DESTINY LOVE MAYANG
#DESTINY LOVE MAYANG# Part 17

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Time passes so quickly, days change.

Week to week.

And the moon changed.

Exactly three months I was on this campus, trying to focus on studying to achieve my goals.

My desire is only one, realizing Alm's trust. Father in order to be able to hold a college degree and work to become an independent woman who boasts of family.

But lately my learning concentration has been disrupted due to prolonged inner conflict.

Wanted me to end all this, running from all the problems.

But this snare of love has already robbed me.

Like a tide, the waves dragged me until I drowned.

May the prayer that I never cease to pray, will help me from the tidal wave of the ocean of love and bring me to my own.

**03 September 2004**

Since last night I did not sleep, my body felt less fit. Plus I didn't have time to buy dinner, as a result of all night I did the task on an empty stomach.

I knew my old illness would come back.

Because I have a problem with the hull, or the thypus.

If you are tired and do not eat regularly, my old disease will recur.

I lyrics clock on HP, time shows 05.00 Wib. After the ablution and prayer I put my body back.

Trying to close your eyes, endure the unbearable pain.

Grateful I still have stock of drugs that I save if my stomach relapses due to spicy food or late eating.

I slowly got out of bed, picked up the pink syrup and drank it.

Back to the bed.

Trying to restore the remnants of strength within me.

Today there are courses that I must follow, because this week has been UTS for all courses.

I was silent for a moment and I fell asleep.

"Tok....Mayang...!" call me with her distinctive voice.

I could neither rise nor speak.

I heard my bedroom door was opened.

"Sreeekkkk.

"Your overtime all night doing the task given by Mr Dwiarno?" Ika asked me while looking at me with anxious feelings.

From the look on his face, he was very worried about me.

We are friends who are like brothers.

Sometimes Ika took a vacation in Sidoarjo, which is at my home, on the contrary, I also took a vacation in the place of Ika who was in Pacitan.

Sambil memegang dahiku, Ika berusaha membangunkanku dari tempat tidur.

"Are you all right, May?" He said as if he could not believe what he saw.

My face is pale, my body is hot.

After dawn I felt my body was completely limp and my whole body was trembling. I vomited a few times.

There is no energy I feel anymore. Ika swiftly got up and made me a glass of warm tea.

Incidentally under our boarding house, precisely on the lower floor next to the boarding house, there is a Muna who sells packaged rice.

We boarding children do subscribe to buy food at the place mbak Muna.

There were footsteps up the stairs, now Ika was in my room with 2 packs of rice in her hands.

"Yuk.breakfast first May, if you already feel better, we go to campus. If your body is still not good, I will convey to the lecturer, you take the next exam because of illness." Ika said as she pulled me out of bed for breakfast together.

This time my breakfast did not run out I ate, only a few spoons that I could swallow.

It felt like my tongue could not feel the pleasure of pecel rice that my best friend had bought for me.

With the rest of my strength I tried to get up, shower and prepare myself and everything to go to college.

Using my favorite cutbray jeans full of stye trimmings, the long-sleeved black tight shirt covered in a short-sleeved blue shirt outside, with a plain black rectangular hijab.

I deliberately wear two shirts so that my body does not feel cold in an air-conditioned classroom.

don't forget the black backpack and blue sneakers.

Ika came to me, trying to advise me not to force myself to go to campus.

But this time Ika's advice I don't care.

I'm just focusing on UTS this afternoon.

"It's 8 Cha, but we're leaving soon. We'll be late." My words diverted the conversation.

While carrying a backpack and holding my shoes I tried to go down each step of the stairs to the first floor of my boarding house.

I hope my body is still strong until college.

Arriving at the campus hall where we UTS is still quiet, today is the PAI (Islamic Religious Education) course hour, today, as usual if our PAI courses several classes will join in one class in the hall.

Because it was still quiet, Ika and Restu sat in the front corridor of the hall.

Waiting for students from other classes who have not yet arrived.

And it only dawned on me that the hall we were studying in was not far from Radhit's senior class, which was a management student.

For a moment I glanced towards his class, beware if indeed Radhit's brother was there.

