Because I'M Father
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This afternoon I took my three little monsters out for a walk in the afternoon, but this time I did not bring a baby carrier, because it was teaching them to be independent. Although it can be guessed later they will ask to be carried.
We walked in the park near the apartment. Actually I only accompanied the three monsters to play. Look now, I ran here and there, because Nio ran towards the ball that Zio threw, while Vio instead ran after the bike ontel, while Zio was cool to play puddles. Then who should I pursue first?
The answer is Vio, I'm after the little monster, whether it's a bike ride or something, he's after a bicycle ontel that a little boy drives.
"Vio! Stop that!" my shout made the person who was enjoying the sore notice me.
Oh my god, if only I could fly.
I caught the tiny body of Vio who had run away without looking.
"Hey why don't you stop when I say stop, huh?" tanyaku is still bored.
"I want to ride a bike!" he tried to escape from my embrace.
"We'll meet your sister first. Then we take the bike home," I said calmly.
"DO NOT WANT!" revolted.
Oh jesus.
I still forced him even though he rebelled, only this time Vio was so rebellious. "I want to ride a bike with my mom!"
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The mama? Why does my heart feel so sick? Indeed, the child was pushed by his mother, but why did Vio want it too, had not they been used to me all this time, did they not know that I was their mother too?
With mixed feelings, I approached Zio who was dirty with mud, and Nio who was out of nowhere. Although Vio looked pouting because I forcefully approached his brother.
Can't I just live quietly? I want to cry now.
"Vio ... Please, stay here with Brother Zio, um?" I said softly, though my heart felt tight because of his words earlier. Vio nodded resignedly, but immediately joined Zio who was still playing mud.
Why didn't I ban it? Because I'll ruin their good mood. I'm stepping my feet in search of Nio.
"Sister Nio where are you?" I shouted because the park was a little crowded, there was a possibility that the tiny Nio was lost.
"Nio my little monster!" yell again.
My feet stopped when I saw the tiny body in the shirt standing in front of the ice cream vendor. I saw Nio carrying his ball while staring at some children who were with their mother, I approached Nio with a crouch.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" I stroked the top of her hair.
"No Papa, I'm just looking at them" pointed Nio at the small family swinging around. It can be guessed, that Nio must be surprised, why he does not have a mother like them.
It feels like my heart just hurts more, do the twins need the figure of Mom? Hadn't they been ordinary all this time even if it was just me? Please, my journey has been very difficult, not only my body is broken, but my heart is broken when my wife dies, and seeing the fact I have to raise my three children alone. Even I was willing to not get the corporate inheritance for the sake of taking care of my three monsters, I was willing to not marry again for them, even I was just relying on my restaurant for living expenses.
"Come on Papa," asked Nio to hold my hand warmly, even though his tiny hand was drowning in the grasp of my big hand.
I smiled as he smiled lightly. Even though I know her smile makes me feel more guilty. If he's an adult, maybe he's covering up his grief.
Who taught Nio to act like that? Maybe me.
"I love you Papa" she said so sweetly.
"Emm, I love you, too" I replied, carrying her body, smiling and kissing my cheek at a glance.
"O MY GOD!" I shouted in surprise, I looked at Nio who was also looking at me confused.
"Who are they?" ask Nio plain.
"You don't know them both?" I asked Nio, and he was plain-looking.
I turned my gaze back to the two tuyul in front of me, it was appropriate that Nio did not recognize his two brothers, how their no-face could already be seen, similar to the tuyul of the tadpole got, it was appropriate that Nio did not recognize his two brothers, how not-your-face could already be seen, similar to the tuyul of the mash-up got, no more human faces-lowered Nio. I show my angry face so that they are afraid of me, and it is true that Zio and Vio are downcast in fear.
"We're home!" I said flat but sounding cold, the two mud-covered monsters nodded, then led each other along, while I guided the clean, still handsome Nio like me.
However, I could not bear to see those two mud monsters, let alone when recalling Nio and Vio's words today-made me have a brilliant plan for tonight.
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Now that I'm ready, I see my look again in the big glass in the room, I see everything is perfect, I just hope the three monsters that are playing in the living room will be happy.
I take a deep breath, it feels more stubborn than the interview session at the company, even though I have never felt it anyway.
"Alright Alden Alisano, this is for the sake of your three little monsters!"
"Hello all," I said so softly, mimicking a woman's voice.
