The Way of Love for the Doctor
SEASON 2'S. Part 18's. Erwin's View

“Hickey.” I let go of the talk and saw Oppa. I shouldn't have seen this, so last night, he didn't change his clothes at all, he was with the woman all night. So that woman is special to him, she's been all the way here, maybe she's finally accepted someone. Sooner or later they will be together.

“Ah, I'm sorry Doc, I came out first, I have a job that I forgot.” He looked surprised I found the mark, but I also knew I had no right to speak. I turned around and directly exited Oppa's room with a hot face plus hot eyes. It's not gonna work, he just thinks of me as a kid.

I surrendered...

And I had to cry myself in the toilet as a result. Mama's right about this, it'll just break my heart. I was expecting someone who wouldn't consider me in the first place. We're different too far.  And now I cry alone in the toilet crying for my love that claps one hand.

This is not gonna work. I'm not going anywhere. How I might have expected it, we were indeed too far apart. Now I have to risk a broken heart. There's no point in me crying, I'd rather swallow this disappointment myself. So I went out, fixed my face and tried to be normal again. I'd look a shame if I broke my heart like this. I went to check on the patient.

“Dok, patient is ready.” This time the one who will be an assistant is not me, but another doctor. I'm done checking the patient's preparation with the anesthesiologist, I won't scrub-in, just check the preparation.

“Okay, thank you.” He must have seen my eyes reddened, but he said nothing. It's better I have more time to gather myself, after lunch I still face three consultations with him.

But anyway I tried to keep losing myself afterwards. My concentration was broken and what I did was mostly pensive and sobbing to myself. Someone came in and I looked over with my eyes still glazed over. It was Oppa.

“You okay?” I was surprised, it turned out that the operation was completed sooner, I think that still at least half an hour away he entered the practice room.

“Sorry... Sorry Doc, I'll check the next patient.” I'm running out of excuses that I'm doing now just from her room to avoid it as quickly as the embarrassed princess who closed her leaves.

And then the rest of the day I try to talk to him as necessary. I couldn't look at him and avoided him more, even though I managed to behave as usual during the consultation.

“Dok, can I go home? Is there still a task?”

“Iya go home.”

“Thank you.” He's not holding me back. Make me comfortable or talk to me. But maybe it's better this way. I will never step away from my assignment as an assistant again.

Three days later I was sitting in front of Erwin in a Japanese restaurant, I promised to help him heat up someone. All we did was sit and talk.

“I just need to sit chatting with you Brother.” I think chatting with Erwin was a nice diversion.Within daydreaming about the heartbreak I had.

“Iya. He's here with his friend. Treating as usual, don't care where he is. How's doctor Vincent doing you want to heat up?”  I smiled bitterly and told her everything that had happened, while she listened to me.

“Hmm... did he say only friends? How was his attitude these few days.”.

“He tried his best as usual, sometimes brought me food these few days, maybe he immediately felt guilty breaking my heart, I think a little bit he knew, but he just considered me his little nephew, he just thought I was his little niece, he didn't ask me why I wasn't as chatty as he used to be, he knew I was heartbroken. But I'm heartbroken, how else, I have to behave, I'm disappointed ... I've let it go and am willing to step down Brother Erwin.” Erwin was silent to my story.

“Hmm.. I don't see it like you. It might not look like you think it does. But for him to know how you feel, I'm sure he knows it fully, after you suddenly change, he's just not sure of himself.

“Is that?” I thought I had no hope anymore but apparently Brother Erwin had a different view.

“The psychological side of women and men is different. S**x is not a sign your Oppamu loves him, for most men it is. S**x could be just some.vocational needs for them, after all maybe they are really friends. Especially in Korea, the value of marriage has changed a lot, most women there think more openly, you know what I mean more open, right? Se*x for them is not a solid bond sign. Maybe they have a certain relationship before, but maybe it won't lead anywhere, because you said yourself he has not planned to return to Korea.”

“Ohhh, brother Erwin thinks so.” I am now listening to the opinions from the male side. This feels a little contrary to my feelings that have been destroyed, but it may not be wrong either.

“But there is a good actually, Oppamu began to be able to move on from his trauma, began to be able to receive closeness from others. And the thing he's still trying to bring you food, make up for you, means he's been affected by your closeness, the term he feels something's missing. In fact, you can actually see him more attentive because of his guilt, but on the other hand maybe he is still not sure what he should do..”.

“So you think I still have hope?”

“Iya. Don't break up just yet okay. If you back off completely now, he'll stay away too. Keep being nice to him.But this time do not be too good, a little snack is also allowed, just pull over until he tangents, you can also be a little bit,...um I mean for example a little unintentionally holding hands, .. later he will think more about it. Believe me, if he doesn't stay away from your unpleasant touch signal, it means he thinks of you too.”

It turns out that talking to Erwin made my eyes open. I can smile back a little.

“Sister Erwin, thanks lhoo yes. I was willing to give it up.”

“Spirit yah!” Brother Erwin looked the other way in an instant. “Ehh shit he's here, you're my fan yes... Consider him a rival. Don't look at him, keep to me pretending not to know.” Brother Erwin's eyes make a mark, I grimace wide.

“Win... Slide!” Nih cewe sangar too, sakep but sangar. Come immediately ordered Brother Erwin.

“What the hell are you? Come and get people to slide. Why are you here?” Erwin replied that he did not lose. Busyet... This is what else is the war of sodara.

“Eat, why also people to restaurants.”

“Lu don't see me again with me.”

“This is who Brother Erwin is, kok disturbin us.”

“Kita? What is your relationship with him?” I am a fan and can call us.

“Ehh I have any relationship with me kok you who ngurus, Ridwan mana, napa ngurus lu.” This is what was brought to fight, not this girl who is Erwin's brother taxir.

“Ihh napa you who so take care of me.”

“Lahh, how come you're here? Who takes care of who? You crazy huh?” Brother Erwin can ketus plus nyablak also yes speaking. I can see flying saucers around me. Thankfully there are no flying pans.

“Lu..” The girl can't talk right now, just pointing at Erwin's sister with annoyance.

“What?”  Erwin challenged him.

“Awas aja lu.” And he left our table with an unwilling face.

Brother Erwin laughs crazily, I raise eyebrows do not understand the same what happened to them. He said demen, but kok rich cat garong fight.

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