Amanita phalloides
we used to be happy together

If indeed man is only judged by how many achievements he has managed to achieve. If indeed humans who are not able to occupy the position of number one, are judged as useless and cannot be proud. And what about fish? We can't force a fish to climb a tree, nor can we force a cat to swim. Just because he's incapable of doing anything doesn't mean he's stupid and useless. 

Every human being has their own advantages. Every man has his own candle to shine. Every human being has their own way of flying. And of course it doesn't have to be the same as everyone else, it doesn't have to have the same light that everyone else has. You don't have to have the same wings as someone else's. 

In the past, Freya was very unhappy when she saw Brother Darpa studying day and night. He really doesn't like to see Darpa's brother who keeps getting himself impaled. Even though we have to work hard, shouldn't we at least pay attention to ourselves in order not to get sick? Brother Darpa often forced himself, until he had to be adopted because of fatigue. That day was the day Freya got angry at Darpa's brother and expressed all her annoyance. Until Freya's nagging stopped, because her brother was holding both hands.

In the afternoon accompanied by orange light, the two sat on the hospital rooftop while watching the sun slowly leaving its existence.

"Sir, still want when the brother scolded the father and mother for running away from tutoring and coming home in the middle of the night?" Ask Darpa.

Freya's memories traveled back to every moment she had passed, of course she never forgot that day. The day when for the first time Brother Darpa rebelled, from the many rules set by the father and mother. Although Freya was in the room at the time of the incident, but she was able to hear every quarrel that occurred in the middle room. On the doorstep, Freya sees Darpa's brother being slapped by the father for the first time, only to refute his words. In fact, almost one week Darpa was punished and not allowed to go out of the house or room.

"It's surprising, right after that incident I always go into the room brother secretly" 

Darpa laughed happily at his sister's words, maybe if Freya never sneaked into his room with her laptop containing hundreds of her favorite films. Darpa must have been very stressed with his life at that time. He was still a teenager, so it was only natural that he would rebel against something he did not want to do. 

"Have you ever felt jealous of your sister?" Darpa asked after stopping his laughter.

"hey are. Who would not want to be a sister. Brother is really cool, maybe if there is a tool that allows us to have anyone's brain, I will definitely ask brother's brain. So I will never be punished or scolded by my father and mother" Freya replied with a big smile. Who wouldn't want a genius brain? Anyone would want it, and so would Freya.

"Sister wants to be you too. Can be free anywhere, want to play with friends live play, want to go for a walk. Want to skip school and skip school. If you can ask, I would love to be you deck, not papa deh, do not have a genius brain, can not papa can not boast father and mother. At least brother can live freely, in accordance with the wishes of his brother and does not make father or mother expect high to big brother"

Every human being must have their own shortcomings and advantages. Maybe it could be, you consider your life worthless just because of your shortcomings, just because you have not been able to find the advantages that you have. But we never know, do we? It could be our position and our current life, desired by others.

""This is what your mother taught you?! Not succeeding academically, now you don't even have manners! What can you be proud of? Nothing!!"

It hurts, it hurts so much when it is considered useless and cannot be proud of by someone we love so much. Freya looked at the wounded Adhikari.

"Yes yeah, nothing! Because whenever Aya tries. Wherever I fought. It'll never be worth anything in your eyes!!"

Freya always tries desperately to get what she wants. He obviously did not want to be a useless child, he also wanted to be proud of by his two parents, he also wanted to be considered useful. He's been trying, he's been working as hard as he can, but why hasn't anyone worked? 

Had he been able to write down his own fate scenario, he would have written it with great care. He will write it very well. Parents who never discriminate, brother Darpa who can rest and do something he wants, also a very harmonious family. Freya will write it all down. But he was just an ordinary human, obviously he did not have any ability to write such a thing.

"What yeah? Wanna slap? Here's a slap yeah, slap!! Father's slap will not be comparable, with every wound you've inflicted on my life!!" 

Adhikari was really unable to control his emotions, he who was basically temperament and patience that was only as thin as a tissue, finally slapped Freya quite hard.

**!!

The sound of his slap was capable of making anyone shudder in horror. The blood? Freya stared in surprise, blood clinging to her hands as she rubbed the corners of her lips.

"Have you satisfied now? Are you satisfied with being a demon? Slap Aya as much as you want, but never dream of owning this house!! Until whenever you and your lover will never have a place in this house!!" Freya held onto her left cheek which felt very numb. No papa, this doesn't hurt, really. This house is much more valuable and much more meaningful. 

If indeed he is unable to save the harmony of his family, at least Freya wants to save every beautiful memory in this house. Although it only contains fragments that will increasingly fuse together with time. But no papa, at least his family was once harmonious, yes first.

"Freya watch your mouth!!" Jerking Adhikari, he dislikes when Freya insults his wife.

"Silence you Adhikari!!" Revivya finally.

He was wrong, all this time he was waiting for the wrong person. He shouldn't have waited for such a jerk, he should have left Adhikari since he chose his affair, it should have been. Now, Dyvia realizes she's that naive.

"You want a divorce, don't you?" Divya asked while taking the document and immediately signed it "I signed it. Now we're not husband and wife anymore, but don't ever dream of owning this house!" Divya throws the document right on Adhikari's face.

"Now you're out!!!" Dismissed.

"Can't do it Vya"

"I said get out yah out!!!" Murka Divya while pushing Adhikari's body, towards the door and closed the door right in front of the man's face.

Freya looked at her bunda sadly, "apologizing bun" said Freya regretfully.

Maybe he should have been a little more patient, he knew what the position of the bunda was like. He was able to feel every pain that his mother had experienced, but why could he never understand and be a little patient?

Without answering Freya's words, Divya prefers to leave Freya and enter her room. Divya leaves Freya alone, accompanied by a deepening guilt, guilt that Freya is unable to fix. Everything was destroyed, his family was destroyed and only left the rubble alone. His harmonious family, now completely lost.