I'm not really angry with Mom. Got a sense of natural disappointment, don't you, Mom?"

Of course, Elvina taught that because she also often experienced what her name was disappointed. Moreover, Vano, who during his life with him was always faced with many disappointments that He created and forced Elvina to experience it. Starting from their marriage that happened because he wanted to learn to love Vano but the fact until this moment He could not do that, and just now Vano had to swallow the disappointment of being lied to by him.

He is not honest that he is not ready to have children. In front of Vano, he was ready. Vano never forced but Vano so wanted the presence of a child. What Vano regrets is, why isn't Elvina being honest? So he did not have to hope for a while until Elvina felt really ready.

Too many things Elvina did and made Vano hurt. Elvina always wasted her husband, whether it was her feelings or her kindness.

****

"Vano still hasn't come home?"

"Yet, Bun. He still doesn't want to go home,"

"Yes Allah is really Vano yes,"

"Assynolt,"

Early look back when the sound of someone saying greetings and he immediately answered.

Her husband came with his tired face but smiled looking at her. "Tumben can't wait for me downstairs?"

"Just a minute, Pa,"

Dimi asks Arman to wait for him to finish talking to Elvina, his only daughter, who has yet to meet Vano.

"Yes, you don't have to think about him. Whatever he wants. The time to get the kids angry. Too bad for him, can't borrow your feelings,"

Arman took off his clothes while wondering inwardly. I don't know who Dinu was talking about, he doesn't understand.

"Later you will be sick to think of him. He doesn't think about you, Elvina. Dad's home. Mother hang up the phone first,"

Dini immediately put her mobile phone on the nightstand then looked at her husband who was taking off socks.

"You're talking to Elvina?"

"Yes, Vano is angry with Elvina because Elvina has a son, Dad. Until Vano doesn't come home. That boy's outrageous,"

"Lho, I didn't accidentally meet him with his friend,"

"Where?"

She was immediately curious about her husband's story. Unfortunately Arman does not know Elvina's problem with Vano. So Arman did not talk to Vano earlier, considering they also accidentally met so the chat was very short.

"When lunchtime. He's the same girl friend. Just introduced the same father just forgot his name,"

"He was looking for Elvina's fault maybe because he wanted to be the same next time,"

"Bun, don't say that. We don't know what the real problem is. You just heard from Elvina. Also, try the Vano version,"

"Whatever it is, if it's been related to children, Vano shouldn't be like this, Dad. He can be a little more mature. He'll know that Elvina has not long ago also passed so it's natural that it's still delayed to have children. Yes it should not be in question, even become quarreling like gini ‘kan. Poor Elvina, Dad. Know that El Mother has a child, uh she doesn't even accept,"

"Calm down first. We should talk to Vano too,"

"Yes the problem is that Vani doesn't come home, Dad. Where are we going to meet him? Mama doesn't know where she works,"

Regret Dini has reached the top of the head aka ubun-ubun. Vano has no manners according to him. If he really wants to separate from Elvina so choose not to go home, should return Elvina to He and Arman as a good parent is not just left alone.

"How many days has Vano not been home?"

"Two, if it's not wrong Elvina said that,"

"Patience, don't immediately blame Vano,"

"Papa defended him, Dad,"

Arman clucked, starting to get caught in the air with his wife. He was putting himself in the middle between Vano and Elvina. He could not blame Vano for not knowing the story from Vano's mouth that might be different from what Elvina told her mother.

*****

"You go home, talk to Elvina. Is Elvina apologizing to you?"

Vano nodded in response to Arman's question. Elvina has apologized many times. When he came home, in the message and on the phone also Elvina apologized. Only He has not given any response because He still needs time to get back to being okay.

"He's sorry about you. So you shouldn't be acting like this, Vano. You haven't come home for a few days because of your ego,"

"Bun, I'm sorry,"

Dini snorted and threw away her gaze, reluctant to stare at Vano again. Dini attach her bag to the shoulder and then invite the husband to leave.

"Don't take too long to make Elvina sad, Van. My message is one, if you don't want to stay with Elvina, just tell us her parents, give her back well,"

“Iya but she's lying. He said it's ready but the reality is not yet,”

“But you shouldn't have come from home, Vano,”

After saying that, Dini lifted her foot from the room where Vano worked. Arman is still sitting in his place.

Vano looked at Arman whom He had disappointed because he had left his daughter behind after being lied to.

“I also don't care if El Nunda as long as she's honest. But okay I'm going home, Dad. I don't want to be separated from Elvina. But I need a minute,"

"Yes, I'll go home first,"

"Don't stay away from the source of your disappointment too long because it will make you recover. Talking alone with Elvina was best, Van," Arman's message shortly before leaving Vano at their meeting place.

Vano did not expect that Elvina would report what had happened between her parents, namely child problems. Now he must face his in-laws' disappointment. He did not want to drag on to make them disappointed.

"Yes, Well, God willing I will go straight to the house there El and probably will immediately talk about this all if the situation is right,”

Vano released Arman's departure from his room, following Dini who had already left earlier.

She waited for her husband near the car. He grumbled because Arman didn't catch up with him.

"Long old father anyway. By the way let alone the stubborn Vano,"

After she grumbled like that, her husband came over with a fluffy smile, which was trying to make Dini not irritated anymore with Vano.

"A long time no coming,"

"Yes, because I still want to talk to Vano, Bun, first,"

Arman opened the car door for his wife who was staring at him in annoyance. After Dini got into the car, he immediately entered as well and sat behind his wheel.

"BundaMama did not end up thinking the same Vano. He was stubbornly unwilling to go home and talk to Anatha. The reason takes time. When do you want to try?"

"Yes, Bun. Vano and Elvina are both adults. Vano has made the decision to be alone first, so we appreciate the decision. Elvina is the most guilty here. She is not open with her own husband when this should be discussed both, but like Vano wants to go home, we will see first what Vano will do after this,”

"Yes, maybe Elvina's hard to talk to, Dad. He's afraid Vano is disappointed,"

"It's just that Vano is more disappointed, Bun. He feels unappreciated. This is about the child. Can't decide for yourself that way. If Vano knew it'd be better, too, Bun,"

"But Mother pity Elvina. He seems to be thinking, Dad. So the mother hopes that Vano can come home soon and talk to Elvina," said Dini.

"Dad sure Vano won't be home for long. He also really doesn't want to act like this. Just let Elvina know that she's disappointed, so Elvina's left for a while,"

Dini leaned back while throwing her breath rough. He could not speak anymore because Vano had remained stubborn despite being approached directly by him and Arman.

Now I don't know what decision Vano made. Whether he will really go home to see his wife or just survive not to go home because of his disappointment. Elvina was wrong for not being open to her husband. Elvina said she was ready but she wasn't ready to have children. Vano will understand that Elvina is open or honest from the beginning to him so he has not been expecting to have children, but in fact Elvina even lied. Elvina said she was ready to have a child but secretly kept a pregnancy-preventing pill without Vano's knowledge which was most entitled to know about it. If Vano was told, Vano would not be as angry and disappointed as this.