A Flower And A Sand
there's no way

a life that is not colored will be lonely

adolescence is fun but sometimes difficult times arise

"revin you why the hell cuekin Mulu" I said

"gk am I just tired again" he replied

there are always many reasons and inconveniences I do not really like this situation

but his attitude makes me can not bear to see the state of his thought I think so

I just pray that he realizes the sincerity of my heart and corrects his mistake amen...

a bright morning...

"Vita to the mall yuk" said Rina

"gk can again boke plus papa gk will allow" I said

"uh loe mah how to grow"Rina

it is also true that I am an adult when there is no development at all

"then I will be a boke again" I said

"oh yeah, I did "Rina first

lonely and sad honestly I have no one let alone papa's increasingly selfish attitude

the older I get, the harder it is to reach my goals.

I and my family were in my cousin's house

"Vita don't get far from playing" he said

"iya mang" I said

he and I are cousins and we are certainly very close wherever I am with him he must be worried and follow me

even to call me

"there's a danger don't go into the woods" he said

big but not fat

and I like to tinker with the motor

his name is udin

I love him like my own brother

we laughed and joked together

but papa gk likes his fear he has a taste in me, what kind of thing are we cousins.

so papa told me to keep the distance away from him really makes me sad when I want to have a brother

"did you say keep your distance" said papa

"father he's my cousin don't be so weird about his thoughts" I said

I was always alone

"if papa says don't do it" said papa

"but his reward is good and I'm just a little brother"

why papa is always what I have to do...

elapsed time...

but I feel like he always cares about me no matter I'm far away he must be very worried about me

"i'm fine" I said behind the phone

I always called her Amang because I couldn't call my brother or brother back then I was still too embarrassed to call her

and time passed I didn't hear from him

"So she's like my sister" I said

I want to know what his news is like right now

and long time no hear of her no wedding invitation

unfortunately I can't attend but I hope Kaka is happy

after a few months of marriage Kaka I contacted him because it was lonely what else I was having problems with my lover

but Kaka is like a bitch to me

"it sucks why he doesn't care about me when I have important things but he's hard to call why the hell "I'm so grumpy

I slowly felt unfair in my life

my cousin was out of touch and even broke me down

while my lover needs a loan my own money does not exist

"god what should I do" looked up at the sky

I'm not working at Sanjaya's place now my job is even smaller his salary is sad...

"lucky darling" the voice on the side of the road

apparently, the lovers look happy

there's no way I'm like that

happy and perfect I always lack

that time...

my friend and I were chatting and we were laughing together

and I wish I could smile all this time

I Vita spent the days with sadness there was no peace or warmth there was only the noise of the parents and their complaints

a handsome man was watching me from afar

I didn't want to take him seriously but he looked like he was staring at me if I was wrong

after a few days...

someone told me someone liked me I was curious about his greetings

and it turns out he's the guy who looks at me and keeps on saying why it's awkward and hard to say, honestly he's handsome and has a nice body but...

impossible for me to get it

so handsome is he

the white skin

he and I were sitting next to each other and he was helping his uncle sell but I'm not sure he's somebody who doesn't have to be sure he's from a family to be in terms of his looks

I don't compare to what I expected sometimes never to be a real prince and a princess I've forgotten that wish now because that dream would never be possible...

once again his gaze felt strange and made me even more curious

yes Kaka Sanjaya alone can not melt on me let alone him who does not know me hehhehe..😁

"please don't leave me "a girl begging a man

"i can't keep this relationship"

tall man

they seem to love each other but cannot be together because of differences

"so sad about the Vita movie" said my friend Rina

"jeez, it's just a movie" I said

"indeed loe gk understand how the hell maintaining love is difficult" said Rina

"gw I want to talk about love that hurts"

my word

"gw sure you will feel the meaning of love and how comfortable it is" replied Rina

oh god I don't want to talk about this love is too sad because I'm still set papa anything else about the relationship of course this makes me unable to hold back and see a relationship of others

love is natural but it will not be possible for me to get when I need love

"Vita why do you I notice the end of this rich end of his rich people's many burdens"Rina

"maybe it's because I'm lonely" I said

"why do you try to find a mate in the application"rina

"what kind of thing is truly shameful" I said

"yes I'm looking for you" Rina

"gk I don't need to mending the business I set" I said

"gw know loe many burdens and great responsibilities, but loe gk can be alone not necessarily loe can complete all of them" said Rina

true said Rina I gw can keep all the problems themselves is too gk fair for me and just like I gw have anyone

having parents still they can not help it even more so

I actually want to end it immediately