Desire to Love a Husband
Telling me my mass wounds

"It's all because of you! You are a two-faced human being. You are the cruelest person. This all happened because of you!" Dira is no less hysterical than me. I narrowed my eyes to look at Dira. Still don't understand the direction of this conversation.

"What do you mean?! Is it because of Candra, or Reza?"

"Nothing to know! You will never understand how you have become the greatest traitor of my life. You know how much I loved Candra long ago? And you play with fire with him. You took Candra from me! And Reza, you're the same. I hate you, Rissa! I will forever hate you! Get you out of here. I don't want to see your face anymore! Don't take care of my life anymore! You always bring bad luck to me. Go!!!"

I was stuck hearing the expression of Dira's feelings all this time. My body trembled feeling the mighty waves crashing through my heart. I cried sobbing.

I admit I was wrong to accept Candra's love when I found out how my best friend felt about the crocodile man. But from there I came to know how the nature of Candra really is.

Candra is a crocodile man. And I'm honestly glad that Dira didn't marry that guy. But I also know that Candra is the man who has taken away the sanctity of Dira. I think that man will really take responsibility with Dira. But there was a shrimp behind the rock. The man was just using Dira to get close to me.

I really hate being in my position right now. How can I explain to Dira about everything that happened. But will Dira believe me? Will Dira listen to me? Should I let go of this friendship?

"Go quickly!!" Or I'll be rude to you!" Dira threatened.

"What are you going to do!" My driver came into the house and approached me. I think he heard both of us screaming.

Dira seemed to smile slantingly looking at me. He clapped his hands and laughed out loud.

"Wow... You're really great, Rissa. Now which other man did you take. Whose husband or boyfriend is he?" Dira seemed to underestimate me. I'm still silent. While my bodyguard was about to approach Dira. But I prevented it. I don't want Dira getting hurt anymore.

"Already, no! Let's go back," I said to my bodyguard. I'll let Dira do whatever she wants. Looks like he wants to break our friendship, even though we're actually half-brothers. But it's so hard to talk to Dira for now.

I immediately left Dira's house with a tight hold. I need Reza right now. I want to tell you what I feel right now.

When I got in the car, I called Reza's number immediately. Shortly after the tone connected, Reza raised my call.

She heard my sobs, clearly heard from her worried tone.

"Dear, why are you crying? Is something bothering you?" reza was so worried.

"I want to see you, Mommy." That's all that comes out of my mouth. Reza seemed to understand.

I immediately told the driver to go home. I want to get home quickly, so that when Mas Reza gets to me it's the same.

Not long after I got home. It just so happened that Mas Reza had arrived. He walked quickly towards me.

I spilled all the clutter I felt in my heart. Mas Reza hugged me while gently rubbing my shoulder. Warm, that's how I feel.

After a while I told Mas Reza all about my life. From the beginning, Dira and I were friends. And my meeting with Candra.

I told him the details. Mas Reza looked surprised when I said that it was Candra who had taken away my chastity when we were all still living in Bali. Even the hotel that had been a silent witness when Candra took my crown forcibly I told my husband this.

For a moment, Mas Reza was still silent unmoved. I had to tell her everything before anyone else told my husband.

But now I'm worried that Mas Reza won't accept me either. I'm afraid she'll get angry and think I'm a cheap girl.

Would it be my fault if I wanted to close my dark mass and open a new, better page?

I am still waiting for my husband's reaction. He looked at me so deeply at me who was still sobbing. One question came out of his mouth.

"Darling, do you still remember what date and month Candra took your crown?"

The question is beyond my expectations. I think he's gonna be pissed or something. But why did this deviate from my guess?

I who still remember the date and the month immediately said it. I told everyone, so that there would be nothing more to hide from my husband.

When I told you what date and month when Candra took my forcibly, there was something strange about my husband. The man without a word just hugged me tightly. He didn't say anything. But I can feel his roaring breath. It was like there was an outpouring of emotion buried within it. I don't know what it is.

It was like seeing a tear from the corner of his eye. I was really confused as to why my husband was acting beyond my expectations. Could he be disappointed in me?

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No one can guess, why Reza crying? 🤔