I slowly got up from my seat and said, "We're going in, it's not good to sit here. Mending in class while reading material for UTS (midterm exam) later."

Without being commanded for the second time, my two friends immediately got up and walked with me towards the classroom.

Soon, Dion and our classmates appeared, and were followed by students from other classes.

I, Ika and Restu chose to come out later from the hall where the UTS.

But just walked a few steps, at that time my head felt yellow, my stomach felt sore.

This time the pain really can't be tolerated anymore.

My body seems to have lost control.

And my body collapsed.

I heard the screams of Ika, Restu and Dion.

There was a familiar voice in my ear.

It was like a dream I felt someone lift me up.

It felt warm, and it smelled a masculine perfume.

Is this Dion's perfume? Or there's another student holding me.

I tried to open my eyes.

Though heavy, I tried to open both my eyes.

I saw the handsome and charismatic face of Brother Radhit.

"Sister Radhit" I said softly.

It emanated from his face a tinge of worry and anxiety.

Trying to calm me.

"Close your eyes, I'll take you to the BEM management children's basecamp. It seems like they have P3K equipment for you." said brother Radhit as he continued to carry me.

I heard her heartbeat. Although not as good as the rhythm of music, but the rhythm can hypnotize me.

I buried my face in her arms and chest, trying to reconcile my heart.

"I'm sorry Setyo, if I prefer Radhit's brother. I don't mean to hurt you, or be happy on top of your suffering.

Hopefully one day you'll find your true love." My voice in my heart.

Not feeling a clear circle flowing from the corner of my eye.

It was this guilt that made me unable to accept Radhit's brother, and unable to fully accept his love for me.

I pray that Setyo will be fine there, that he will not hate me and blame me for choosing Radhit's brother.

I hope Setyo is happy with his life.

Get better than me.

A few minutes after I got help from friends Radhit at the BEM child management basecamp.

And taking the medicine that I intentionally carried in my backpack.

Looks like Ika told Radhit's brother that I was unconscious from drowning.

Brother Radit sat beside me caressing my head.

There was a strange swish in my heart, a sense of happiness but mixed with regret.

Happy because he was so attentive to me, even though I ignored him.

Appearing regret, because of my guilt towards Setyo, I deceived myself. I lied to myself that I actually loved Brother Radhit.

"It looks like being a member of HIMAPALA doesn't suit you May." Brother Radhit's speech broke the silence in that basecamp room.

I can't answer. Just shut up.

Holding the tightness in my chest, trying to hold back the crying that I thought would soon overflow.

"Maybe until here's the end of our story. I seem to be weighing on your mind.

Makes you like this.

I'm sorry May. I shouldn't have said something in the park that made you think it's sick to think of it." Radhit said with deep regret and disappointment.

Brother Radhit felt he was the one who caused me to fall ill from thinking about the conflict between me and him. Moreover, he gave me time to answer his challenge to become a member of HIMAPALA.

And today exactly 3 it's over.

Registration will be closed at noon today.

And that means I rejected Radhit's brother for not being willing to become a new HIMAPALA campus candidate.

"Hopefully get well soon Dek, assume we never met. May you be happy with anyone who will be the lover of your heart." added brother Radhit while rising from his seat, moving away from the room.

"Sister.., that's not what's really going on" I said stifled, unable to say.

While crying, I tried to call him.

But my tongue feels bad. Only able to look at him.

Ika and Restupun went into the room.

Help me sit up and get up from where I was lying.

When I felt better, Ika and Restu drove me to the parking lot, where Dion waited to drive me home on his bike.

"Go home first, we'll catch up with May," giving me my backpack Ika and Restu back to campus.

Dion finally drove me back to the boarding house, then he resumed activities on campus with my other friends.

Today I can't follow the last hour of college.

Hopefully with enough rest my condition will recover and be able to return to activities.

Because I have so much to finish.

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*What happened between Radhit and Mayang?

*Here is Radhit and Mayang's relationship?

*Can Mayang still be a prospective member of HIMAPALA in order to answer the challenge and realize Radhit's desire?

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