Tiba Khitbah
Heart Dilemma

Nor could God have ordained anything if it were not best for His servant, because Zahra believed that God's plan was the best plan and God's scenario was the most beautiful scenario given to His servant.

'Well what should I do now?' zahra said in his heart.

"Zahra, get in the car, son!"

Abi Abdullah awakened Zahra from her daydream until she opened her eyes again.

The sisters who had been following them, now helped Zahra to get into the car where the mother had been sitting in front without flinching.

"Abi, does that kid want to go home too?" the mother's insinuation that makes Zahra's heart feel more hurt and sliced. However, in front of the father, Zahra was calm, he did not want to fight and quarrel with his mother because it would hurt the heart and feelings of the father, he said, because he will feel wrong in educating his children and his wife.

'Alex, did I ask Alex to come and take me home?' zahra said in his heart, because until now what is in Zahra's brain is branching out including thinking about Alex.

Whatever anger Zahra had towards Alex, disappointed and painful whatever sense Alex had etched into her heart, still Alex is the first foreigner Zahra remembers when he had nowhere else to depend.

Yes, all Zahra has in mind right now is to contact Alex, but she doesn't know where her phone is.

Zahra knew and was very confident that ummi Fatimah was holding her phone, but this heart was reluctant to ask the mother because of Zahra's emotions and also ummi was unstable at this time. Zahra did not want to have more fights and fights than before with her mother.

"Are you looking for a cell phone?" said ummi Fatimah who seemed to understand and understand the movements of her daughter. However, Zahra chose not to answer because ummi's voice sounded still harboring anger and resentment towards him.

"This is the phone, son!" abi Abdullah said with a sweet smile that looked very sincere. Yes, abi took the phone located in the open ummi bag, then reached out the phone to the princess.

Although for a moment Zahra hesitated to receive the phone, but Abi's smile reassured Zahra as if she said that everything would be fine.

Umm Fatimah was very obedient and obeyed to abi Abdullah. Whatever abi says and whatever decision abi takes will be accepted by ummi with a spacious heart, because ummi always says that the paradise of a woman after marriage is her husband, her husband, a good husband knows what is best for his family.

"Thank you, Abi," Zahra said as she picked up the phone before the Ummi changed her mind.

For a moment Zahra's heart was greatly relieved that she was finally able to contact Alex, at least to inquire about her whereabouts.

[Mas, where are you?]

[Why go without saying goodbye?]

[Why did you leave me?]

[What's my fault with you?]

[Why didn't you keep your promise to me?]

[Alex ..!]

[Jelg ...!]

[Jawab dong, don't just read it!]

Many times Zahra sent back messages to the man, but Alex just read it without responding to anything, until the photo of his profile was no longer able to see Zahra. Yes, the man blocked Zahra's number so that the girl could no longer contact him.

Like a child, Alex always disappears and escapes long debates between them by blocking Zahra's number, such as running away from problems and not wanting to solve problems in adulthood.

'Zahra, is this the kind of man you think is good?'

The whisper of a heart makes Zahra doubt, until an assumption arises that Alex is a man who is not good as ummi said. However, some of Zahra's little heart still defends Alex, if the man just doesn't want to get angry and make him disappointed if they both fight big.

Zahra's feeling was completely unsettled now, thinking about Alex making her head mumble like it wanted to break. It felt like Zahra was coming home so she could rush to contact Alex on a phone call, but the distance from the hospital to Zahra's house felt very far away.

"Ara, do you want anything, son?" abi asked which made Zahra shocked and surprised.

The phone in his hand fell to the floor of the car. Zahra's attitude is like a thief caught when reprimanded so fear and surprise reflex makes his phone fall.

"Honey, what's wrong with you, son?"

The heart and feelings of a father are very sensitive to his daughter, he will also feel the turmoil and discomfort that his daughter feels.

"Suster, please get Zahra's phone, Sus!" pinta the father to the sister sitting next to her beloved daughter.

"Here, Miss."

The sister gave Zahra the cell phone she had taken from the floor of the car, while Zahra kept quiet and did not answer any questions from Abi or the nun, even Zahra's thanks were sent to Abi to say to the nun.

"Zahra, do you have a mouth? Why was she just quiet and dumb?" ummi Fatimah.

As patient and as strong as any ummi Fatimah held back her emotions and anger, still she did not accept if Zahra was silent a thousand languages to her father.

Yes, although sometimes Zahra felt that ummi Fatimah acted like a stepmother to him, so he was so willing to yell and force his will to Zahra, but still Zahra had rights over herself.

"Abi, we just go home, Ummi tired, anyways if we need anything we can ask Bibi to find him out," said Ummi Fatimah who of course approved by abi Abdullah.

Huf ...

Zahra took a deep breath and she closed her eyes again, hoping she would fall asleep and wake up when she got home, because he no longer wants to hear the babbling and nagging ummi that makes his head more sick. However, instead of falling asleep, but the memories of Alex are clearly reflected in the girl's mind. Zahra remembers the first time the man was present in her life, Alex came as a good angel who gave her reassuring promises. "Zahra, fear not, I am by your side, no matter what happens I will always be in my life in all your joys and sorrows. I will hold your hand tightly and will never let go of it for a moment unless you yourself want to take that bond away from me" Alex said with a face that looked very serious to Zahra. The words that he held tight to this day, the words that made him instill in my heart and mind that Alex was the kindest and most appropriate man for him.