Dear A
Reminiscences
...Because at its base loving a human being is the simplest art to suffer...
..._Dear A's...
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Yee-jun puts Alexa's Winnie doll first on her mattress, Heavy days they haven't crossed her whole life. There must be a lot of memories that they cannot sip in a certain place.
"Everyone came here, " cried Yeon-jin from the lounge, Yee-jun who heard him immediately moved from his seat to Yeon-jin who shouted for them to gather immediately.
"What's up Hyung? " tanya Dae-ho doesn't have the spirit of his eye bags yet to disappear. Yeon-jin and Myung-jee scratch their back nape which is not itchy at all, the atmosphere seemed awkward as they saw all of his friends staring at the two of them.
"All of you, listen to me. As the oldest of you, I feel the same way as you, losing Alexa is the hardest thing for all of us. But I don't want you to fall into this atmosphere today, come back like your original identity. Honestly, the atmosphere of this house is not as usual crowded and fun.We are usually joking, now like who you are who I am, "
"So Hyung Yeon-jin means calling us in this room it wants to take us for a walk, find a new atmosphere and a new world . And try to give up Alexa who is already far there, " Myung-jee continued their plan to end it all.
"You go alone, I don't, "Hye-joon replied quickly without thinking twice. Yeon-jin stops him.
"Joon, "Hye-joon immediately stopped his movements.
" I know you are the sadest among us, but come on I want you to be the Hye-joon I know first, I am also sad to see you slumped. I intend to bring back your lost smile, just as rich as the others, "obviously Yeon-jin made Hye-joon helpless, he pensively then let out his tears again.
" Hyung, how can I go just for a walk to calm myself and try to forget my sadness, while Alexa is there alone, "
"Alexa has calmed down there Joon, you believe me right? and one more thing, we don't forget Alexa, we're just trying to keep Alexa away, sometimes the best way to love it is to let it go, "after Yeon-jin says that, sometimes the best way to love it is to let it go, spontaneously Yee-jun lowered his head deeply. Yee-jun can't stem her anymore, because crying is the best way to calm down.
Ryung-jae strokes Yee-jun's back in order for him to survive beyond this stage, although it also hurts for her to lose the person she loves but not in reply as she hoped. At least everyone should not be hurt like himself, Hyun-il and Dae-ho.
"Everything will be fine, bring your smile back to the way it was, " exclaimed Myung-jee smiling warmly even though in his heart he also wanted to cry like the others, but he does not want to look weak as a friend who must return a smile that has long faded.
"Are you okay? " ask Joon to Myung-jee who can be seen he gives fake smile.
"No, I'm not good, " resigned Myung-jee also sobbed when remembering his memories with Alexa.
"When spring passed my doorstep, "hyun-il muttered blankly.They could only listen to what Hyun-il said.
"Not just the sun or the rainy season,
The wind is blowing here
Ask me how it feels to live without a heart
" Hyun-il, "call Yeon-jin but Hyun-il ignores her.
"Your memories are coming over and over again, but this time I wish you were Al, "Dae-ho and Ryung-jae closed their eyes tightly, sore right?
..."Brother wants banana milk, "...
..."Where's the candy? "...
..."Daddy, stupid brother take banana milk ade, "...
..."Brother Hob Thank you for the phone, "...
..."Brother cat, brother ghost, dirty brother, stupid brother, brother Hob Hob, brother mochi, daddyyyyy!! "...
..."I don't want a toothbrush, "...
..."Don't want, "...
..."Saranghaeyo, "...
Footage of Alexa turning back, all of her crying when Alexa's soothing voice, her crying voice, her smile and her special call to them are still recorded so clearly.
"God!!! " Dae-ho squeezes his hair, he is frustrated with the mood as opposed to the heart.
"I want to see Alexa, anyone want to come? " calling Myung-jee suddenly stood up, they looked up when they saw Myung-jee saying they wanted to see Alexa. They choose to come with Myung-jee to meet Alexa's grave.
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Each of them clasped a red rose in front of Alexa's grave.
"De, brother same daddy came to see you, we all miss. Do we miss the same? " Yeon-jin stroked Alexa's headstone.
"Gosh, it must be so quiet and cold here, God, so sorry my poor sister, " muttered Myung-jee trying not to cry.
"Ade, brother bring banana milk the same as your favorite candy. Brother put it here well, brother also bring let us drink together rich at that time, " hyun-il's tears had already trickled down but she let her and smiled happily as if Alexa was already in her presence. Hyun-il drinks the banana milk while sobbing in tears as he wishes Alexa was in front of him, because now he can only see the gravestone carved with his full name and date of his death.
"How about this, dirty brother stinks. You may not need to take a bath to call your brother again, dirty brother, "Ryung-jae tried to smile brightly and pretend to be happy in front of Alexa even though tears could not be stopped.
"Why are you crying? who made Alexa cry, you don't cry here hug daddy, " Joon hallucinated about Alexa who likes to complain and cry in his arms.
"Alexa doesn't want to be kissed again? don't you want to hug brother? " Dae-ho mutters and then covers his entire face with both palms of his hands muffling the sound of his crying.
"Yeah!!!! Alexa, you're still sleeping, don't disturb your brother" Yee-jun half-screamed, he was remembering Alexa who was disturbing herself who was napping until she also snapped Alexa and Alexa cried complaining to daddy Joon.
"If you're still here, brother willing to black card your brother broken in many times, just don't go, " pinta Yeon-jin recalls the incident when Alexa was scared when she was caught breaking her black card. In the end, Yeon-jin tells Seeni to take care of her back.
"Bogo sipeosseoyo, " their murmur in the flood of tears.
They put flowers on top of Alexa's grave, that day they had to leave Alexa alone in that place.
"Daddy same brother went home first well, next time we come here again nemenin you, " exclaimed Hye-joon stroked Alexa's headstone with a heavy heart to leave the place.
With a step and a heavy heart leaving Alexa, the end of her they made it through her. Yeon-jin intends to take them to the Han river, as a foundation to calm the heart and mind that rages after leaving the place where Alexa lives.
Enjoying the swirling wind and soothing river waves, they stood on the rocks staring at the scene.
Ryung-jae remembers himself and Alexa once ran away from the hospital just for a walk, and this is the last place they visited. Running, laughing, riding a bike together, eating icecream together, Ryung-jae holds Alexa's head and goes on the run again from the bodyguard who is looking for them.
Ryung-jae smiles blandly, he throws stones at the river water and small splashes are formed.
"To my sun that had already disappeared, "Ryung-jae muttered, they listened to Ryung-jae's words.
"Now on this earth, even cloudy came to touch my miss. Although this heart cries a little, this self should wave at you, good-bye Alexa...
relax in your long sleep, "
"All these are just memories, "
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