Dear A
Because I've Feel It Too

...Sometimes I like grief.....

...What helplessness is this?...

...We were very close, but now we are very far away. You are the body and I am the soul, so what is this situation?...

..._Dear A's...

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After completing his obligations, outside the cottage was very crowded. Even Yumi and In-na had already left their cottage because they did not want to disturb Zoya in worship. Zoya has realized and she guessed, tonight they must have made a roast meat meal. Obviously he could not join, the corner of his heart mused he seemed reluctant to join in and gather. Not so comfortable in the crowd, Zoya wants to be alone in this cottage.

"Huuuffffhh, "he can only sigh while folding back the prayer mats and mucena he was wearing.

While inside Hye-joon's cabin, her three sisters are still struggling with cellphones because they are very serious about playing online games that make all three forget about time.

"Yeah!!! take a quick shower. Or Hyung confiscates your cellphones, " cried Jin hyung, while Da-eun who was fragrant and fresh again prepared to get out of the cottage and look for Zoya.

"Abang, I want to go to Zoya's eonnie cabin, "Ryung-jae still keeps looking at her phone screen until her eyes are almost out.

" Hmm. You've taken a shower, "

"You who haven't had a bath, I'm fresh, "he exclaimed running up the door to open the cottage and disappeared.

Yeon-jin who is very upset because her words are not heard, just pull Ryung-jae and Dae-ho's ears with both hands.

"Aaa. hyung is still playing, and won again, " complained Dae-ho, not caring about Yeon-jin's smoldering face.

"The game you were thinking about, while everyone was already crowded outside the cottage making campfires and preparations to burn meat, "contact Hyun-il directly looked at Yeon-jin.

" really? "

"Hurry bathingiiiiii!!! " his yells again to make their ears pengang.Myung-jee and Hye-joon just finished changing their clothes in the room. Casual suit was attached, Myung-jee rubbed his palm arm so that the perfume he just sprayed her fragrant.

"Are they still playing the game? " ask Myung-jee

"Yes, "

"Hurry up you guys get ready, soon we will gather outside, tonight the sky is very bright we can see the stars and the moon, " cried Hye-joon tidying up a little bit of his hair.

"Eo. alright, "finally the three of them complied and entered his room each with a gripping face.

"Joon, did you bring lip balm? " ask Yee-jun who just came out of his room.

"Eo... was in my room, did you forget to bring yours, hyung? "

"Yes.I don't remember her, "he exclaimed while opening Hye-joon's room.

"Hyung, are we really going to burn meat tonight? " ask Myung-jee sitting next to Yeon-jin.

"It's a habit of that too, why do you ask again? isn't that the main menu when we go on vacation? " ask Yeon-jin frowning her staring at Myung-jee.

"If it's years ago, it's okay there's no problem. Don't you remember Zoya being a Muslim? " Hye-joon and Yeon-jin immediately fell silent and were confused as to what to say.

"But Jerry had prepared all the pork food supplies, "his reply was in the lema.

"After me, Muslims are not arbitrary. Not only the food must be halal, but the cooking utensils must also be considered, " continued Hye-joon, Yee-jun who is behind the door also overhears the conversation and he walks over to join in.

"The village is quite far away with the city, how we search for it. It would be strange if we stepdaughter of one employee who is just because of different religions with us, " Yeon-jin replied.

"I'm with in the village there's a beef seller, why not try it? " scan Yee-jun all of a sudden.

"really? "

"I will tell my men to look for him, "he said again, his face impressed no matter but his heart still has a high conscience.

"Eo.. Then how much do we need? " ask Myung-jee again.

"Buy as much as the uncle sells, me, Hyun-il, Ryung-jae and Da-eun love beef, " Yee-jun continued casually.

"So safe for that? "

"Faith, "

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In the middle of the U-bellied hut arrangement, the tables were arranged lengthwise and there they sat down to enjoy a grilled meat dish. Zoya, who had just come in to gather, looked at the meat doubtfully.

"Don't worry, believe me I bought a lot of beef so you can eat it, I also sacrificed a new kitchen tool, only me to roast the beef, " yeon-jin answers who turns out to be sitting at her desk, because Da-eun is carrying her. While Yumi and In-na are at the very end of the table, she may not know that Zoya is also joining.

