Dear A
The lowest side
...One day, if I could be with you...
...One day, if I could hold your hand. Just a day, if I could be with you, just a day....
..._Dear A's...
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On this long and tiring day, I found this heart full of grievances. Today or tomorrow I will rise again, and live through the day without you until I age. The faint shadows and the dried up laughter, were all like that day after day. The sadness of my heart and the open wounds will not disappear. Can you hear our sad cry? which we held all day, though the darkness greeted us as we were greeting. We hold hands and we are always together.
Why no answer at all?
Why are you silent?
So is the content of the essay in Hye-Joon's diary that opens just like that on his desk, while next to the book there is a frame Alexa alone smiling sweetly. Her diary was closed just like that as the night wind greeted her wide open room staring at the moon.
Hye-Joon can only be silent contemplating herself and always sighing. Maybe he was trying to stay strong, his days were also bored when it was like this. One year is not enough for them to rise again.
Why lie to the world if they are still so fragile without the presence of encouragement in life.
"Sorry daddy who failed to look after and care for you, "his mumble alone, Suddenly Hye-Joon's back was patted by Yeon-jin's hand.
"Don't beat yourself up, you're better than anything when your task is done, " exclaimed Yeon-jin who stood beside her staring at the moon with a loose gaze.
"Gue had been pretending to let go of Alexa, hyung, "Hye-Joon ducked down.Yeon-jin snorted a smile.
"Gue know, I'm much older than you. I know you pretended to be strong and happy in front of your sister and the others. But you're wrong Joon, you can't lie to me, "Hye-Joon can only take off his entire breath with a single pull.
" To be in the phase of losing the person we love and care about the most is the hardest disaster for those who have experienced it, and now we all feel it. I don't know what the other feelings are, but you...
"Very hurt Hyung.Everything I do must remember Alexa. I'm very close to him being rich in stamps, "they both snort amused, it's true that Alexa is too attached to Hye-Joon in every activity every day. Until the moment she wants to do her Hye-Joon will let out her tears. But if there is his best friend he was forced to hold it until his chest feels so tight.
Yeon-jin keeps staring at Hye-Joon who avoids eye contact, she looks so restless. "Not to be held, just get out. I understand, "Yeon-jin pulled Hye-Joon's neck to grieve in her arms. So heavy that he had to do work while holding back longing for Alexa is not easy.
"Hiks. hiks. I can't see him anymore Hyung, even though Zoya is very similar to him. But it's not Alexa but someone else, I'm fragile, "Hye-Joon gasps in tears in Yeon-jin's arms, wiping away her tears.
"Why Hyung, why. hiks, "
"Lu know, animals that live in the ground also need to eat. Free Joon, his destiny is to die for us, his task in the world is already finished, "Hye-Joon is increasingly fragile and not powered. Yeon-jin can see Hye-Joon whom she is very familiar with showing her weak side. Acting as a jerk and crying endlessly and having trouble accepting destiny.
Hye-Joon cries in pain, Yeon-jin doesn't know what to say anymore. He sees Hye-Joon who is very different now.
"What else can make you not like this, Joon? "
"Gue just wants Alexa back, "
"And that's also the reason you refuse your parents' matchmaking? " Hye-Joon nodded slowly, back then Hye-Joon's parents had once intended to match a career woman to her, Hye-Joon immediately rejected her firmly without any consideration.
"Alexaah!! why did you leave when you were already our first love! " Yeon-jin yells in annoyance mixed with sadness.
Yee-Jun and Myung-jee hear everything from behind Hye-Joon's bedroom door. They both sighed, Myung-jee saw the mansion, one year ago on all sides of the room always filled with memories that Alexa lives in. Now Myung-jee can only see the shadows of his laughter, sadness and cheerfulness on all sides until it just disappears in a cruel wind.
"Gue had not yet perfected the love of happiness for him before Alexa left, "his murmurs were sad. Yee-Jun sighed again.
"Gue's tired, "
"Gue too, but how else do we have to get through this together, " Myung-jee said staring at Yee-Jun who was silent for quite a while leaning against the concrete wall.
"No plans to marry young Hyung? " Sinta Yee-Jun stared at her quickly.
"Not so fast, "his ketus walk died Myung-jee who laughed amusedly. Hayalah Myung-jee also will not be married that quickly let alone the position of Alexa can be replaced by women's eyes.
In the third room, Yeon-jin's sister falls asleep in the same bed. Dae-ho and Ryung-jae are hugging Hyun-il who is in the middle. His dream has been bailing buana so that it cannot be the same as other dreams.
This is the third day after the anniversary of Alexa's departure. All are still mourning, let alone the three of them who got love that clapped one hand. I don't know what they are experiencing in dreamland, without them noticing tears falling simultaneously.
Maybe they met Alexa? or the other one? Only they and God know.
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