They all immediately looked at me with a look of disbelief, even their mouths were wide open so surprised, but a few seconds later I saw their happy faces.
"Mama!" their screams came straight at me-hugging me exclaimed in joy. I was about to die seeing their strange faces, and my plan worked.
"Mama!" said Nio so happy, I could see how happy these three monsters were, they kept hugging me - making me touched, because they did miss the figure of Mother.
"You're our Mama?" ask plain vio.
"Yes, I'm your Mama" I said imitating a woman's voice, because I'm now a woman. Wearing a negligee under my knees, with fake hair and lipstick coloring my sexy lips, with a blouse on pink, plus earrings attached to my ears. I'm already very pretty now, no less beautiful and sexy than Selena Gomes.
"Why do we play now? But before, you guys have to have dinner."
"Yeey!" the three monsters exclaimed so cheerfully, usually when I told them to eat, it wouldn't be easy like this.
However, this time I did not need to expend much energy to persuade them to eat, but only needed to do this embarrassing thing. Had Mama and Shelin known, I might have been strangled by them.
"All right come Papa, emm I mean your bribe mama, emm," I said had a wrong talk, not unusual.
They immediately sat lined up on the sofa neatly, while I began to feed the rice on their small cave that was already wide open.
"The garbage carrier is coming soon! Open your goamu wide! Aaaa," I said, and they opened their mouths.
"YYYYYYYY!" I put a spoon in their mouths alternately.
It feels so good to see them happy, their laughter is my laughter, their cry is my cry, isn't my heart like a mother now? I'm even more sensitive than a mother.
"This is why I'm so happy, Papa invites us to play, and we are fed by Mama" said Vio with sparkling eyes.
"Me too! I want to belsama Mama telus," Zio said in response.
"I also want to fall asleep with Mama," said Nio interjected.
I just smiled, almost cried hearing the chatter of the three monsters in front of me, why am I so sensitive? Is it because of the lipstick, and the fake hair that makes me itch? It already started to itch, I wanted to scratch it but was afraid to miss, PLEASE get rid of the lice in this fake hair.
Aish was very disturbing the important moment.
"Our mama's not gonna be belsama, is she?" asked Vio the chatty one, making me who was scratching immediately nodded quickly.
"Yes, tonight we sleep together, are you guys happy?"
"Very happy! Yeee!" cheer them.
They don't know how tortured I am right now. I felt thousands of ticks playing in my head, not only that, the negligee I was wearing also made me a little cold.
"Are you going to sleep now? Let's go to sleep!" I immediately led the monster into the room.
"Well, I want to be next to Mama!" zio the biang kerok.
"Me too!" vio said getting excited.
"Me too!" nio did not want to lose.
Waitaminute! How am I going to deal with this, everyone wants to sleep next to me. Oh jesus.
"Well everyone will sleep with Mama, before in your pajamas!" I started taking off their clothes and replacing them with their warm toad clothes.
After I made sure all the monsters were wearing warm clothes, then I lay with Nio on the right side, Zio on the left, then Vio where?
"I'm smooth where? Here alone," he said directly against my body, it seemed like he was smarter than both of his brothers.
"Good sleep, yeah. Dream good," I said patting Vio's ass alternately by stroking Nio and Zio's back.
"Mama, let's tell a story, if with Papa he is not good at storytelling," said Zio.
Turns out that's what little monsters do when I'm not around, put me down.
Hey I'm your dad you know.
"Well, you know I love you so much, love you more than myself, you are my offspring and he is. He who leaves me alone, alone in solitude, alone, the loneliness that always makes me sick, the pain of longing, the longing that will never be healed, the longing that will only slice every heart, the heart that has been hurt, the wound of solitude, alone in wishful thinking, the wishful thinking that made me fall back, fell as deep as I could, until I found the laughter, the laughter created by the little angel, you guys..."
"...Although I often felt lonely, crying alone, crying because I missed him, feeling so miserable, but I still survived in this terrible state, wouldn't it be natural for me to be sad? Crying out? Because of the many wounds in my heart, if only you were teenagers, I would not be lonely, we went to the club together, drank together, even though I am your Papa, I am happy if I could be your best friend, unfortunately you are still very small to understand my feelings," I said with tears, unexpectedly I confided in the three monsters, even though they were now snoring, but it feels very relieved to be able to vent the heart.
Good night monster.