When the Heart Speaks
Chapter 40 Repeating the memories

It was past midnight, but the eyes still refused to be closed, shadowed 2 men as if deliberately teasing me.

Like 2 different sides, I am at a crossroads, between doubt and confusion unite to throw me into a sense that I do not understand.

Ari is the past, which is now again present offers a sense of answering longing that can make me dissolve in all the memories of the past.

While Dion, I felt that several encounters with him accidentally and unexpectedly were fate and not coincidental.

And now they're both shaking my heart and my mind.

Ari is sweet and full of warmth as inversely proportional to Dion Kaku, Cuek and cold.

"Do they really love me sincerely?"

I'm lirih.

I stared at the wall of my room, still on display a portrait of Ari who was smiling as if looking at me, I approached and grabbed her.

Kuraba frame that glass, that,

"Why do you have to be present again Ri, what is your purpose?is this your game again, but why can't my heart refuse your offer of taste?"

Talk to that dumb picture.

Instantly my tears dripped right down on the smiling picture.

As for Dion, why there is still considerable doubt in this heart, as if I were not yet sure that I could love him, even after meeting, why the heart felt more distant, tasteless as if.

Towards the early morning, I tried to close my eyes, so without me noticing how many minutes I was asleep.

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As a result of staying up almost overnight, the results are almost 10 am, I am still in bed, still lazy to move let alone to take a shower.

On my phone, I've had a lot of miscalls and messages, all miscalls from Dion, all of them,,

So did the message, all the messages from Dion containing words that I think are cliche, too often Dion sent me the same message, but eeeittt, wait.wait.

My eyes widened, my sleepiness suddenly disappeared.

"Darling.so I picked up, yes, I want to invite you to repeat the memories"

"Huh.....!!!!What the fuck is this, why is it getting gini"

I slammed my phone on the bed.

For a moment I thought, twisting my eyeballs, twitching my forehead, clenching my lips, trying to find the best solution.

A few minutes passed, the end of my smile grew,,,

"Repeating memories????why not???"

I called out to myself, then hugged my roll, and dropped my body back on the bed while closing my eyes and smiling.

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Not taking a shower all day, not making me leave the room all day except for lunch.

Glanced at the clock that was almost heading to number 3,

"Ehmmm."

I grabbed a towel hanging behind the door of the room, humming cheerfully I walked towards the bathroom.

"Loh...want to take a bath also finally Din??"

Ledek Mama who saw me holding a towel.

"Haha, Yes Ma..Dina's going out"

"Where?"

"You need to walk Ma hanging out"

"Same Dion??"

The deg!!

"Dion??"

As it flinched, I suddenly remembered Dion..

"Ehm.not Ma, same Ari"

I quickly accelerated my way into the bathroom, and immediately I lit the faucet to avoid more detailed interrogation from Mama, who seemed to be in Dion's camp.

After the bath, my guess is right I was so shocked when I went into the room, Mama has been waiting for me inside.

"Lohs...Ma, are we here??"

"Din, how exactly is your relationship with Dion??, I'm telling you again the same Ari, don't you say that your relationship has been over for a long time huh?"

"Ehm..Not knowing Ma, Dina is also confused.honestly Dina is not sure of the same heart Dina herself, the problem is now close to Ari, we are just a friend of Ma"

"Din, Mama is not prohibited you want to be close to who, management with whom, dating with whom, but.you also have to be able to keep the feelings of others yes son.."

I just smiled and nodded in response to the advice of Mama who then came out to leave me.

While playing a favorite band song, I prepared, once my lips also sing to follow the chant of the song I was listening to.

Half an hour, I walked out of my room wearing jeans, a light blue shirt, and a small bag that I sank on my shoulder, not forgetting the mainstay shoes.

Tinn..tinn...!

a horn I remember very much,

"That Ari has come, Dina says yes"

Mama took me out, man,

Arriving at the door, Ari immediately reached out her hand to Mama,

"Ma...Ari let Dina out.."

"But be careful Ri, don't be too late"

"Yes Ma..."

After bamitan motorbike we drove, throughout the trip, we chatted casually despite having to shout at each other, which interspersed with laughter, because several times I kebablasan mentoyor helmet that Ari wear because he did not hear my words.

It was like nothing had happened before, even I was like rediscovering my soul that had left.

Tanya Ari while marginalizing his motorbike to the edge of the road.

"Ehm...henak where is it??"

I asked back.

"Then.kalo afternoon gini usually kitaaaaa....."

Ari was silent for a moment,

"To the city park!!!"

Ari and I answered together and compactly, which made us look at each other and laugh.

"After that, we watch the motor racing.malem we eat dibakso solo flavor!!"

Again Ari and I spoke the same sentence,

"Hahaha his return muter-muter through the farthest road"

Ari continued his words.

"Well what try???"

Much

"Let's stay longer on the same bike as you.hehehe"

"Hemmmm...basics!!!"

"Okay..continue yes...lets goooooo!!!"

Ari turned the bike back on, and we headed for the city park.

Arriving there, we chose to sit on a park bench close to the fountain, the same place we often went to first.

"Darling..wait yes..."

Ari left me by running towards somewhere.

Ari returned with 2 stalks of sweet spicy grilled corn and 2 bottles of soda.

"Special I ordered for you"

I accepted her.

Casual stories just flowed by spending an afternoon that now changed twilight,,

"Emmm...Ari, I can have it...."

I opened a serious conversation with him.

"What, I'm afraid it's so tense?"

"Ehmm.about...."

"Eiettt..wait, wait, just a heavy-weight nanya yes..we enjoy this afternoon first"

Ari cut my talk before I could finish it.

"Hufft..."

I took a long, irritated breath.

"Eh.tuaknya racing has started.yuk"

Ari stood up and pulled my hand.

I was upset, just being able to follow her.

Until the race was over, and we moved out of the city park.

"Now.when we fill the hehehe gasoline"

Ari pulled my hand back, put a helmet on my head.

We're heading to the next place of memories.

Arriving at the meatball stall, the day has begun the night, while waiting for orders to come, I re-open a conversation with him.

"Ari..really...your relationship with Heni how?"

Ari who just wanted to sip a drink in front of her undoes her intentions.

"I.ehm..we"

Hearing his words just now, made me pull myself up to sit a little upright.

"Oh...then, right now.does Heni know?

I asked to try investigating.

Ari shook her head.

I took another deep breath.

"You can't be like this Ri, it's the same way you're playing him.it's the same way you're training to cheat!"

"Then...what's the difference with you??Does He now know that you're the same as me??"

I was speechless to get such an answer, I didn't expect Ari to turn that talk to me.

"Why Silence??Din, we do not need to lie to ourselves that we actually still miss each other, just that we are stuck in the wrong situation.they are present among our misses!!!, do you realize...that they're just an outlet of our wounded hearts, and that's not love.."

Ari grabbed my hand, grabbed it and rubbed it slowly.

"Din, give me some time to convince you that we're one"

I just kept quiet.

"God, don't spoil tonight with the thing that makes us noisier, eat yuk"

Ari offered us our order meatballs.

After finishing, we went home with each other silent, Ari riding the bike very slowly, as if he did not want time to pass quickly.

Likewise with Me, who actually still wants to be with him longer, enjoying memories for memories that have been engraved here.

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