Tiba Khitbah
Heavy Stress

I don't know what grudges Fatimah saved for Alex, but he always associated all the things that happened to the princess with the man named Alex, his daughter's friend.

For ummi Fatimah ustadz Fahri like a good angel who is clean without stains, while Alex is a despicable man who never had the slightest good in his eyes.

"Ummi, why yell, let's get out!"

Abi Abdullah asked Fatimah ummi to come out of the princess's room so that there would be no third world war between the princess and her wife, with reason that their favorite daughter-in-law is currently waiting for a long time in the living room.

"Bi, your son has really changed drastically," said Ummi Fatimah who made tears again and again fell down Zahra's cheeks.

Zahra's heart continues to feel that ummi does not love him, even the assumption that he is not a biological child ummi further strengthens his belief.

"Mi, let's get out!" abi Abdullah said while holding the hands of Ummi Fatimah to get out of the princess's room.

Truly, it felt like Zahra had run away and left the house, rather than every day I constantly bear the feeling that made the girl have to hate her own mother.

Zahra is very know and very understand that in Islam fighting against parents is a big sin because the blessing of God is on the blessing of both parents and the wrath of God is on the wrath of parents.

"Father, let Ummi go, get sick!" the mother shouted trying to release herself from the hand of the husband who was holding his hand.

Zahra actually also felt very afraid if the mistakes and life he lived without the blessing of parents made life was not blessed, peaceful and peaceful, he said, but that does not mean that both parents must impose a will that makes him have no rights over himself, because after all he has the right to choose and live everything based on the wishes of his heart

Yes, however, Zahra has to move fast now, she must not be careless because this concerns her future.

Zahra wiped away the tears that ran down her cheeks, she rose from her bed, and despite the weight of her legs she still tried to step into the mirror that was located near the window of her room.

Zahra opened the window while looking at the blue sky decorated with white clouds. The sun shone very brightly and exuded its charm, reminding Zahra of Alex, the sun that illuminated his days for several years.

Huf ...

Zahra took a deep breath several times, then she sat down at her dressing table while looking at her pale face in the mirror. Slowly Zahra opened the shovel hijab she was wearing to see the results of her previous experiments.

Zahra's chubby cheeks now look sunken, her eyes wide with a dull face that looks pale. The hair he cut carelessly looks disheveled making Zahra look like a crazy woman.

Zahra is a woman who is very concerned about appearance, always keep her face and body to look beautiful and attractive because for Zahra appearance is the number one and most important thing for a woman. However, now Zahra's face and body is far from attractive, even he looks very messy and ugly. Yes, if it is like this, it is certain that no man wants to be Zahra's life companion.

"Zahra, you should know that Mas cares a lot about you, so whatever happens even if Mas is not next to you anymore then you should still be excited to continue your life," said Alex who always ringing in the mind of the beautiful girl who is now lost that direction.

"What should I do now?" zahra said weakly as she looked at her disheveled face in the mirror.

Zahra wanted to encourage herself, she also wanted to get up and not constantly feel down and down, but as hard as she thought now, still he did not have the best solution to solve the problem of his match with ustadz Fahri.

Crings ..., crings ..., crings ....

Zahra's phone suddenly rang a few times, but the hand wanted to be too reluctant to lift it because he was very sure that the office person or the ustadz Fahri who contacted him. But Zahra's phone kept ringing to make her feel so upset.

"Who is disturbing?" said Zahra nagging with mounting anger.

Zahra ruffled her hair until it looked more messy, but the phone just kept ringing to make her want to slam it.

Bruk ...!

The phone that had been the only friend when the girl was lonely or when she did not have a friend finally he slammed into the wall until the flat object became broken fragments scattered in the flooring.

Zahra sickened! he hated himself and everything.

"Lord, why are you torturing me like this?" zahra said with a loud shout while looking up at the sky.

Zahra's heart was completely angry and disappointed with everything that happened to her, including the fate of life that she could no longer accept.

Zahra began to hate and be angry at the destiny that God gave her, she even prayed fervently and optimally, she also did all good things, she said, trying to keep His commandments and stay away from all His prohibitions, but Zahra's life is suffering more and more now.

"Lord .., why don't you just take my life?"

After more than a quarter of a century of life, this was the first time Zahra had felt disappointed and angry with God. Zahra was disappointed in the destiny and the way of life that God gave her, she felt that she was not strong and could no longer live this life. If indeed God would not give trials beyond the limits of His servant's ability, why was Zahra given trials that were so severe that he could no longer bear them.

Zahra also knew and understood very well that he had committed mistakes and sins in the past, even those sins as much as the foam in the ocean, he said, but Zahra has repented and turned into a better man now, but why when he has changed for the better, God even more tormented him. Zahra felt like she was squeezed by a heavy burden until this body seemed to be crushed down as well.

It feels like life is really very heavy so Zahra feels unable to live it anymore.

"Ih ..., sick ...!"