Desire to Love a Husband
The lost sanctity

Candra sighed. He looked at me for a while and then turned to Dira. It seems like he's hard to leave Dira. I was stupid with him. Obviously, I don't want him here.

The man then left the room. A few moments also heard the sound of his car moving away from home. Only then did I take care of Dira. I rubbed his body with warm water, remembering that he had not washed his body while playing with sea water. I also put her on a nightgown to make her comfortable.

"Mbak Rica...." Dira looks delirious. I immediately rubbed his face that looked so sad. Maybe Dira misses Rika so much, her sister. Rika rarely comes home. The demands of the work that made him like that.

"Dira, I'm here, you sleep." I whispered those words to Dira. And he reflexively hugged my arm. I just let it go. Maybe Dira was so lonely. Rika whose siblings have a family, so they rarely meet. While I am also his best friend is married. It made Dira more like a kara in her life. And I understand that very well.

I hugged my best friend. Again I can't hold back my tears. I've made a big mistake in my life. Mistakes that made Dira lose her purity.

I'm afraid of Dira coming to her senses later. I was afraid of her mentality to find out that she was no longer a virgin. Even though it was given to the man he loved, but it was done unconsciously, Dira was drunk.

It is different if done consciously. After becoming a married couple, Dira will definitely hand over her crown to her husband. The husband who will protect, protect and support her. But will Candra do all that? Even if he promised to marry her.

I know what Candra looks like. The man until this moment still has not found a female figure to be made his wife. The woman he loves can change him. I'm afraid that he'll hurt Dira later.

I hugged Dira tightly. I can't imagine what his life will be like. Are you willing to accept this reality. Are you willing to be married to a guy like Candra? I feel sorry for you, Dira.

Tonight I sleep with Dira. My stomach is so hungry. But I'm holding him back. How could I possibly eat while Dira is like this?

Morning

I woke up feeling the movement of Dira. I immediately sat staring at him. I slowly held Dira's cheek as she was about to open her eyes.

"Dira." I called his name. His face looks pale. Makes me so worried.

"In your house first, Dira."

I saw Dira grimacing while holding her head. He was trying to get up. But I prevented him from sleeping again.

"Do you want to drink, or eat? Wait a sec. I'll take it for you" I said.

I cursed myself for not having time to prepare water. And now I'm rushing to the kitchen to get some water. Then I started the stove to make porridge for Dira as well.

But I heard the sound of steps approaching me. I'm turning. And it turns out it was Dira. His steps are moving closer to me.

"Whether you came here, Dira? Already, you just rest in the room." I grumbled and approached him. I invited him to sit in the kitchen chair.

"Rissa, what the hell am I? Why does it feel so limp, and my bottom feels so sore."

I was so excited to hear Dira. Dira is not aware of the events he went through with Candra. Candra has taken her chastity. I'm afraid Dira will be shocked if she finds out the truth.

"Don't talk about it, Dira. You better drink first. It seems that soon the porridge will also be ripe soon," said I divert his attention.

I gave a glass of water to Dira. And he just finished it. I guess Dira is thirsty.

I immediately prepared the porridge for Dira. Actually I'm starving right now. But Dira is more important at the moment.