BROK3N
11. Between Happy and Worry

Soon there will be adzan magrib. The car we were riding drove slowly. The distance from my home is still quite far. Because this includes rush hour so the streets are very crowded. There is no gap to overtake.

There was no conversation between me and Zaki in the car. I was also awkward to start a conversation. Zaki only occasionally looked at me with a smile and then looked back out the window looking at the traffic jam. I don't know what he's thinking. His eyes said that there was a lot to talk about. But he chose silence.

Finally the car parked in front of my house right after the adhan in the mosque behind my house was finished. Zaki hurriedly got out of the car to open me the door. Like her boyfriend, I was treated like that.

"Let's Princess" Zaki lowered her head with her hands on her stomach.

"What the hell are you Lebay deh…!" I just blushed. My cheeks must be red from embarrassment. This way I really feel like her boyfriend.

"Emh... You didn't go in first, Zak?." Ask me to stop by to see Mom.

"Engga Del has been this hour not good as well as your mother. Emm. There's actually something I haven't told Del. But I'm confused to begin with." Zaki was suddenly nervous.

"What Zak? Tell me or we'll talk inside." Ask me.

"Don't Del later I won't even be able to say anything inside." Zaki tried to hold me back from entering the house.

"Keep you'll tell me what Zak is." I don't know why my heart is beating faster than ever. It is like a person who is in love and is waiting for the person we love to express his feelings. 

'What the hell am I doing' I murmured.

"I really like you Del."

Zaki really shot me. He was silent for a moment. And this heart is really not because of the beat.

"I was talking in the car but I was embarrassed. Even now my hands are shaking." Reciprocity. Zaki shot me with his nervous hand he ventured to express his feelings.

"What?" I'm shocked. I like Zaki too but I deserve it. Our caste is very different. Even with his excellent Father and Mother's treatment I felt it was only a need to be pitied.

"Yes Del I've loved you since you were in second grade. You remember we were a group at the camp event that time. I always admired your smile. Since then I've been harboring my feelings for you Del.  I don't have the courage to shoot you. You can think of my words Del. I'm not asking for a hasty answer. Honestly, I'm really sad to see you lose your father. I want to entertain you, Del. But there are limitations between us. With me being your girlfriend I can cheer up freely. I think it's a good time for me to express my feelings. Because I'm sure you need a man other than Dad. I'm ready Del. Because I really like you. I'm being honest with you, the next Del is up to you. I went straight home. I'm so nervous right now." 

Zaki nyerocos is not good. She spoke like complex mothers gossiping.

With a nervous mix of embarrassment Zaki expressed all her feelings to me. Without looking at my face he just got in the car and left. I haven't even had a chance to say anything. 

'Do I have to accept it?

Zaki has liked me and harbored feelings for this one year.' I really haven't thought about dating.

while daydreaming Zaki's words I walked towards my door. Before Mom was really worried because I didn't come home.

"Assalamu'alaikum Bu Adelia is coming home." I say hello while I open the door of the house that is rarely locked if there are families who have not returned home.

"Wa'alaikumsalam why just came home Del." Mom almost nagged but I hugged her right away.

"Later Adelia obviouslyin yes Mom now Adel wants to shower first already smell dry." I let go of my embrace and walked up my hand to the room.

"Bere's my dear mother….!" I open the door to the room. I turned on the lights and rushed to take a shower and worshiped.

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"Adel cepet down later his food's going cold." Mother's cry made me stop to read the Koran.

"Sodakallahuladhim. Yes, Ms. Adel will be down soon."

Ring my face. I took the brown envelope Zaki's father gave me in my backpack. I combed my hair and tied it up and went down. 

"What do you eat the same? Did mom make it lovingly…!" I was right behind Mom. Followed her here and there. So that the envelope I was holding was invisible to mother. I'm still hiding a surprise that's sure to make you happy. I tried to tease my mother first.

"There's still chicken in the freezer so mommy fry. Keep sambel terasi and lalap pokcay your favorite." Bener-bener piqued the appetite of the menu cooked by the mother.

"You sit down first." I took my mother's hand and sat her down at the dinner table.

"What the hell is it like that seriously." Mom was amazed and sat down as I ordered.

"Mom. This is a copy of Ibn Alamsyah. The boss where Dad works, Mom. That's 25 million. He said it's alimony and condolence money for Dad because Dad is an exemplary and obedient employee." I put a brown envelope in my mother's hand. My mother shed tears. Silently look at the contents of the envelope with all red money.

"Dell. Is this money real?" I still can't believe what you're holding.

"Of course, Mom. At first Adelia didn't believe it either, but this is real money. Is this your mom holding?" I still need to convince Mom.

"Your father is a good man, son. Even after leaving for good Dad still brings us fortune." Mom was overwhelmed by the huge amount of money for us. Mom still shed her tears.

"Alhamdulillah Mother. God has given us the best way. Isn't this enough money to pay Dad's debt?" I wiped the tears on Mom's cheek.

"Yes, I hope enough. So that your father would really calm down there. But how did you get to meet Dad's boss?" 

"Kan Adelia went to school with her son Mom. Did you forget yesterday Adelia was invited to Zaki's birthday party even Adelia was picked up by Pak Tarjo his driver Pak Ibnu." Obviously I was with Mom.

"Why can you forget that."

"Mom is old." My temptation.

"Basar you this. We eat first." And finally we ended the heartwarming conversation and ate together.

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