Tiba Khitbah
Lost Direction

Yes, every payday or receive a bonus from work, Zahra always spends his money for shopping and traveling, buying clothes, pants, skirts, shoes, bags, to stack the clothes in the closet, so that he can buy clothes, there were even some clothes that he had never worn at all because his clothing stock was still plentiful. Zahra also almost every day hanging out with her friends, tasting roadside food or just sitting in a cafe, enjoying food and culinary tours to satisfy herself. Yes, for Zahra, all the money he got wanted him to enjoy because he was just looking for himself.

Actually Zahra knew that his extravagant nature was not good, he also knew that everything said by Alex was true, but all this time Zahra was lonely, he only makes himself happy and entertains himself by fulfilling all his wishes and laughing out loud with his friends, even though in reality the happiness is only temporary, after arriving home, he said, Zahra again locked herself in her room, crying and lamenting her own fate.

27 Years old, is a very mature age for a woman, even so mature, Zahra no longer have friends or friends the same age who are single around the complex where she lives. In fact, Zahra avoids meeting with her neighbors and school friends just to keep her heart and feelings from hearing anything that makes her ears burn.

Zahra knows very well, every human being has a different test of life that he lived, some are late to marry even though they are heads of three, some are quickly married but have no children, some have no children, some are married and have children but one of them is cheated, there is also a family that looks happy but there is a KDRT in it, there is also a financial shortage. Yes, God gives tests and trials according to the limits and abilities of His servant, according to the portion and ability of each, and all that to increase the degree of man before his creator.

Indeed, now that Zahra is tired and tired, it feels like she wants to give up because she is no longer able to live a hard life for him, so she begins to wonder to God, 'Oh Allah, God, have you not heard my prayer?' inner Zahra.

If every human being was created in pairs, then where is the Zahra pair now? Where's Zahra's soul mate and where's that rib?

Zahra believed God would not break His promise, but as much as Zahra prayed, as Zahra tried to find a soulmate, still until now the beautiful girl had not met her future husband.

'Actually, what's wrong with me? Is it inappropriate for a woman like me to marry and live in a household?'

Yes, almost every time Zahra's heart was turbulent, his head felt very sick like he wanted to break, wanted to run away and leave the old man's house but only had potluck money, he said, but if Zahra does not go then she must accept this arranged and forced marriage.

Crings ..., crings ..., crings ....

Zahra's phone rang and she quickly picked it up, as she believed Alex had contacted her. Zahra believes that Alex must have apologized for leaving her and that she would have encouraged Zahra by calling.

[Hello, Mas, where are you?] the spoiled greeting that Zahra always threw to Alex when the man called.

[Ara, are you sick?]

Zahra heard the voice of someone she did not know but sounded familiar to her ears.

Zahra then looks at the phone screen and finds an unknown number calling her. Yes, the girl could immediately guess that this call was a call from ustadz Fahri, a fiance whom she did not acknowledge.

Really, Zahra did not want to keep the man's mobile number and really he did not want to communicate with the man. Let alone to meet or chat on the phone, just reply to a short message Zahra felt reluctant and unwilling.

[Zahra, you're okay, right?] fahri said once again with a voice that sounded full of great concern to Zahra.

'Basically a man, you are very attentive!' zahra said in her heart while turning off her phone call.

Zahra's face flushed red, not because of kasmaran or falling in love but because of anger. Zahra became increasingly fed up and annoyed at the man who was none other than her fiance. Ustadz Fahri's caring and considerate attitude made Zahra want to tear the man's mouth apart.

Crings ..., crings ..., crings ....

[Don't call me if you don't want to upset me!]

Zahra finally sent a short message to the man, then he immediately turned off his phone screen, because he did not want the man to disturb him while he was dizzy and bore a lot of mind burden. If the man kept contacting him, perhaps Zahra would let out some words of pearl that might just hurt the man.

Huf ...

Zahra took a deep breath, placed her hands on her chest while closing her eyes to devise the best strategy.

"Where am I going now? Did I just run out of town?"

Zahra's brain thinks of many things one of which is a plan to escape the city with the money left.

"Alex can help me."

Zahra immediately grabbed her phone and she called Alex several times but the man still did not pick her up.

Zahra's little heart began to think, maybe Alex had indeed deliberately left him because he did not want to meet his parents.

"Oh, maybe Alex is busy."

Zahra immediately slammed her phone into the bed and fell right on her leg with a very high anger.

Zahra then laid her body on the bed, covered her beautiful face with a blanket, hoping she could fall asleep and her heart hoped that when she woke up all this was just a dream.

"Brains, bored!"

Zahra shouted while ruffling her hair to the point of falling apart.

For a moment Zahra stopped and fell silent, looking at the cupboard in front of her, where there was a pair of scissors.

With heavy footsteps, Zahra walked with the rest of her strength to pick up the scissors.

One weak and trembling right hand held the scissors, and another left hand held her long, messy hair.

Slowly, Zahra cut her own hair with the reach she could, even Zahra until she was unconscious if she no longer cut the ends of her hair but almost all of it to the base. Yes, deep stress makes Zahra not aware that Zahra's hair is cut short and there are some parts that are almost bald.