Dear A
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
...Not wanting to be better than anyone else, but I just want to be much better than my previous self....
~Shanzoya
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Zoya hurriedly stops a taxi passing by the street, while her three friends are forced to leave inside the restaurant and still eat the food they ordered. The reason is quite simple, Zoya forgets the schedule of the examination to Bo-ra's doctor. Last week, Tessa promised a timetable for Zoya's new development.
From inside the taxi car, Zoya has seen Tessa waiting for her in front of the apaterment building where they live. He immediately opened the door after making a payment transaction.
"Assalamu'alaikum, "
"Wa'alaikumussalam, " answered the couple gently.
"Zoya forgot that today's schedule check, "he exclaimed gasping.
"Grandfather, the important thing is that you have prayed Ashar right? "
"Alhamdulillah is bi, "
"Jaudah has just left now, uncle sent a message to doctor Bo-ra to wait for us to come, "
"Eo. okay, "
During the trip, Zoya repeatedly sighed. This is his fourth examination, after the second examination he has been diagnosed with PTSD a trauma that has not been healed.
Because it was enough to interfere with her activities, Zoya got a prescription drug from her psychologist doctor. A little agitated, is there anything new that he will suffer?
"Don't be afraid, everything will be fine, "Tessa stroked Zoya's back so that she was much calmer.
Anh Dan Tae stops the car right in front of a clinic that is very familiar to them.Zoya and Tessa immediately get out of the car, but, anh said he did not come in and chose to wait for the two of them on the parking lot.
"Eo.. has come? please sit down, "excited Bo-ra let Zoya and Tessa sit in front of her desk. Bo-ra looks at Zoya with her gentle smile, the first technique so as not to make the patient feel tense and threatened.
"Zoya.. How are you? " her question is trying to make small talk, Zoya scratches between her fingers. This is not usual he did, his anxiety to answer increasingly dubious.
"Why? don't be afraid, I'm your doctor, "Zoya is trying to relax and cover his anxiety, Zoya takes a deep breath and exhales slowly.
" Good, "praise Bo-ra, because Zoya can overcome her own anxiety.
" Good news, doctor, "Bo-ra smiles gently as her questions can be answered.
"I started well, who are you? "
"Zoya, "
"Lately you've been feeling weird, haven't you? "
"No, everything went well, "
"Zoya, once you get to Korea, what are you going through? " Zoya was silent for a long time, he was again agitated and attacked by panic.His two index fingers scratch each other's thumbs belong to him without realizing it he did that.
"I..
" Stranquil Zoya, calm down. Say it, "whisper Tessa is a little worried about Zoya's mood swings. Bo-ra watches Zoya's face very intensely, as if she knows what Zoya is going through and she keeps a lid on it.
"They. they bully me, "Tessa is shocked to smother her own mouth. Bo-ra rests her body on the target seat.
"Keep what else are you going through? "
"I'm scared, I'm cold. Dark, lonely.they doused me with water from the got, "Zoya said it without gaps and smoothly. Tessa is speechless, as well as taking care of Zoya there is still a secret that she does not know herself, and let Zoya suffer alone.
"After that day, are you still in the bully again? "
"No, seven men came to my rescue and gave me a job, so I didn't see them again, "his reply was much calmer than before. Bo-ra takes Zoya's hand and grabs her with warmth and stares at her very sharply.
" Have you ever thought about suicide? "Bo-ra asked that carefully.
" Ever, her "answer was spontaneous and to the surprise of Tessa who was sitting beside her.
" Athaghfirullah son? "Bo-ra gives Tessa the code to keep her calm.
" Have you ever intentionally injured yourself, or sliced your arm? "
"Everything intended, but I tried to hold him back, "
"You've done something over and over again, and that's beyond your reasonable limits, "Zoya is silent trying to remember the thing that always makes him so addictive.
