Desire to Love a Husband
Candra Feelings

I took a deep breath. All right, just listen for a second. It won't matter.

"Just say, what do you want to say?"

Candra tried to grab my hand, but I quickly brushed her off.

"What the hell, Ndra! Don't fuck around!" threaten me. The man still didn't budge.

"I just want to remember our togetherness before I let you go a second time." Candra said with a sad face.

I swallowed my hard saliva. Candra's words pierced my heart. He never expressed his deepest feelings. Until I got married to Alfin, Candra just told me all the flavor she had for me.

Although I used to have a liking for her, too. But it's not the kind of love I feel for Reza.

I don't think this guy is worthy of being a husband. Candra shows that she does not deserve to be loved. Just a big lust.

I used to be drowning in his lust. It's hard to get away from this guy. Until I decided to marry Alfin in order to escape the entanglement of his lust.

But I never thought that this lustful man would express his feelings now. I could see from his tone and his eyes that seemed to speak. The man in front of me meant it.

"How do you feel about me, Rissa?"

"I don't have any feelings for you, Candra. Why are you suddenly asking like this? Don't you change women often. Leaving the old to change the new."

"Indeed. But it's different when it's with you." said Candra firmly.

"Ck, what's the difference?"

"When I come in contact with you, my eyes meet your eyes that make me so washed away. It's only stupid now that I realize it. You're the woman I'm fit to make a wife for, Rissa."

"But you're a very bad man, Candra. How many women have you been fighting. You even used to treat me as just an outlet for your lust. Not as a lover. While you're also guerrilla out there with a lot of women. What do you think I am?!" I'm venting out my emotions that I've been holding on to for a long time.

"I'm sorry, Rissa. I'm really very sorry. I only realized it when you left me and married Alfin. I've always sought shade from the women I've served, but there's no one like you who's so reassuring to me." Candra said so heartily.

I never thought Candra the land crocodile would say that.

I'd love to scream to hear all of Candra's talk. I don't know why my heart started to wobble.

"Please give me one chance, Rissa."

"A chance?" I looked at Candra as she also looked at me. Our views collided with each other.

"Yes. Just give me a chance this time. I want to make you happy and be your best man. Let's cancel each of our marriages. Then we get married." Candra managed to hold both of my hands. We looked at each other.

Candra's words affected me greatly. Until I was a little overwhelmed. But I remembered again that this man in front of me was a crocodile who would probably tell a lie. Immediately I pulled out both of my hands that Candra held. Then I stood up and pulled my body away from Candra.

"Are you crazy?! It's the same way we hurt everyone!"

"Nobody's gonna get hurt, Rissa. I don't really love Dira. I only made him an impingement. And actually Dira never loved me either. Dira loves another man."

"Another guy?" I'm appalled.

"Yes, he likes it...." Candra paused her words and made me so curious.

"Like who, Ndra?"

"Of course, when Dira was drunk, she always said that she liked dark-skinned and burly men. Even he always fantasized about doing hot activities with that man when I was out there. So it's been confirmed that whites like me aren't her type."

I was so caught up in hearing Candra's words. Don't tell me that the guy in Dira's delusion is Reza! Could Dira like Reza?

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