The Light of Love for Seroja
CCUS 17: Tragedy 2 (flashback)

PoV Seroja

It was still dark when I stepped foot down the paved road section of one corner of western Java. I do not know how far this distance I have traveled, but it feels there is no destination for me to dock. The noise of the iron horses was still slightly deafening. Although the night still wrapped the change of time this time, in fact did not make the riders to stay indoors. I don't know what they are doing or what they are looking for. It might just want to hunt for the seconds of the night atmosphere that will crawl into the morning.

Pickup cars commonly used to transport vegetables have also been seen milling. The driver drove the car he brought to the plantation which they would soon bring to the city for distribution.

These footsteps felt heavy, perhaps as heavy as the inner burden I was currently feeling. My soul is too fragile to accept all the things that hit me so hard tonight. I really don't know what to do after this. Do I continue to play my role as a human being who no longer has honor? Or do I die to escape the shackles of this suffering?

I was trained to try to escape from that cursed place that if I remembered it was deeper into stabbing this heart. I don't care anymore the pain in between the thighs that are still felt to the tip of the head. And of course the pain that is still always spoiled in the chest.

The feeling of tightness is also getting whacky. It was like being squeezed by two large chunks of rock that made breathing difficult. I think the further I walk away from the cursed house, the more this wound will disappear along with this trail of directionless steps. But in reality a lump of animate flesh in this body is getting crumpled dim, do not know, how it can return to its original form.

Clear threads full of wounds that gather in the eye pelupuk also increasingly river. Ready to flow with just one blink. I held my head up, tried to hold back those tears. But the more I hold, the more the grains flow.

The sky suddenly blackened. Showing thick clouds, like trying to form drops of sky water then he will drop to become heavy rain that flushes the surface of the earth. The wind also felt strong, making the cold suddenly penetrate and puncture bones.

Lightning sounds began to be heard in the early hours of today accompanied by lightning that seemed clear as competing to reveal its existence. Little by little the sky water began to drip, turning into a raindrop and after that the raindrop turned into a heavy rain that felt piercing when it hit the skin. This heavy rain is like tears falling from my eyes.

"Lord... Do you really exist? If so, where were you when I was in this situation? A situation where I was alone in the face of the pettiness of life and there was nothing I could make a backstop!"

Under the torrent of rain, I shouted out loud like a servant questioning the existence of his Lord. All this time I tried to always behave well with anyone, even someone who always behaved badly towards me. But what? What did I get? All I got was a vision of fate that threw me into the abyss of sheer destruction.

Something that I always take good care of, by not letting anyone touch it but is taken by humans biadap not much different from an animal. Heartlessly she snatched it away without leaving behind anything I deserved to be proud of other than just the rest of the wound rubble and the solace in the soul.

My body decays under the water of the sky that is falling so profusely. My head lowered, watching the tears that had fallen from my clear well that had melted into one with the water of this sky. I was stunned as I hit my chest and head, hoping God would take my life soon. I've lost everything. The affection of mom and dad, the loving and affectionate gifts from the family, the honor of being a woman and all that can make me taste what it is to be happy. So, what else makes me still survive in this hellish life? I'd better end it all now.

I re-raised my head. I stared at the atmosphere in front of my face that was increasingly crowded filled with motorized vehicles that passed by with a stern look. I began to rise again to move this leg even without me knowing where to stop.

I turned my body ninety degrees, intending to cross this stretch of road. Sometimes I see the lights of a car that slightly disturbs my vision, but I don't care. The sound of the horn sounded simple, giving a signal that I was careful in walking, but again, I did not care. Even if I get hit by one of these cars, I will be very grateful. That way, I can escape this suffering.

Until at the end....

Tiii... Tiii.....

"Serod, Awaaaaaasssssssss!!!!"

Bruck.. Brakk.... Brakk!!!

My body felt pushed by something so powerful and caused me to crash on the shoulder of the road. I fell down, in a prone position. The half-lost consciousness, now slowly began to gradually return completely. I spread my eyes out to the position where the sound was coming from and these two eyes were wide open, perfectly rounded when I saw the body of the little girl dragged a car a few meters ahead and stopped when the car had hit the road barrier.

"Goddessaaaaaaaa!!!!"

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