Desire to Love a Husband
Regretting

"But I wasn't out yet, Rissa. I need you to get it out." Candra's words made me tick. What a man in front of me this is really a land crocodile.

"Please! Help me!" my yelling. Candra looked panicked. Instantly he shuts my mouth.

I violently let go of Candra's hand.

"What the hell! You think all women can be fooled! It's been enough of you toying with me all this time!" I screamed right in front of his face.

Candra looked around, hurriedly the man immediately left before anyone caught him.

"Basic! A big body. But afraid of the risks!" I sneered.

After making sure that Candra actually left, I immediately took my change of clothes. Maybe the clothes I was wearing earlier made Candra lustful. Same with Dira.

Next time I'll wear more polite clothes. I'm not a teenager who likes to brag anymore. Because now I'm an adult. I must be able to maintain my dignity.

I'm out of the toilet. A little far from the crowd. Maybe they didn't hear my screams.

I want to continue my steps. But I remember my best friend. I decided to go to that place. But from a distance, Candra was holding Dira who was now asleep. Apparently the man is still responsible to Dira who is now no longer holy.

I went to the locker to get Dira's stuff. Then walk back to the car. While Candra followed behind.

"I'll take you home." Candra said after putting Dira in the car.

"No! I can go home alone with Dira." I refused firmly.

But it's night, Rissa. The journey is still far."

"Then why?! I'm more comfortable going home alone than among brash men like you!"

I was so angry. I just realized that Dira's face was so pale. Dira pale from drunkenness, fatigue and surely also from feeling pain at its core. I could see from his face that was grimacing painfully.

"Rissa, please let me drive you. I'm worried about Dira's condition." The man begged.

"I've said it, no! You better just go home!"

Of course I'm very angry. Candra had already taken Dira's chastity in her unconscious moment.

I re-settle Dira's sleeping position. Covering Dira's body with a jacket in the car. I looked into my best friend's face. While Candra was still standing in her place. It seems the man is sorry.

I straightened my body. I looked at Candra for a moment. Without a word I immediately closed the back door of the car. Leaving Candra out of place.

My feelings feel mixed. Every now and then I stare at Dira from inside the inner spy. I don't feel my eyes running down the river. I sobbed. The new regrets I feel.

Why am I so weak in defending my faith? Maintaining an overly passionate lust. And I cannot be firm when faced with Candra who always teases me. Until I was like a fool when I let Candra fuck Dira. I can call people. Or at least I can scold that guy to stop him.

Now Candra has taken away Dira's chastity.

I watched the side view. It looks like Candra's car is behind at a slow pace.

I finally arrived at a simple house. The house we used to live in before Rika got married. This is Dad's house.

I decided to bring Dira here. I want to keep him company until I wake up.

This house is still preserved. Because Rika always told someone to clean it once a day.

"Let me help you lift Dira inside" the man bargained. I just kept quiet. Letting the man lift Dira's body. Because there's no way I'm gonna lift it. My strength is not enough to lift Dira's body.

I told Candra to take Dira to Dira's room. And lay him there.

"I'll accompany you."

"No! You better just go home!" I said very firmly.

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Nb:

Next day yes. There are still many mysteries that have not been revealed. Sometimes there are a lot of people who make a pretense. 😁😁