The Second Lead Fate
One Hundred Twenty Nine

"Get me a drink for your mother!"

"Yes"

After two days in the hospital, Ambar's mother finally returned home. The condition of his mother's body is still weak but will improve as time goes by.

"Aren't you working?" asked his mother after receiving water from Ambar.

"Son Ma'am. Ambar take a day off first"

"Udah there is enough of your father at home. You just work there"

"But Ma'am"

"Have you finished borrowing yesterday?" asked his mother and then looked out of the room.

"Udah. Ambar has returned to everything"

Of course Ambar has returned all loan items used for yesterday's application. Although he received many questions from neighbors, he answered everything honestly.He did not get married because the candidate was not suitable.

"You work there" said his mother again.

"But Ma'am"

"Udah is okay. Two days ago must have been a lot of your work delayed"

Ambar surrendered. He couldn't possibly insist on waiting for his mother at home now. After all, his mother also needed a lot of time to rest. After making sure lunch was ready, he paid his parents a farewell and went to work.

Although surprised by his arrival, two Ambar employees returned to work as usual. He also went back to face the laptop and checked the design of the invitations ordered by customers last week before printing. Suddenly a knock on the door of his room interrupted Ambar's focus. He looked up and glued.

"Re" called out to him in a trembling voice.

"Bars"

Ambar closed his mouth and felt disbelief in his own eyes.

"You ... when?"

Ambar immediately left his job and hugged Rea. Hugging a friend who has not been found and contacted for two years.

"I heard your mother went to the hospital, so I'm here"

"Sounds from where?" ask Ambar curiously.

"Stupid boy"

"Kenzo? How's it?"

"Well that's it. Don't ask me again"

No matter how Rea found out about her mother, Ambar did not care. Most importantly, she finally met her best friend again.

"I miss you" said Ambar, then I'll have Rea again"

"me too. But can we go to your house? I'm tired and jetlagged"

"All right"

Ambar canceled work and handed the store to two of his employees. She returns home and is happy to see her mother smiling due to Rea's arrival. The two chat before Rea follows AMbr to his room.

"You live here? Not at the hotel?" ask Ambar.

"Yes. Wh why? Don't like it?"

"Like it"

Ambar hugged Rea again and felt very happy. Just this time it felt like his lips would be torn from smiling too much. She escorts Rea to her room and accidentally sees her best friend's blue dress still hanging outside the closet.

"Yet? Real nice. Kayak wedding dress"

Ambar was embarrassed and immediately put the dress in the closet.

"It's just a regular dress"

"For what?"

"That's ... " Abar is anxious to lie, but this is the first day he meets Rea. It would be very unkind if he were to go back to lying at this moment.

"Is there anything I should know?" ask Rea again.

Rea opened his eyes wide, looking very surprised by what Ambar said.

"Who?"

How can Ambar tell who proposed to him? What will Rea say? But he did not accept the proposal. So ...

"Adhii"

"Who?"

"Feli's ex-husband"

As soon as Ambar was honest, Rea fell silent. He already knew that Rea must be shocked and angry. But ...

"Did you accept it?"

"What's? of course not. Re, I don't accept it. It's impossible to accept it"

"Why?"

Ha's? Why is Rea now asking why she didn't accept the guy's proposal? Isn't it obvious the reason behind the rejection?

"Re, how can I ... "

"You still can't escape Feli?"

"How could I forget?"

"But it's been two years. You and I who are still in this world should move on and forget the past"

Ambar felt very disappointed by what Rea said. Shouldn't Rea be more angry and upset with her? Shouldn't Rea hate that guy more than he hates?

"But I can't forget Feli"

"me too. It's just that everything has passed and we have to live the present well"

"Rre ... "

"I know you feel guilty for indirectly causing Feli's death. But all of that is not true, Mbar. You're not the cause of Feli's death. It's all a fate that you and I can't change anymore"

Ambar felt himself becoming smaller than usual. He always felt self-blame, making himself suffer was the right thing to do. He must be punished for the suffering felt by Feli. But .. what Rea said there was a point. Everything has happened and nothing he can do can change that.

"But Re. Still, I shouldn't have liked that guy. Should have been me ... "

"What if you blame yourself, Feli can live again?"

"What?"

"Even though you suffer and blame yourself. Feli won't be able to live anymore. You should be aware of that"

Ambar speechless. He had never heard of anything like this before.It seemed like he needed some time to slowly accept all of it.

But how could he end it all? When he was used to blaming himself for the death of Feli and also used to let himself feel unhappy.

"I .. I don't know Re. I think I'll have to suffer until later"

"Do you want your parents to suffer too?"

Same. What Rea said was the same as that guy said. And Ambar will easily answer

"No. But I don't know how to ... "

Ambar looked towards Rea and felt confused. Rea finally hugged Ambar tightly as if to ease the suffering he had been feeling.

"Can I not suffer anymore?" ask in a very small voice.

"Can"

"Can I forget what happened two years ago and move on with my life?"

"Can"

"Am I ..."

"You can do anything about your own life, Barb. Find someone and get married. We will never forget Feli. But we also have to live life well so as not to regret it later"

Now, as if the burden that had been on Ambar's shoulders was released one after another. The coming of Rea today is a gift given by God to Ambar. She cried, this time loudly. He no longer wanted to hide the pain in his own heart. He will let out all along with his cries. So that tomorrow he can live life without feeling guilty again to his friend who is like a forest fairy.