When the Heart Speaks
chapter 6 last time in high school

"By jeng...."

that's how fitri greeting me from the past, maybe.it will be very much missed later when he is no longer with me.

"morning too,"

we embrace each other and enter the classroom.

In class still seems lonely, only a few who come, because yesterday just finished the final exam, he said,maybe today there will be many 3rd graders who do not go to school because they do not study anymore and are not absent anymore.

But, for me, a time like this is something that should not be passed right.Even maybe later a time like this will be greatly missed.

I've heard stories from people who have graduated from their school, that they miss school very much.

so do not waste the opportunity.as long as it can still come to school, why not..

just counting the days again will all end️

we both sat in chairs and then, Fitri took me out just to walk around the school..

"out yuk,,"

I move when my hands pull me..

after being satisfied around, we pulled over to the corner of the school.

a canteen, this place will also be very much missed.jajanannya.ibu guardsnya.

school is so quiet today..

there were only a few staff teachers, school guards, a cafeteria mother and a few 3rd graders.

students in 1st and 2nd grade are still on holiday.

we ordered boiled instant noodles to the canteen guard's mother, then I went to the refrigerator, took 2 bottles of tea and opened them.

I saw fitri was picking up the crackers hanging.while waiting for our order that was being cooked.

"Where do you plan to go?"

a fitri question started our conversation that morning in the cafeteria.

There was sadness hanging in my heart, hearing the question,

because I know, my parents did not have the cost to connect my education to a higher level.

In my heart.want to taste college, I am not a smart student.but I am not stupid, either,

for achievements, my subscription was in the top 3 rankings in my class.

"dinone...."

fitri shook my hand..

"dream yes"

spliced her...

"ehmm.I'm not getting fit.."

there were tears that stuck making my esophagus seem to narrow.🤧

"why din?, are you pinter.trus what are your goals??you don't want to be a teacher, do you?"he said he wanted to go into literature??"

"do not-don't you want to merid ya ari??!"

looks fitri sniffed at me.then put his index finger..

"huss.irrespective"

"no, my parents do not have money fit.I do not want to demand more against them.kasian."

fitri fell silent, then held my hand, strengthened right.

our order came, and then began to eat it. I had breakfast, but I wanted to eat in the cafeteria..

when we finished, we did not get out of our seats..

fitri is seen taking his tea bottle and sipping it until aground, his face reddened, it looks like he looks spiciness.

I watched her carefully every once in a while I laughed at her giggles.

" are you going to bandung fit??"

"so, I've been round about, the tenant of the lecture there.pengen ngerasain become a student of rautauan"

fitri is wearing his eyebrows while smiling knots.

"are you really good at cooking?"

my toying teases her.

"ahhh, that's how it is important there is money, everything can be arranged"

we laughed together too..

Fitri was lucky.his parents were people, his father was a big contractor who always won the tender..

you can make sure they are never short of money.

very different from my family, enough for my daily life and school fees alone are grateful.

"entrance to yuk class..."

ask fitri disperse my daydream..

we ran to the classroom.fitri asked me what I would miss so much from this school..

i'm speechless..

"woy.the situation is dumb"

I'm staring at her..

"i will miss my time with you very much.."

while poking his nose bangir.

fitri laughs...

"yes, I don't think we're that big.."

I want to graduate high school.

"oh yeah.how are you??"

where's he going??"

"he wants to open a business he said.not able to go to college anymore"

my explanation was in our laughter

"oh.yeah it's a donk if that's it.."

"what's the right fit??

"fitas if you guys merid.separinya already have income,,,"

"gilaaaa ihhh.unless..."

"www.ampuunn"

a fitri scream as a sweet pinch landed on his arm.

"fit, stay at my house tonight..."

I asked fitri.

"ehmm..why yaaa??"

fitri seemed to think.

"Oh, long time ago you didn't come to my house"

"okay I'll be at your house this afternoon".

fitri's answer, creating a very happy applause.

Today, we went home from school early.

when I got home, I looked for my mother.

looks like mom is choosing clothes that will be ironed,,

"ma.ma.today fitri nginap here, later in the afternoon he came"

"oh yeah, good thing, he hasn't played here in a long time"

my mom seemed enthusiastic to hear that her niece was coming to visit.

mama stopped her activities.then headed for the kitchen, opened the closet and was seen looking for something.

"mama looking for what??"

my many.

my mother looked at me and smiled..

" mama wants to make a snack for you guys,

cook no guests want to come we do not prepare anything"

I smiled and left my mom who was busy.

In the room, after changing into a uniform, I sat by the window..

the breeze caressed my face, my,

suddenly crossed my mind, if graduation is over.what will happen next.There are a thousand questions in my heart that I have not been able to find the answer.

"that's for sure, I have to find a job"

that's all I can say right now.

the rest is just fate that will determine.

"but.why would anyone accept a High School graduate like me, while more reliable undergraduate graduates are scattered in my city"

suddenly my mind returned..

I stood up.sighs.then slowly threw it away.

"however.papa have a lot of money.certainly I will not be this dizzy..."

um.hatiku back wish-if.

"who knows.later after work and have a lot of money.I can while in college.."

I try to encourage myself...

I remember what happened a few weeks ago when my mom and dad told me their thoughts..

**that afternoon when I was in the room, all of a sudden...

tok.tok.the door of my room was knocked, I immediately opened it.Nampak mama who was standing with a worried face.

"what's the matter ma..??"

ask me, please,

"din..papa and mama want to talk, can you come out for a minute?papa's waiting in front"

deg!!.My feeling immediately turned unpleasant.what will be said does not seem serious.

I nodded and walked slowly to the front seat.

It looks like Dad is sitting quietly there.

I sat in front of my dad, followed by my mom sitting next to me.

"let's see, son.your exam is soon.that's a sign you're about to graduate high school"

papa opened the conversation.

I just quietly listened to her, nodding my head once in a while.

"you must know.papa is just a laborer, does not have much salary or savings.our property is only this house and the motor butut papa it."

I still do not understand the purpose of papa's words.I choose silence not budging.

"papa hope you understand and understand, I mean papa.nak, son,

papa can only send you to this extent.."

I looked up at my head trying to look at my face, trying to find confidence in what he said just now.

as if he understood, Papa nodded his head..

like there's a wound in my heart...

pain that is not visible.My tongue is too tired to talk even if just agree.My eyes feel very hot.hold as hard as the power of the dam so as not to flow..

my breath feels choked.😢

My mother held my hand tightly.

Papa's speechless..

then.My tears spilled out, even though I tried to hold back..

instantly my dream was dashed..

I feel like my mind is over, though,,

seeing me cry.mama hugged me..

while papa.repeatedly said sorry.

seeing like that..

I feel guilty for my parents..

I let go of my mother's embrace, wiped my tears..

try to calm down, then say

"it's okay ma.pa, Dina understand.papa and mama don't be sad.dina cry because dina dina shocked.but now dina understand, no college is okay"

I said with still a sob.

mom hugged me again this time with tears.

at first glance, Papa took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes..**

I woke up from my daydreams when my mom knocked on my door, and,,

"din.fitri is here.."

"yes maaaa"

I hurried to open the door and ran forward.

I saw him sitting in front of the television with a big bag..

"move bukkkk"

godaku while packing the backpack in his embrace...

"yeah..."

fitri's answer invited laughter between us.

connect**