A Flower And A Sand
a choice

"tell me honestly "my word in my heart

"i'll go" he said and why it felt like losing something

"oh, I know that" I said

God why I lost the affection of my life empty without warmth

"yes" in short

"i wanted to say the last time you were cruel" I said

I went home and endured sadness not because she left but because she lied to me and hurt us even though I didn't love her so much

after a few days later

after his departure I slowly shut myself down and hated men so much

and live a new life well

without love and affection

kring kring.

I saw that someone called and when I raised my voice there was none

"hello who is this" I said

I closed the TLP and it went off

not in the lift keep ringing

because I'm upset I turned off TLP and there's nothing but curiosity

next day

there's a message on the phone screen that I see turns out who someone is and doesn't know

I started to find out the mastermind behind it

turns out she's Doni what she did

I felt annoyed and thought what he was thinking still dared to bother me

"i don't care but I want to know if it hurts you forget it and nothing will bother you" he said

I don't care and everything he says doesn't mean anything

2 Weeks later

I came to a place

who knows, there was a vacancy there and I ended up there

"mama is happy" said mama

of course have happy papa but I memorize his nature is often fickle

3 Months later I was working as an admin

other workers don't like me but I try to calm down

and every time I was nearby my heart beat fast who else if not brother Sanjaya he who taught and told me but the more here the more clearly visible his character

sis Sanjaya is indeed sweet and her college boyfriend who always comes and looks more friendly makes me feel envious

the residence of the house of Vita...

"hey you are j*bl*y anywhere" said papa

he was angry because he was a little late

"you know I'm tired of working all day and let me rest" I said

"less basics*j*r"papa pulled me

I cried in my room and came to hug me and scold papa

they quarrel

"hiks...why papa is cruel to me what is my fault when I try to be the best" I said.

following morning...

"mama papa I'm leaving"my pamit

and like his problems yesterday still in ungkit papa looks his car

as usual, my job made me fail to focus and not calm down

"you are what is right "sister Sanjaya scolded and this heart ached

after her...

I saw there was a papa waiting for me

sure enough he picked me up

"why papa gk believe"tanyaku

"liar Bangs*t like you can be trusted" said papa

when I got home, I was alone in my room and crying

"god why I am tormented like this

in the bridle and in the torment it was enough" I slowly looked for a way to end it all

the next day...

"yes that is" I said

"hey child less *j*r bi*d*p here" said papa

papa's angry that I bought clothes, didn't tell him first

"papa only clothes why should be this angry I'll work tired just fine"

answer me

I don't understand why just buying clothes should be allowed first

my clothes that are behind the times want to change according to the times but the rules of papa are so

"you can change clothes but there's still got you why buying it is also still good" said papa

I don't understand his way of thinking but papa is really out of date

next month...

the world felt narrow to me because it was empty and had no feelings of love and affection

I am Vita living the days hard and full of obstacles

5 Minutes ago

the phone rang and there was some unpleasant news

"what a sick grandpa "my word behind the phone

I was worried to hear the news and

the next day me and my papa mother went to see the state of the grandfather turned out his circumstances

it's already very deteriorating

I'm sad to see her

God, may you heal my grandfather

I said in my heart

it's true that grandfather lost aka senile and stroke I feel sad to see the situation

"Grandfather must be strong and healthy again I am sad" I said as I held grandfather's hand kissing his hand

a few hours later

grandpa died of grief

I can't believe it and I'm very sad

"grandfather why so soon I died will torment.."crying powerless.

I pray and hope for a miracle

my family and I watched my grandfather bathe and it felt so sad

I really wish Grandpa was calm there

grandpa died on a good day this is a good thing

my grandfather was a wise man, and firm in my opinion

and my dad was most afraid of her

if this is how I can't because grandfather died, you might be more courageous to act

they bathed my grandfather and I just fell silent can't do anything god may you take care of my grandfather Amin...

next morning

grandfather was immediately taken away to the tomb right after finishing prayers right

and praying ...

grandfather's face looks very smiling but I know the family is devastated to lose it

I'm a granddaughter who is so near the window that I'm struck by it, calm down for a moment and hope that grandfather will always be calm

tonight the family got together and discussed grandfather's last will

and talk about his legacy

there is still a grandmother so it will not be shared first

I'm just relaxed and don't understand that because things like this are still mourning

family talk about this

grandma cried all day and I hugged her to calm her feelings

"grandmother don't be sad gk grandpa will be happy if granny still have children and grandchildren will all be fine" I said

I kept calming her and hugging her

"o Allah help us to be given fortitude and grandmother especially amen "my words

next day

we are busy preparing for the

and I certainly helped my brother cook and other things

making cakes and other food

helping our neighbors is enough for us