Amanita phalloides
death also loses

Chairs had been removed, relatives, neighbors and school friends began to arrive. Kafin thought he was just lost in a scary dream when he got a call from the ER asking him to come to the hospital immediately. But in reality, it was the dream that led him to be here. 

His gaze ran blankly on the bodies of his parents, who were stiff in the middle room. Lying down so quietly, like not hearing how many cries had decomposed due to the loss of both.

Relatives come together wrapped in stoic words, as well as condolence sentences. The Kafin's shoulder was rubbed repeatedly. Sentences to let go and mengikhlaskan come and go. As if, this sadness should indeed be stopped. As if, Kafin should not cry over the departure of his parents who left for good.

However, Kafin refused. He let himself wail so badly, when he realized that the departure of his parents was not a mere dream. Nothing is more painful than losing both parents at the same time for good. Though a few hours ago he still had parents, a few hours ago he still saw them smiling so widely. But now, forcibly he had to bear the title of an orphan, a title he never wanted to hold for the rest of his life.

No parting words, no more worthy farewell hug. Everything happens like the rain that falls on the earth. After a few minutes in his gloom, Kafin began to shed his tears again.

"Bun, Dad.." No matter how hard Kafin tried to prevent his tears from falling, the stronger the pain became.

"Fin, it's been a stoic one. Your parents are sad when you do this"

Kafin felt how his uncle's hand was clutching his shoulder tightly. But instead of staying strong, he just crumbled along with despair. "They have the same permission as Kafin to go to the condition om. But why go home like this?"

"This is the way, son. Ikhlaskan..."

"Kafin Ikhlas's. But it hurts"

The man was not even able to feel how swift, the tears that had flooded both his cheeks. There is only destruction. Really, nothing is much more painful than losing both parents.

Even still wet in the mind of Kafin, when his parents say goodbye to go to his friend's condolences, they say goodbye to courtesy, but why did they go to meet God instead? 

Until the uncle started to give up, he let Kafin dissolve in his grief.

"Fin?"

"They're just sleeping for a while, aren't they?"

Freya shed her tears, as Kafin rubbed Aunt Rose's hair. Then the man in the black shirt replied. "This is morning. It's not usually late to wake up like now"

Despite the tightness, Freya rubbed the face of Kafin who was already very wet. He hugged the man in a sob that was no longer described how sick it was. 

"We must immediately bury them Fin" said brother Darpa. Liang lahat has been prepared, true love is true, not only in the world they live side by side, in the grave they are side by side as well.

Freya thought Kafin would refuse, she thought he would be as hysterical as an oma. But apparently, with his stoic face Kafin moved from his seat while nodding his head. He took his parents, to his final resting place.

"No!!!! No!!! My son is not dead" Kafin's oma shouted hysterically. The sound of sobs was heard again filling the room. However, no matter how many tears fall, no matter how much denial is expressed, the two eyelids will no longer be wide open.

****

Kafin did not expect that, the land prepared by his mother to create a boutique, was now the place for his final rest. Now he, brother Darpa and uncle Raskal are in the hole. At first Kafin hesitated, fearing that he could not cope with the fact that his parents had gone home so quickly. But Darpa's words made Kafin realize, if not him, who else will take care of his parents. 

When he opened the Shroud, he found the calm face of his mother, his chest felt very tight. Especially when his ears hear oma screaming hysterically, asking his daughter to regain consciousness.

"It should be oma, it should be oma who died first. Why did you even go first. Wake Roses...wake up!!" 

Kafin felt that his entire defense would collapse right now. "Mother, if indeed going to be the choice you choose. If eternity is the place you're headed. Kafin just ask, occasionally come to Kafin's dream. The world is not that bad until you have to leave so soon. And wait for Kafin there, Kafin promises to come soon"

Along with the outstretched board, along with his hand that began to cover the burrow, along with that also sincerely became friends. The cry of oma can make Kafin's heart torn apart. The middle-aged woman, had now completely lost her entire world. The only princess, now completely gone, left her for good, without saying goodbye.

Kafin almost forgot, when was the last time he chatted with his parents to talk about many things, even he forgot the last time his parents scolded him because he was a hobby out at night. Now all that remains is emptiness, because both of his parents are gone forever.

The tombstone reads the full name of both parents, as well as when they inhaled the air for the first time and when they breathed their last. Making Kafin realize, that it turns out that they are in this world. 

That it turns out, the life benchmark of both parents is only that small. Allah SWT really loves them, all this time they have worked very hard for survival, all this time they even have little time to rest from their laborious work. Therefore, Allah SWT called them, Allah SWT wants them to rest in peace, in eternity.

If Kafin can ask, he also wants to go with the two. Now with whom he should lean, with whom he should complain, with whom he should go to bring a report to school. Though soon he will go to class, soon his mother will have to go to school. But now, who would accompany him and who would nag if Kafin dropped the rankings. Who's gonna scold him, 'cause he's always out at night.

Who will treat his injuries, if he is injured by a race or brawl. Who would nag him and ask him to be a good boy. Now that everything was gone, his entire world had been lost. For what he lives, for what he remains in the world, if his home has truly gone, his reason for going home is no longer there. Now, there will be no more mothers who welcome his return, there will be no more jokes father at the table to eat. Now he was alone, so they could leave Kafin in this world alone.