Amanita phalloides
help me to like you
It had been almost a week since the incident that night, for a week also Farrel never brought up the incident that night. Maybe because Farrel basically did not care about Freya, so he did not feel the slightest bit worried about Freya's condition. Due to the schedule of the final semester exam that is soon, many students and students who prefer to stay in the library to study. The school library is indeed the most appropriate choice if you want to study in free time, because in addition to the quiet atmosphere. The library at this school has a large collection of books that are very complete.
Freya chose a library for herself to study in the break. The words of his father at that time still imprint in Freya's mind, maybe what his father said is true. During this time Freya prefers to play or work rather than study, because she feels her brain needs refreshing.
Like anything, Freya's brain is very tired because it is forced to work so hard at school, so it doesn't matter if she takes a short break when she comes home? Freya is not an irresponsible person. After anything or as late as anything, Freya will certainly do her schoolwork very well. Although he does not have the same intelligence as brother Darpa, but Freya's diligent attitude should never be doubted.
"Lo studied here too?" Farrel asked, he decided to sit on the chair directly opposite Freya.
Freya shifted her attention and looked at the person who had just asked her "yes" Freya replied soberly.
Lying if Freya says that she is not angry with Farrel, she is very angry and disappointed with her boyfriend. How could the young man behave as if nothing had happened. Although Freya knows that Farrel will not care and certainly will not change, but the time must always be Freya who relented? However ordinary human Freya is, she can get tired and also tired.
"That's jutek, dong's smile"
Freya rolled her eyes irritated "people like you, do not need to smile" said Freya cynically.
Farrel laughed at Freya's behavior, he pinched Freya's left cheek angrily "my boyfriend is really funny"
If there is an award for men's plan, then Farrel must have won the first place. Farrel hobby is changing. Today he can be sweet, tomorrow he can turn into someone who is very annoying. Freya herself was confused by Farrel's true figure. Is he really a very kind, caring, sweet person or is he a temperamentous, rude, and evil person?
Freya was really upset with Farrel's behavior, rather than studying, the young man continued to interfere with Freya's concentration. Farrel who was originally sitting in front of him, has now moved to be next to him. She kept watching Freya and playing with her hair.
"Lo is really pretty if again the concentration of gini" Farrel monologue.
"Sorry, I know I was wrong that night for not picking you up. It should be as busy as anything, I'd have to prioritize your safety"
Although Freya's eyes and hands are still focused on doing the problem, Freya's ears and mind still listen to Farrel's explanation. The explanation that Freya had been waiting for since the past few days. To be honest, Freya was very curious about what Farrel and Zyva were doing that night, why they were still together when it was night.
"Zyva is sick, so I'm putting her in" Farrel replied.
Freya laughed blandly at Farrel's reply "Lo thinks I believe? If he really is sick, why is he still going to school tomorrow? Even he's still fresh. Even when you walk with me, you leave me just because I got a call from Zyva. The reason you're always the same, Zyva's sick. Though my malemnya ngeliat instastory he who again swim malem-malem, which sick people want to swim. What else I believe in you, while everything you say is very contrary to the facts I found"
Freya realized, he should not be childish like this, all this time he could survive with Farrel's attitude like that. But Freya's current state does not allow for positive thinking, other than due to the preparation of the exam she is carrying out. The separation of his parents really made Freya think half-dead. Freya was afraid, she was afraid that her struggle would end just like her mother's struggle. He was afraid that Farrel would be like his father who preferred another woman.
When looking at Farrel's proximity to Zyva, Freya felt little by little his position in Farrel's life had been shifted. Freya realizes that Farrel never said he loved Freya. Although sometimes the young man behaved as if he loved Freya, but the word love has never been spoken from his mouth.
"Gue can't tell Zyva what pain is, because it's not my realm for talking"
"Even with me? I'm Lo Rel's girlfriend, although you can't tell me exactly what Zyva is sick. But at least give me an explanation, so that I can trust you. So that I never doubt you!"
Luckily both are currently in the learning space provided in the library. Rarely people who choose to study in this room because the distance is quite far with bookshelves.
"Gue always believed in you. I have always believed that your relationship with Kafin is only a friend. Even when he bravely hugs you in front of me. Or the lo who swoops Kafin every time he is hugged. I always try not to get angry because I believe in your relationship with him. So I hope you believe me, I'm your boyfriend and I'm sure you know very well that I hate the name of infidelity"
Farrel's hand moved clasping Freya's palms tightly, his eyes staring with sincerity.
Freya bows her head in "gue emang lo boyfriend. But I know who you love, don't I? But Zyva" even though her heart really felt sliced, Freya was still able to smile broadly when saying so.
It would be foolish for Freya to be unaware of such a Fact. The smile Farrel gave Freya was very much different from the smile she gave Zyva. A smile full of sincerity is also affection. Even the look in his eyes when he looked at Zyva was full of love.
Freya's eyes were perfectly rounded when Farrel suddenly hugged her tightly "sorry I can't love you yet. But every time I'm on your side, I'm very, very comfortable. So please don't stay with me and help me to like you"