Desire to Love a Husband
Expelled and in talaq

All day I've been busy with a lot of office work. The sound of my phone made me stop my work for a moment. I saw my mother-in-law's name on my phone screen.

"Hello, yes Mam." I said the first time the call was connected. But the voice from across the call made me feel so weak.

It turned out that the one who called me was not Mama, but Bi Ira, the maid at Mama's house. She reported that Mama was hospitalized and critical. Without feeling my tears flowing. I immediately got up and left the office. I don't care anymore when someone calls me. This company also belongs to my husband, they will understand.

***

I walked in a hurry when I arrived at the hospital that Bi Ira had told me about. From a distance I could see Bi Ira who looked so sad. I'll approach her soon.

"How's Mama doing, Bi?" ask me in the cover of worry.

Bi Ira looked at me for a moment, she shed her tears. His mouth was shaking as he said.

"Den Alfin, Non." said Bi Ira slightly stammered. While I squinted my eyes. Still do not understand the meaning of Bi Ira. I tried to ask back to make sure.

"Mas Alfin? Why did Bi Ira mention Alfin's mas name, what does it have to do with my husband, Bi?" ask me so curious.

"Ta-tadi Madam had a fight with Madam, Non. Even Den Alfin pushed Madam to fall down the stairs and put Madam in a coma" Bi Ira said with a tremble of fear.

I was so shocked to hear from Bi Ira. Is that really what he said? How could my husband do that to his own mother? My mind wanders to and fro. I really can't believe what happened.

"Then where's Alfin's mas, Bi?" I asked again as I looked around looking for my husband. But I can't find him in this place.

"Den Alfin went somewhere, Non. He also brought someone earlier who made Madam's emotions overflow" Bi Ira said.

I flinched, thinking I was fixed on Alfin's mas who might invite his mistress. But I can't think badly. I have to make sure of everything.

"Bi, I'll drop Mama first. I have to find Alfin's mas." I said and immediately left the hospital. I heard Bi Ira vaguely calling me. But my mind was focused on who someone was with my husband.

***

I decided to return home to change my clothes before looking for Alfin's mas.

But I was so surprised to find the door of the house open.

"Why did the door open, didn't I lock it?" I wondered. But my foot immediately stepped into the garage, it turned out that Alfin's car was there. I'm relieved, because I don't have to bother looking for her anymore.

I immediately put my foot into the house. I stopped my steps again. Didn't Bi Ira say that Alfin was with someone. Is it possible that Alfin brought his mistress to our house?

I hastened my steps. If my thinking is right, I'll hit them.

Until my hearing captures the sound of******* from inside my room. I'll climb the stairs immediately. The higher up, the clearer I heard the understated sound of******* from inside my room.

Slowly I opened my door. I was so overwhelmed by the sight in front of me. Mas Alfin's.

And what makes this chest tight is the woman who along with Alfin mas is her secretary in the office. Until I didn't realize my phone fell on the floor until it cracked. They were still unaware of my presence in the doorway.

Until the secretary of my husband named Anti screamed when he realized my presence. While Alfin looks relaxed and does not feel guilty in the least. He got out of bed, while Anti covered himself with a blanket. Pain but no blood, wound but no scar. That's how I feel right now.

"You have come, you have come" said Alfin without guilt. He was seen walking to pick something up from the nightstand to pick up a brown envelope.

"Don't forget to come to our divorce trial" said Alfin next while handing the brown envelope to me.

It was a letter from a religious court. I also looked at the man who was still my husband.

Alfin smiled sinisterly at me. He then walked back to the bed and lifted the blanket that Anti-use. Then they went back to fighting as if I were not there.

I was so emotional that I beat Alfin from behind.

"You're evil. Tega you!" I hit Alfin blindly. I forget all my emotions.

Alfin moved out of place. He pushed me until I fell down almost to the table in my room. Alfin is a heartless man.

But I don't fear anything. I got up and clashed with him.

"Are you looking at me like that?!"

I turned my gaze towards Anti who currently looked scared looking at me who was rampaging. She's a woman, but she's so willing to stab me in the back. I pitied him at the office. But what he did.

"So because of her you could hurt me, mas. Even you hurt Mama to the point of coma" I said stirring.

"So Mama's in a coma? It's good that he's in a coma. Now there's no one else who's gonna be fussy about setting me up." Alfin chuckles.

"Mas! Mama Lydia is your birth mother. You can say that to your biological mother!"

"I don't care! Just let him die. And all his inheritance will fall into my hands" Alfin said viciously.

"You're so crazy, mom! Mama Lydia is your mother!" I shouted. It seems Alfin is getting out of his mind.

"Too much talk!" Alfin started wearing his sleeping robe and came up to me. He clasped my hand and dragged me to the first floor and blew me away heartlessly.

Alfin threw my body in front of the door of the house without any guilt. I cried withholding the wound of my heart and it also hurt when Alfin threw my body away.

"Your work, my mom!"

"From the beginning I've been so disgusted at you, cheap lady! Used already! I'd better marry Anti who's obviously a virgin. Not like you're old!" hina Alfin's.

I can only cry. Alfin's words were not wrong. But does He have to speak that harshly and regard me as the most unclean being who does not deserve to be loved and changed for the better? I could only hold onto my chest withstanding the heartache.

"I'm your talak right now! Get out of my house! I don't want to see your face again!"

Alfin then called out to Anti who was now walking towards him and carrying a suitcase. Alfin threw the suitcase at me.

"Bring your useless stuff!" said Alfin who then I saw him smiling sinisterly at me. Until he finally closed the door.

I can only mourn my story. I started to get up and I dragged my suitcase out of Alfin's house with a wounded heart.

Just halfway through, I was surprised when Reza with his motorbike approached me with a worried look.

"What's wrong with you, Rissa? Where have you been. Get to the hospital!" reza said with an anxious look, making me so curious.

"Why is it?"

Reza seemed silent for a moment. Then he looked at me.

"You're patient, right? Your in-laws.died."