The Way of Love for the Doctor
SEASON 2'S. Part 36's. Finally 2 Fighting
Shut up then, there's nothing to say between us. It was all said, it hurt even more because he couldn't say anything to make me feel comfortable.
Now that I'm sober and laughing at myself, there's nothing comfortable about a breakup. I fell for him, fell in love, indulged in my feelings of wanting to be involved in his life and when I finally hit I just realized my dream was too beautiful.
“Why should it be this drastic, why should it break... Can't we just keep walking. All will be time.”
“I feel need preparation. You have a three-year contract, I don't want to have a 30-year-old and you're 45. Simple, it's too heavy to live. Better not, sooner ends better.”.
“You seem to be trying to corner me and urge me. That's not how you solve problems. Why are you so happy to use a trick to corner people to solve problems?” Now he's trying to accuse me?! I saw him in disbelief.
“Oppa, you don't even want to admit me as your lover! Why don't you just frankly we have no hope!” Now my emotions and tone also started to rise.
“I've told you it's just maintaining the working environment. You misunderstood... I told you from the beginning. I've explained it to you many times. Why don't you understand?”
“Nonsense!” Now we fight. Oppa took a deep breath, I was silent.
“You don't have to be sad, I can't follow you back to Seoul, it's a big problem, a big wall, one of us has to make a decision to continue this or not. That simple... If not, we can also move on as soon as possible. No need to give me empty hope.”
“I'm just trying to prepare myself Oppa, don't understand you. I'm just trying to get used to accepting the worst possible. I gave you time, after you got back from Seoul, to think about saying I'm your lover I can't, you said love to me just can't, do you really love me? Maybe you're just using me as your psychological stability foothold, especially now that you're moving citizens! What am I really for you?! Why are you making this difficult, can't you shorten it. Don't ask me to fight! How about I make it easy for you, we just break up now!”
“You are overusing emotions! You're talking too far now!” Now for the first time the tone goes up.
“I'm an emotion, but I don't blame you either, I blame myself! I thought love was enough to move everything, but it turns out that just admitting I'm your lover you don't want to, I've been with you for a year from the beginning. Then what's my hope?”
I was an emotion, I thought this talk would not cause a fight, I tried to give it time, take a step back, give it time to think, but he said I urged it so I was lured so far. We've been together for almost a year. Not enough? Or it can't...
“Already Oppa, I may be wrong, we just break up, I will make this easier for both of us. I don't have to hope for another month. I'll make it easy. Thank you for everything, if I seem to avoid you, that's how I adapt in the future, if you want to rebuke me there is a mistake in the work you can reprove me. In 2-3 months I will consider you a nobody. I can go home by myself.”.
“Yuna!” He grabbed my hand. “You're childish! What do you think, you think with one word you can just walk away?”
“You never admitted me either. Do you think who I am to you? Am I worth anything?” I defied his eyes for a moment and finally pulled my hand, grabbed my bag and walked out towards the door.
Sitting in my own car, I was unconscious. Why was the conversation so messed up. I really don't intend to start a fight... Why did tonight end so badly.