GHIFARI ~ RADITE ~ GHIBRAN
THE TRAUMA IS STILL THERE
“Well is that evil anyway? No pity on that Bram?” reprimand Dinda.
“Poor did you say? I have to feel sorry for that kid? I know the boy was not sinful at all. He was not a sinner even though he was once my son. But not my will. But her mother had made me almost lose my gems. If there's no DNA test I keep feeling like he's my son and you're barren. I can imagine I'll always drown in her feet. Made a doormat by him, while he still sells himself. I may have a dirty disease caused by him. Because he is a seller.” Adit was really emotional back then.
“I can't be hurt, I can't be angry. Many say: elo used to be already enjoying the pleasure of his body! I paid for his service. I love her home, give her a car, give her jewelry and feed her! All sorts of things I pay. I'm not free and I'm enjoying that pleasure as a result of the trap. Every month he only loves one or two important times I stay absent. Because if she's pregnant I'll still be responsible. If I have never been given rations with her regularly even if only once a month if she is pregnant later I can claim that it is not my child. So I never had any advantage over Shalimah. Not at all!”
“People say I've enjoyed him. I got the trash. For him, how much I've been sleeping with me. It's nice to say I enjoy it. No. He set me up. So the one who's been telling me he should know who I am. Just like I played with Syahnaz and Angelica, we both needed a release. It's already! There's no attachment whatsoever. With Shalimah it is like that too. No attachments.”
“We had an inner bond when there was already a baby in her stomach, which she said had me. That's all to the inner bond that exists, because there's a baby. But if for love there is nothing at all,” said Adit.
The sister's husband continued to talk at length he was the oldest if you remember he ever dikatain ever felt the pleasure of Shalimah and now play throw it away.
“Iya sorry Bun. Really sorry. If you have seen him, it feels like blood has reached the gardens. Fortunately, I have a daughter. If you don't want to stick him, it feels like he wants to beat him all out,” said Adit.
“We've walked again than here you kesel,” invite Dinda.
“Fear of another road to meet the family earlier, added kel? So we better be here. Let them go first. I'm sure his kids understand. Especially here the free internet is not like our children that we limit only YouTube kids that they can watch,” Adit said.
Dinda understood what her husband was sorry about. Dinda understands how hurt Adit is. How he was so scared. If there is no DNA test results Adit always imagines being under the trick of Shalimah. Being her husband but it turns out just as a status and just a figure to give life supply. But for satisfaction and everything else he got from another man.
Dinda knows Adit's trauma hasn't gone 100%. Adit's fear about Dinda's attempted murder cannot be immediately eliminated until now because Adit's trauma has not gone away. Adit still often imagined how if at that time Dinda left their two twins. He also often imagined that once Dinda died, his two children, Ghifari and Ghibran, died because of their premature condition, which was very risky to survive. The fear of fear still often appears in Adit's dreams, even though it has been decades. The trauma still exists.