A Flower And A Sand
constancy

what and how life can go well

sometimes we never know, but every life is like metamorphosis

and there's a phase of the process

all day I was tired from work and felt slammed

when I was at home ...

"Your vita wants to be what your future is it's not clear that I'm following all papa's words" said papa

what have I considered all this time until he accused me

"i've always tried to give my best to you and why it's never appreciated" I said

if there's anyone in my position, are you capable of doing it

since childhood I have suffered a lot

papa is always managing our lives

that time...

"father I'll be allowed to work the group later to come home a little late" I said

"hey what papa said gk allowed after school you go home not where"

papa

"what but I scolded this teacher for a reward assignment, how could I not come again every time there is a group assignment just for a while and at my friend's house" I said

"if papa says go home do not be reckless" said papa

and next...

until my friend got angry with me

"you have to fight once this is your papa's time duty" said my friend

I also when there are group assignments again I decided this time to follow them

I am happy because I can smile

all this time I've always been moody and locked up at home

after

"from where is insolent" said papa

"today I work with a group because I always have never been angry with the teacher" I said

"******* you dare to fight insolent"

papa

papa took the water and flushed it on my body

my whole uniform is wet

plus my book was torn

"that's papa Hua's book of duty..."

I was crying at that moment

even though I was Junior High still treated like a child

all my valuables are broken

and when I cried, my dad grabbed my ear

my ears are red in rubbing pain once it feels...

god wants to just die

and time passed...

at that time I was tormented

"father I borrow money first to a friend yes" I said

I left and a little while after

"hey brash, you're jabl*y yeah" said papa

I am tired of looking for money

papa gk know I've tried still wrong again in Torture

"o Allah protect me and why don't you take my life" I replied

I was home alone at the time when Dad went with the woman to deliver to the doctor

I hate to say that this woman was a stepmother who tortured me and even instigated papa to hate me even more

and now I'm babysitting her

"hey you never knew I was tormented less well whether I took care of you like my own sister" I stared at the boy

my life journey has never been lucky

always comes fighting and torture

"your son is taking it hard, has hitchhiked away from here" stepmother

though I take care of his son and in addition mama help give money for needs

my mother worked as a domestic assistant and did not live with us

why am I this fresh because I believe God has a wonderful plan for me

it's okay that only God knows

elapsed time...

until the woman left us with her child picked up by her family

he himself could not stand my father's attitude

especially me and my mom who survived

for years

and now I've been working so I can make my own money

but still can not be free to buy anything is still like before

God, why am I always so unlucky...

now I'm a little calm that one's gone so my burden is reduced

but there is one thing, Papa

he promised me that as long as I worked, I wouldn't manage my needs

it's not what he said

like a loud empty barrel...

talk is not like his actions

he was really fooling me

I seem to be very patient with him and the fact that he will never change in the least...

"my payday dad can buy a cell phone" I said

"yes, I can" said papa

I'm happy because all this time I never held hp

never hold it but papa's taking over

I also bought a regular Android phone

"here papa hold" said papa

yes, it is the same as a lie

buy hp but papa hold

I take it but gk can chat Tan gk can internetan is the fate of gini very

"papa why I can't chat Tan I have friends" I said

"dangerous if you want to chat let papa just chat" said papa

papa's bottom is getting more rested

"why the internet can also papa also internet Tan and even skip the pulse, quota"

answer me

"don't equate papa with you, you're not the time yet" he said

"i'm a big man, but time is still set" I said

"don't argue that I'm selling your phone again" replied papa

why am I always like this if God took my life

"why are all teenagers like that" I replied

"you if you want to work do not take care of hp or chat let alone the guy caught tar papa beat you as his guy" said papa

how I'm so tormented, God...

I see them the envy of parents who love their children even anything for the child unlike me who does not have love

I am naturally in need of special attention

if you are in this position how is it still strong or end

I'm Vita trying to find justice and not want to deal with things that hinder my future

love always comes at a time like this

although it has been many times to avoid love but still not able to dodge it

I've been working no problem if you make love as long as you remember the obligation to the parents

and now again find the stone man

ouch ...

but I'm still patient with the reality

You know why I'm getting so deeply in love with her

but the more we run the harder the obstacles

but I keep trying to keep up with his circumstances

and with laughter and jokes