"I always wash my hands, "
Bo-ra sighed, it turns out that the new thing Zoya suffered was not severe but must be monitored more often. It could be anytime Zoya is unaware of her actions and harms herself.
"Zoya, you don't have to go on tour. At home, "persuade Tessa to look at Zoya with great worry.
"Zoya can take care of himself, "he exclaimed while smiling to convince Tessa not to worry about him.
"Just bring the medicine I gave, if your anxiety relapses again immediately take the medicine, "
"All right, "
"Thank you Doc for the help, "
The two of them decide to leave Bo-ra's study room and go straight to Anh who is standing next to her car.
"Have you? " ask her on the very wife, while she looks at Zoya with a teary look.
"Pray with God, may Zoya always be protected and healed of her past wounds, "Anh stroked the back of her very wife and smiled gently so that Tessa was calm.
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The next morning, at the residence of Hye-joon mansion.From five o'clock in the morning, they had woken up early, preparing everything they needed during the vacation.
"Da-eun, May I come in? " hye-joon said after knocking on Da-eun's room door.
"Yes, off course, "his answer from inside the room, Hye-joon opens Da-eun's room door and looks like all the stuff is scattered everywhere. It turns out that Da-eun is not alone, there is Ryung-jae who is still struggling with Da-eun's blanket.
"You packed these things alone, "Da-eun sighed tiredly.
"No reason, "he answered briefly.
"Anything, you want to wear a black or white hoodie? " ask Da-eun sideways and her head asks Ryung-jae who is certain that she is conscious.
"Just bring her second, " Ryung-jae replied with a heavy voice. Hye-joon jumps on the bed and intends to disturb Ryung-jae.
"Aaa. hyung, I'm still sleepy, "
"What's? yaa.. Ryung-jae, I'm going to complain to Jin hyung, "
"No other words I deserve to hear this morning? " his murmur is still closing his eyes.
"There, "
"What's? "
"Get Upppp!! " scream Hye-joon close to Ryung-jae's ears, and he immediately woke up and sat up straight looking at Hye-joon with a bitch.
"Yeah!!!! "
Bluppp
Da-eun resentfully throws a piece of clothing at Ryung-jae, "You shut up, i cape, "his words make Ryung-jae slip.
"You don't see that bothers me, it's not me who makes a fuss, "his reply pointed at Hye-joon who was already laughing crisply.
Meanwhile, Zoya is putting her hijab one by one in a suitcase and assisted by Tessa who also packs food that Zoya will bring.
"If you're done, take a shower. The rest of her later aunty's-the-all
Not yet done talking, Zoya had already dashed as fast as lightning picking up a towel and headed for the bathroom. Tessa was dumbfounded and instantly changed the look on her face.
" Fuck Zoya!! "
"Thank you pretty aunt!! "
Tessa ignores him, she opens the drawer of the nightstand and sees some of the medicine that Doctor Bo-ra gave her. Tessa tucked the medicine bottle in the smallest suitcase bag, so Zoya had no trouble finding it.
After her Tessa compiles the suitcase against the wall, then cocks the black bag containing the food on top of her. Tessa turns to the kitchen, where Anh Dan Tae is still enjoying her morning meal, Tessa takes the food container and puts some of the food she sets aside for Zoya into the container.
"Well, Zoya doesn't eat at home? " asked Anh out of surprise with her wife.
"No, he said at 06:30 should have reached the office yard, "Anh fell silent and chewed her food again.
"Mas, I'm going with Zoya? "
"I just wanted to nawarin, "Tessa is smiling more happy, spontaneously she immediately kissed the cheek of the husband. These two couples are being romanticized.
"It's not good, if Zoya suddenly sees. But if I eat you in the room, "Anh replied teasingly to Tessa.
"Next time, "
"You're too kegeeran if I take you now, "Anh grunts amusedly because he managed to prank his wife, Tessa grumbled bitterly because of the lure.
"Pretend not to be horrified, "
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