The Light of Love for Seroja
CCUS 49: Devote

"What makes you cry like this, son?"

The sound of baritone that was constantly seeping into Randy's sense of hearing, managed to make his body aghast instantly. In a hurry, he rubbed his face violently trying to remove the traces of tears being spilled. But unfortunately, the man who swung his footsteps towards him had already caught him crying which could only make him smile thinly forced.

"Aahhh .. It's okay sir. I just..."

Randi paused his speech. After performing the prayer services of Isya' in congregation with Mukhlas and Lili, then continued with dhikr and prayer led by the middle-aged man, somehow he felt to be the most beautiful man. His heart was suddenly filled with a foreign feeling that was unpalpable and legible. That only made his chest like a river dike that was pushed by a flash flood and was ready to vanish through the streams of tears from his eyes.

"Is there something in your heart? If you don't mind, you can tell me. Although maybe you can't help at least there's a place for you to pour out what's bothering your heart and mind."

Mukhlas also landed his butt in the gazebo, next to Randy, while enjoying the atmosphere of this cold night. The wind blows a little louder accompanied by natural songs that come from the sound of crickets from the ground and also owls perched on the branches of jackfruit trees, as if making night martyrdom more pronounced.

Randy linked his eyes to Mukhlas. He commented on the slight smile on his lips, when considering how the interaction between this man and his wife, his feelings really made him feel envious. The middle-aged couple still looked so warm.

"There are two things that make my chest feel so tight like this sir."

With shade, Mukhlas stared fixed bead Randy's eyes that looked so damp. "What is a son?"

Randy threw his face back. He looked back at the pool in front of him with a glaring look. "I am reminded of all the mistakes and sins I have committed. And I remember a woman I loved so much."

"MashaAllah ..you are really lucky son, because God softens your heart so that you remember the sins and mistakes you have committed. Hopefully, you not only remember it, but also try to improve and improve yourself."

Randy lowered his head. The tears flowed back. "Will Allah forgive all the sins I have committed sir? And will He welcome my return to the right path?"

Mukhlas sighed deeply and slowly he exhaled. "From Abu Hurairah radhiyallahu 'anhu, he said that the Prophet shallallahu 'alaihi wa sallam said, Allah Ta'ala said: "I according to My servant's presupposition. I was with him when he remembered Me. If he remembers Me alone, I will remember him in Me. If he remembers Me in a group, I will remember him in a better group than in that (group of angels). If he draws near to Me for a while, I draw near to him. If he draws near to Me one day, I draw near to him one step. If he comes to Me walking (ordinary), then I come to him walking fast.”(HR. Bukhari no. 6970 and Muslim no. 2675). From this hadith, I think it could be the answer to the concern you are feeling."

"But my sins and mistakes are so many, is it possible that God will forgive me?"

"The nashuha order, that's the answer. Repentance is true repentance where you will never repeat the mistakes you have made." Mukhlas looked back at Randy's body, which was still bowing his head. "As many and as many sins as we have ever committed, if we repent with true repentance, God willing, God will take away all those sins. In Asmaul husna, Allah has the name al-ghafur which means the Most Merciful."

Randy raises his head. He turned his head to the side and linked his gaze to this middle-aged man. Slowly, he had tears still flowing from his eyes. "Help me to improve myself, sir. Help me to be closer to God."

Mukhlas nodded his head. "InshaAllah, InshaAllah, I will help you, Son. Then, what do you mean about the woman you love so much?"

Randy swept his eyes in any direction. The longing for Seroja has really disturbed his heart and mind. The first woman to make him feel what it is to fall in love and the first and last woman he will love until the end of his life.

"Actually I've had a wife sir. Not even just one. I have two wives."

Randy nodded slowly. "Yes sir, two wives."

Randy paused for a moment while breathing deep air. I don't know why he felt so comfortable sharing his story with this guy. "My first marriage to my wife was because of compulsion. I married her at my mother's request to cover up the wrongs my sister had done. Five years I stayed with the marriage, but starting in the fourth year, I met a woman who could really make me feel what it was to fall in love."

Randy's eyeballs are back in tears. He returned to his face.

"Then?" said Mukhlas who seemed so curious about the past of the man who was even just a few hours in this house.

"I did love that woman, sir, but I was wrong. Wrong because me and that woman committed a sin before I actually married her."

Mukhlas was a little surprised. "Astaghfirullahal 'adziim .. does that mean you took away the honor of that woman?"

Randy shakes faintly. One year of living with Seroja, made him know what kind of life story the woman went through. "Honor of the woman was first snatched by her stepfather, to make her trapped in a situation that is so difficult. And it was then that I came to him."

"Then, where is your wife right now, son?"

"I'm divorcing both sir. I divorced them both."

"Yes Allah ... Why is it like that, son?"

"I divorced the wife I loved so much at the request of my own wife. He asked me to divorce him so I could go back to my first wife. And I paid all my attention to him. I also grant it. After that, he left my life." Randy again scooped the air deep and he exhaled slowly. "A little while after he left, I decided to divorce my first wife. I felt I could no longer maintain that forced marriage. I'm really unhappy sir, I'm not happy. I feel so happy living with my second wife."

Mukhlas was seen nodding his head, a little understood by the storyline of this man. "Then, after this what are you going to do, son?"

"Since he left my life, I promised myself to improve. And it seems that God welcomed my good intentions by meeting the Father. Is it possible that after I try to improve myself and become a much better human being, I can go back to being a matchmaker with my ex-wife Sir? Is it possible that I can go back to life with him?"

Mukhlas scanned the expression on the face of this man before him. When viewed from the expression on his face, this man really loves his ex-wife. "The fool is rooted and will not be confused, son. If the woman is truly your soul mate, God willing will reunite you. It could be that right now he is also improving himself and later when you are reunited, you are both in good shape."

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Awwwwws.. Awwwwws.... Oleng's writing... Want to nyatuin Seroja with Fakhru or return to Randy yaa.... 🤭🤭🤭 Haduhhh jan.... If both are good, then what? 😆😆😆😆