The Way of Love for the Doctor
SEASON 2'S. Part 32's. Banging Problem 1
If it doesn't work, consider it a life. Lately, my mother's words have been imagined by me. Our six-month relationship is fine. Oppa did not feel that it had been a year in Indonesia, time went so fast.
We have not formalized our relationship, in the sense that we still have not joined hands openly in front of the crowd. He acts as a close friend, a friendly friend, but still respects me, respects Mama's message. It's been half a year... Actually, until when he would wait just to announce our relationship.
“Oppa, why don't we blatantly, is there a problem.” In a late afternoon when we were at the beach enjoying a weekend afternoon I talked to him.
“Friendly friends already know, like Mr. Vincent, Doctor Andreas. Just I'm still keeping the work atmosphere, it's okay not.”Okay, maybe that means good. But I've never met his family.
“Oppa, when do I know your family.”
“My family in Seoul, how did you go to meet them?”
“How about we take advantage of six days off next month to Seoul.” He's silent now looking at me.
“Yuna, maybe later..”.
“Why?” I protested, realizing that he refused.
“It's too fast.” I failed to digest his words. Too soon. Is he still waiting, he's 40, does he not want to have any more family. Or I'm the only one who dreams too high.
“You are 40, I am 26, which part is too fast?” I looked at him fixedly and asked for an explanation of his sentence.
I suddenly realized all this time I had never been acquainted with his inner environment. And more importantly, we have never talked about the future. Hasn't she had faith in me all this time. Can't he imagine we have a future? Or because he might not be able to move to Jakarta forever.
“Be honest with me, are you unlikely to move to Jakarta forever.” It may be true that Mama said all this is too difficult, that this relationship is only one more chapter in my life.
“It's not like that, even if I decide to move, I have to talk to Mom and Dad first. Can't I decide directly.” My eyes are heating up, so here's the truth. Maybe after the contract expired he'd prefer to come back, maybe his parents wouldn't allow their son to have a relationship with me? While I also can't possibly leave Mama alone here.
I'm silent. Nor can I wait another four years to accept his decision.
“Tell me Oppa, do we really have a future I looked into his eyes that afternoon, I had no idea what he was in. “Honestly, all this time I realize we have never talked about the future.”
“Yuna, please, I really haven't been able to decide anything without meeting Mom and Dad.Yes I'm going back to Seoul. But maybe I haven't been able to take you, it would be better if I spoke to myself.” I was silent, a cold knife hit me. He did not say anything about fighting for me, can be understood his attitude that does not even want to announce our closeness in the office.
I sobbed, somehow I realized that Mama was right, she could see things more clearly than I was being drunk in love. It's hard, really hard. I think love will overcome everything, but it's not that easy. Moreover, forcing someone to leave his identity and move to a new country forever.