When the Heart Speaks
chapter 33 Goodbye love

Months passed without feeling almost a year I left my hometown, away from my parents taught me many things, especially about independence.

Away from home taught me about the meaning of longing, made me understand how to value time, financial processing, and more appreciate the value of being with family.

Little by little I got used to this city, the city that is famous for never sleeping, the city that is famous for the industrial world, the city that is crowded to achieve success.

One time I missed Lebaran not with my parents, left 1 more time, after that I will go home it's my promise, only 2 years, not more.

Tonight, I lay down faster, not from drowsiness, but just wanted to remember my loved ones to be more comfortable.

My eyes stared at the sky, imagining one by one the faces I longed for.

Mamma..Papa.my cousin Fitria..

"Emmm...Fitri, how's it going. One more year never met,,"

My inner.

I grabbed my phone, which I just bought this week, so there just so happened to be a windfall from overtime, that I was able to replace my old-fashioned phone with a newer, more current phone,at least my new phone is equipped with a camera feature, which I can use to capture all the memories in this city, as a release miss if I return to my hometown later, in addition to the camera, as well as the,,I can listen to music on my personal phone, and I can say it's the most expensive phone I've ever had, and I buy it in my sweat.

I started sending messages.

"Hai jeng..how are you?busy??"

After a few seconds, my phone rang, Fitri called..

I'll pick up soon, please,

Hello my dear.....

said fitri while laughing across there..

Um...miss her...

next year I go home, you go home too, right?

Answer me.

Well...well...very good even.hhhha..

I can't promise.Hopefully the time is right, we can meet.

sure, I miss you too.hahhha.

how's Dion doing??

The deg!!..

My heart suddenly stopped beating when I heard the name called, even a year ago I never remembered it at all..and now my head seems to be filled with a shadow about someone whose name just echoed in my ear.

Hello....hello...heiii.... Still there right???halooooo, blacked out jeng??

Shouted Fitri.

Eh..iya.halooo, sorry, sorry, the signal is bad, I'm looking for a signal first yes.

Lying words.

Hello,.why was jeng??

I asked how is Dion??

Ummm...Dion huh??eh.ehmmm yes do not know.emang I his mother, some of you there-only nanyain Dion,,

hahahah.ya.kali aja, you have been made.

hhaa.sorry.sorry.kidding doank.

Hehehhe,, uhmm.last met him a year ago, when I was working in the sunday mall, but don't greet each other, just look at each other.

Ciee..impressed nich the story...kangen huh??

Fitri teased me again.

Iiichh.what sich, start dehhh...

Hahhaha..ya already, how about Ari??

Well, rarely communication now, at least once a week, that's fighting,,, that's,,

Lah.kok can, rarely even use a fight event..

Yes Fit, I don't know, maybe because it's far away.but I believe ..we are equally careful of each other..

Okay believe me..sama you guys.true love kan.hehheh.

yes already yes.tomorrow-we call again tomorrow.I want to do the job, ntar to the mallem.

okay jeng.bye.

I turned off my phone, and now daydreams brought me to remember Dion.

"How are you doing, Mr. Jacket??"

lirih.

My daydream stopped when I received 1 message from someone I missed.

with a bright smile, I typed in a quick reply message.

💌**I'm thinking about you again.I miss.I called you...

💌I also miss you very much, later yes.half an hour I call you.There is something I want to talk about.

💌oke..what,, dech***..

Ari didn't return my message again,,

I was just thinking positively, maybe He's on the way home, considering this is the hour he's closing.

I endlessly looked at the clockwise seconds that I felt were slower than usual.

My hand kept turning the phone between my fingers, the number of times I changed position, until at the end I decided to wait for Ari's phone on the balcony of the dorm.

Suddenly 1 incoming message from a new number.

💌I beg you, do not contact Ari again.don't damage our relationship for the second time.

Reading the contents of the message made my throat feel choked,

I really want to reply, but I undo my intentions when at the same moment Ari called me.

I took a deep breath, trying as if nothing had happened.

🧑Halo Din, yes,,

👩Ya hello..you just got home??

🧑Iya.kok know?hehe..

👩Then what to say?

🧑Ehm...ntarlah..kok rush...you how healthy are you?

👩Healthy, what do you want to talk about?

🧑Ehm.gimana yes, exactly.I do not feel good to say it, but you promise.whatever it is.you never change yes.

👩Buruan!!!

🧑Din, honestly yes.I always say..I can not be far from you.I love you.and want to always be near you.honest..I can't be this far and it's long..Din's...

👩Ohhhhh...stopp!!,, enough, don't do it, I understand.I understand...you want us to make it easy?!

🧑Wait..wait a minute Din.I'm not finished yet, I beg you to listen to me first.

👩OK.please.

🧑I'm saturated..here alone, I need someone.I need a friend.

👩then??!!

🧑I hope you understand, I want us to break first..during break..we are free to loose ..and later when the time comes we meet, we can start again.maybe in a more serious direction.

👩You are honest.!!.you are in touch again with Hany right...

🧑.......

👩I've guessed it..you evil Ri...I did not expect, you have such a ridiculous idea.this is the heart of Ri..not kost an,,, this is,,who can be left for a while and then can come back at will.Sorry, I can't.

please continue your relationship, and we're done..

🧑Din..I love you, I still want to be with you, this is only temporary...

👩save your dear words please give your Hany that, as you know, the biggest mistake of my life is giving you a second chance at that time..

🧑D..

👩udah...already..I don't want to hear anything else.thank you for your game.thank you the pain you love to me for the 2nd time..

🧑Din.....

👩I beg you after this call I close, never offer any taste again.

thanks for everything, send my regards to Hany.Say to him.That He is great..!! very great!! because you managed to divert your heart not only once but 2 times.and another one...

I turn off the call, my chest is tight, my heart is broken. My esophagus hurts.2 times I was toyed with, 2 times I was betrayed..

Tonight, various scraping old wounds that have not dried.

My eyes were wet, my molars were trembling with anger, until I finally realized, there was no crying over what was supposed to go.not necessarily defending what should have been missed.

if his destiny is not to be possessed, anything in his hands will not be able to hold him free.

now, learn sincerely for something that may be inappropriate.

I wiped away the remaining tears, along with erased his old memories..

I was wasting my breath slowly as her wasted all feeling about her....

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