Brother, May I Love You?
Chapter 38

Kiran ran away from Dhika's sister's car that afternoon. She immediately went inside the house and peeked at her brother's car leaving. His heart is still beating. It was impossible for him not to know what he was feeling right now. It is hypocritical that he said he never knew this feeling. But ... Why does he feel this way about that person? He should not have this kind of feeling towards that person. Because ... they never grew up together. They were ... brothers despite not having any blood ties.

Kiran's body slowly descended to the floor. He really could not believe this was happening to him. Consciously, she was interested in her own brother. She likes to see and touch her brother.

"It's not normal" he said insulting himself.

Kiran got up from the floor and tried to walk towards the room. He put his bags and shoes in place and wanted to take a shower immediately. When he wanted to take off his clothes, he smelled a man on his body.

'This is Dhika's sock, ' he said in his heart and began to take a deep sip of the smell. A second later he regained his senses and felt ashamed at his strange behavior. Kiran took off the shirt and threw it away.

"Don't come near!" his orders were on the t-shirt lying on that floor.

He wanted to step into the bathroom but his legs could not advance. He ran to get the ash shirt and took another sip of the smell. As if wanting to absorb the soul of the owner of the shirt into the recesses of his heart. Then he regained consciousness and threw the shirt away.

"What'sthis? Why do you think gini?" tanya Kiran considered that she was already insane.

"He's Dhika's sister. Dhika's sister who used to be a vagrant. Sister Dhika who .. now has a field and hard chest. With the abdominal muscles in the form of a bread mattress. The sturdy arm that hugged me tightly. And ... thick lower lip that tempted to be kissed." kiran then regretted in silence.

He had a lover before. During second grade SMU. But it's just a monkey's love that ends quickly. After that until now he never once had a love with anyone. Not because they are not interested, but do not have time to follow through on their feelings. All he could do was to harbor likes and let them disappear as time went on. But he never felt physically attracted to a man as big as he is now. Even he had already missed that person's smell, hugs and strength ever since they parted five minutes ago.

"No .. This cannot happen" he said and got up. Trying hard not to look at Dhika's grey t-shirt again and go inside the bathroom.

Byur .. byur .

Kiran poured cold water over her head, trying to remove all the shadows of Dhika's legs inside her brain.

"That guy's not your class. You're so different"

"That person has everything and you have nothing"

"The guy .. had a girlfriend. A really mean and nasty boyfriend with you"

"The person ... NO BOLEEEHHHH"

Kiran tries to hypnotize herself in order to change her feelings. Along with the sound of water continuously hitting his body.

After thirty minutes, Kiran finally came out of the bathroom. He's feeling very dizzy. Maybe because I think too much unnecessarily.

"It's just a momentary feeling. Not a real feeling" she said, wearing underwear.

"Everything will disappear as quickly as the wind, as it always does"

"Should. Must disappear. If not, I'm hard on myself"

He was back on the floor. Sorry for having this feeling. Slowly, he walked to the bed and lay down.

Maybe, if he slept, everything he felt now would just disappear. Without a second hand at all. Kiran would consider all of that to be just a dream. A strange dream she had as a woman. When he wakes up, he will be back to normal again. Being Kiran who only focus on making money. He closed his eyes and within seconds fell asleep.

Not knowing how long she slept, Kiran opened her eyes and felt her head hurt. It hurt so much that he couldn't stand it. He walked over to the table and looked for a headache cure.

"Yet" Kiran immediately took the medicine and then went back to lying in bed. His hands flailing, looking for his phone. It's twelve o'clock at night. It's worth his head hurting, definitely because he missed dinner. Kiran went back to sleep for a few minutes and regained consciousness because she felt uncomfortable.

Kiran lay back down after finding everything and started taking care of herself.

Unaware of how long she had been asleep, Kiran now opened her eyes and felt unfamiliar with the ceiling she saw before her. His head was not as painful as before and his body began to feel comfortable. His hands started flailing once more but found nothing on the table next to his bed. He turned his head and found the table next to his bed turned small.

'A'n't. It's not just the table that's changed. But the bed, the blanket, and the room had changed, he thought, trying to sit down.

"Away awake?" ask someone to her. He seemed to recognize the voice but began to wonder why he could move.

"Where is this?"

"Hospital. Sis went to your house to drop off a uniform that was accidentally carried away, but you didn't answer. Turns out you .. fever"

Kiran looked at Dhika's brother who was sitting next to her and started to feel awkward. He lowered his head, avoiding Dhika's big-sightedness.

"I'm .. I've been taking medicine" he said trying to remember what happened last night.

"Yes. Brother saw it, but your heat is high. You also want to, so brother just take it to the hospital instead of something happening. The doctor said it's a stomach infection."

"What?"

Stomach infection? It turned out that this disease relapsed again, he thought then sighed softly.

"Did you often experience something like this?" ask brother Dhika.

"No" he answered immediately.

"The doctor said maybe this isn't the first time you've experienced this. Have you ever experienced this in Jakarta?"

Ever been? Not ever again, but often. Kiran is always busy working, making money and studying. It was not that he did not want to eat, but that he felt that he did not have time to eat. That's what made him get stomach disease several times.

"So. Is the examination done? I want to go home" he said not to linger in the hospital.

"You'll stay here until you're healed. Don't you dare get out of bed or I'll get mad"

"But ... "

"It has. You just sleep. Brother will get you anything you need. As long as you heal first"

Kiran's eyes opened perfectly when she felt a caress in her hair. This person, why would it be so easy to caress and touch her? This man does not know what the consequences of his actions are. Kiran brushed off her brother's hand and chose to lie to the right side. Behind Dhika's loyal brother was sitting next to her.

"Sir Dhika is leaving now. I'm awake"

"No. Brother wants to stay here, waiting for you to heal"

"Sir Dhika also has to work"

"Nobody is more important than you now. Go to sleep and you'll stay here"

No. gabe. Don't come any closer because Kiran doesn't know how to erase the feelings that have arisen in her heart and head.