Tiba Khitbah
Inner Refuse

The dilemma of the heart renders Zahra incapable of doing anything but surrender by His decree, because everything that happens in human life is governed by God in the far reaches of Mahfudz hundreds of years before man is born into the world.

Huf ...

Zahra took a deep breath, with the remnants of the energy she had she rose from her bed. Zahra wiped away the tears that fell down her cheeks. Zahra still has time and opportunity to change her destiny and one of the best ways she can do is to seduce God through the path of the sky. Yes, if man is no longer able to do something, then just go and submit it to the creator, because if indeed what happens in his life now is the best destiny for him, for him, then this heart will be spacious and sincere to receive it, but if what is happening now is only a test to raise the level of faith before God Almighty Creator. Yes, then God will give a surprise that he did not expect later.

"What should I do now, Lord?"

Fortunately Zahra, because this meeting was held customarily, so only the families of both parties came to exchange rings, until this became an opportunity for him to complain to his Lord, at least the path of the sky is one of the best ways he can try to change his life destiny by seducing God in prayer and tears.

Zarha now held his alphabet, carrying all the burdens and problems he endured in his prostration, complaining and pleading with the creator that God would help him with hope.

Samar is heard both sides of the family are determining the date for both Zahra and Ustadz Fahri's marriage. Even both sides seem to be in a hurry and do not want to wait too long, as if there is no more time for marriage.

'Another month? That fast?' zahra's mind was getting sliced and felt very sick.

Zahra could not imagine marrying another month with a man she did not know, until tears kept pouring down her round cheeks, these tears fell with the rain that flushed the earth, it was as if the sky was crying with him. Zahra felt weak and helpless. However, he believed God heard his prayer until finally the marriage was finally agreed and planned to occur six months later, precisely after Eid al-Adha.

'Alhamdulillah, ' Inner Zahra.

The lewdness of the heart made Zahra not stop giving thanks, at least he still had a chance for another hundred and eighty days to clear his mind, either to cancel or to continue something that had been planned.

Cring ..., Cring ..., Cring ....

The sound of Zahra's phone rang and in a hurry he immediately took the phone.

[Assalamualaikum, Zahra]

A soft and smooth greeting sent by ustadz Fahri via a short message read in the Zahra mobile phone notification. A message from someone he doesn't want, a message that makes Zahra's whole body feel weak and uninspired.

Zahra did not want to read the message and she just wanted to ignore it, because talking to the man made her sick to the point that her emotions increased, he even wanted to throw his phone against the wall and replace it with a new number so that he would not communicate with the man anymore.

Cring ..., Cring ..., Cring ....

Again and again Zahra's phone rang and this time he was very lazy to see it. But the phone kept ringing a few times to make Zahra sick.

"What the hell do you want, why bother!" said Zahra upset.

Zahra thought it was ustadz Fahri who contacted her, but after seeing the phone screen, Zahra immediately rushed to pick her up, her good angel came when she needed it.

[Assalamualaikum, Alex]

Sapa Zahra with a raucous tone of voice.

[Ara, are you crying?]

The tears that he had just weathered finally returned to pour out with the heavy rain. Somehow, Alex's voice even makes Zahra more want to cry as it happens. Zahra wanted to complain and pour out all the burdens she was carrying on the man. He wants to lean on Alex's shoulder and he wants Alex to help him out of his life's problems. However, Alex is just a friend, friend and angel who is watching over him, he is not Zahra's lover, so Zahra should not involve Alex in the problems she is facing.

There was a sense of worry, an attitude Alex always showed when Zahra cried. Yes, behind Zahra's toughness and strength in front of others, behind a sweet smile that looks always cheerful, Zahra even always cries in front of Alex. Really, the girl looked so weak in front of Alex.

[Am I going to your house now?]

Alex was a man who could not bear to hear the sobs of the beautiful girl. It was a man who would not be able to see a single drop of tears fall down Zahra's cheeks. His soul would not calm down before listening to what made him cry.

[Ara, please answer me!]

Yes, after several questions, Alex did not get an answer from Zahra, the man immediately made a video call to him, he said, but this time Zahra could not lift it because he did not want to look embarrassing in front of Alex.

[Alex, I'm engaged and I'm getting married to that man]

Those are the only words that Zahra can say to Alex at this time through a short message, because he has not been able to talk directly or face to face with a handsome man who is none other than his best friend.

[Infranchised? With that Ustadz?]

[Hmmm]

[Congratulations Zahra, you will finally be the wife of a man, the wife of a man of good religious knowledge, as you have always wanted]

[Thank you, Alex]

[So when are you getting married?]

[Six months left]

[Six months left? So what are our plans for a vacation to Yogyakarta together? Failed it?]

[May I ask for your time one hundred and eighty days from now?]

Tok ..., Tok ..., Tok ...

"Ara, are you ready, son? Ummi and Abi want to see you before coming home" said Ummi Fatimah from behind Zahra's room.

Zahra throws her phone away before getting a response from Alex. Zahra pretended to close her eyes and did not hear the call from her parents.

'I'm sorry, Ara, Ummi.'

There was guilt in Zahra's heart, for she had refused to see her future father-in-law.

"I'm sorry, Abi, Ummi, it looks like Zahra is sleeping, maybe she's too tired from working all day." The words that came out from the words of the ummi Fatimah were faintly heard in Zahra's ears.

"Well, then we go home first, Umm Fatimah, Abi Abdullah. But please give this ring and put this ring on Zahra's ring finger as a sign that he is engaged and tied to Fahri," said Ummi Salamah.