"Eonnie why? "Da-eun looks at Zoya with her head sideways. The one sitting at the table had eaten that dinner.

Oh God, why else is this? why am I so nervous, why is my body suddenly limp. I'm not comfortable, God, don't come now..

Zoya continues to mutter in her heart, not even answering Da-eun and Yeon-jin's questions. Zoya ducked down, leaving Hye-joon and the others confused. Myung-jee did not have time to chew the meat. Myung-jee sees Zoya's one hand still lifting chopsticks, nothing strange. But what happened to Zoya?

" Why are you? "question Hye-joon a little worried, no answer. There's a drop of water soaking up his orange robe, and it's Da-eun can see.

" Eonnie is crying? "asked Da-eun to sit down.

" No, "Reported Zoya briefly but in her usual tone. No one realized that, all the servants were engrossed in the dishes and alcohol available, the place was so boisterous and noisy.

" Eonnie, "

"What's wrong with you, just say it, " exclaimed Hyun-il putting his chopsticks on the plate. Accidentally Myung-jee sitting next to Hyun-il sees Zoya's hand holding the chopsticks shaking. And just then Zoya raised her face.

"You overheated? is the weather here normal? " Ryung-jae wonders when she sees Zoya's face filled with sweat.

They do not understand Zoya who suddenly does not know what the cause can change her mood. Yee-jun only notices it all, and he understands what happened to Zoya.

"You have a mental illness? " question her directly, and those who hear her cry out.

"Huh? what do you mean, hyung? " dae-ho asked in confusion.When he got the question, Zoya was shivering coldly, she clasped her hand tightly to turn blue.

Oh God help me, help me, it tortures me..

"Zoya is? are you okay? " asked Myung-jee looking panicked. Zoya is unable to answer, she intends to leave the place and try to calm herself. They see Zoya's movement in a hurry to leave the place.

"Eonnie.. Where's eonnie going? " Da-eun is eager to follow her but Myung-jee holds back her movements.

Zoya walked without direction, not into her cottage but a direction towards a dark place. Many times he grimaced with tension and torment. Zoya forgets Tessa's message that she's already put a sedative for her.

Hye-joon and the others can only watch Zoya from behind who even has trouble stepping her legs. From the back as well, Yumi sees a very familiar Zoya in her view. Yumi quickly ran.

"Zoya, where are you going? " Yumi embraces Zoya's shoulder with her carefree. While the master continued to be silent withstanding the torment of emotions from within his body.

Yumi realizes her friend's condition is very unusual, "Zoya.. Zoya why are you? " not getting an answer, Zoya slowly declines her body and continues to growl like a sick person. Yee-jun who sees it immediately stands up from the spot, and asks Ryung-jae to take off the jacket he was wearing that night.

"For what? "

"Failure!! " his yell made all the employees freeze. At the same time Zoya starts to cry...

"Yahoooooooooo!!!!!! "the shout was very sticky and hurtful right, Yee-jun covered all over Zoya's head and tried to hold her to calm down, when the place became a scene and horrendous. Yumi, in the fog, panics and tries to find the sedative in Zoya's personal closet.

" Yahoooo!!! "shouting again with sobs, Yee-jun tries to hold Zoya who again loses control. His chest up and down, believe is in the position of Zoya is not easy. The anxiety he was suffering from was very severe and continued to nest in his body.

Hye-joon and the others can't bear to see Zoya suffering so much. Da-eun runs into Ryung-jae as she is also scared and can't bear to see Zoya the second time around in such a condition.

" Will nothing happen? you're strong, you're strong, "whisper Yee-jun in Zoya's ear to keep her calm, Zoya stops crying and muttering, her breath gasping like exhaustion.

" There's nothing here, consider this place nobody, "when Yee-jun doesn't hear Zoya mutter, he's willing to lift the frail body into his arms. For whatever sake, Yee-jun intends to help her not to benefit, for whatever sake Yee-jun tries not to touch her skin.

Yee-jun behaves like that because he knows, the disease cannot be underestimated. If it is severe especially beyond the limit can be very dangerous for themselves and also people around him.

I'm just helping you, nothing more..

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