Grasping
The Part 75

We are on the same ground. Breathing the same air, looking at the same thing. We are only a few meters away, even when this voice calls your name from where I stand now, you must immediately turn your head. I also found my tears. We will meet each other, let go of longing with a sad look. Remind us that we can no longer unite.

The shackled longing has been free, the hoarse hope will return intact. However, regardless of the wishful thinking, the fate of God is the one who decides. Whatever we want can be changed by Him.

Niar continued to step slowly, although Yusha's body was sometimes covered by several people who crossed, but fixed Niar's gaze on the figure of the man. The man who was standing facing the sea with a flutter although around sounded frenzied echoes of laughter and shouting, the figure seemed to not care. Seems to be exploring feelings.

Niar blinked slowly, his heart was pumped up very quickly. In a moment, maybe in 2 minutes his ears can hear Yusha's voice, also his neutrals can scan closely the man's facial lines. However, there was a sudden unrest. He could not imagine what kind of reaction Yusha had; welcoming happily, habitually, indifferently, angrily, or even away and not wanting to meet.

Last to leave the man, he was only considered a friend, nothing more. Niar knows that Yusha's love is still intact for his first wife. However, stupid! Stupid and stupid! Because he wanted to miss that man. But that is impossible. His desires and feelings will not be reciprocated. How else, the heart cannot be led, cannot be controlled until we can avoid liking someone. The heart has the power to choose whom it will anchor.

Actually, both are the same. Are you feeling worried? Both keep the questions. Equally confused to define feelings. What they think about the many obstacles and habits that are still attached. Until it is hard to believe if his heart has changed direction and is now adrift with a new heart; they cannot interpret each other because it is blocked by surrounding factors. About the two Yusha parents who do not approve of their relationship. Sheli has Yusha's heart. What can the woman who just came be?

'Son, your status will soon be known to your father. May your father be happy and accept you happily, "inner Niar seems to be able to talk to his future son. This time, we think about the welfare of his son. Candidates who are still in embryo form are entitled to recognition as descendants of Yusha. Because that's the fact.

Just how many meters more. His feet had reached where Yusha was standing.

"Tu .. an," she cried.

His heart stopped beating. The foot that had been pedaling to step now came to a forced halt.

Melting, melting the strong hope he built. Relax all joints until his body is lightened and almost slammed without awareness.

Swaying, as if time had paused for the next second. Time stopped with his hopes also halted.

Unlike the tears that could not be prevented, it fell like the rhythm of rain in spring, then flooded his pure white cheeks.

He stood weak, low and without a sound. Only the roar of his breath was increasingly stingy with the accompaniment of his nurse heart. Maybe for a thousand times he bore wounds and disappointments. What is expected is not always what is imagined. What is desired is not in line with the approximate path.

God is not on side. God has his own topic to keep him tested.

The universe dissolves allowing it to feel destruction. Again, only the heart can scream. Claiming, evaporating the heart.

Is this how it hurts? Like this is a rumble that can melt despair. This is the fire that burns his soul.

"Dear, I miss you."

That sound. The first hope of the ear will be to hear the voice of Yusha calling his name, or simply greeting him. But what? Precisely the ear was hot to hear the sound of Sheli calling Yusha with a seducing voice.

Again, God shows a different destiny. What is this as a sign that he and Yusha have not been determined to meet. Does God also want to show that only Sheli is entitled to Yusha? He was forced to be self-aware, he had no rights.

After seeing the arrival of Sheli, also saw the embrace the woman gave. Now strong intentions must simply collapse. Fear suddenly seeped. Afraid that his future son would have to be handed over to them, he returned to befriend with wounds and suffering. Nah! This woman wants to be selfish. He now does not want his son to be known by Yusha. He was afraid that the creatures that were in his womb after birth would be taken away from them.

Niar turned around, he better go back to hiding. Let him disappear from their sight like some time ago. But the legs that had been standing strong suddenly relaxed, Niar's body decays on the sand. The woman could not resist the sobs that sounded bitter.

Lucky many visitors who still meet the beach, until Niar's body is not so interesting.

A sturdy palm stretched out in front of Niar's face. Those sad eyes looked up to see who that person was.

"Let's go home" said Sakky who looked on pity.

"Mas Sakky," Niar replied in a hoarse voice.

"You often cry. Forget the initial goal. God does not want your intentions."

Is correct. What the young man named Sakky said was true. Maybe his intention should be broken.

Niar did not accept Sakky's advice, but he tried to rise with the rest of his energy.

Niar turned his head towards Yusha and Sheli who were still at the same position. Slowly he set his heart on leaving and returned away from Yusha's sight.

A young man named Sakky accidentally catches up with Niar to the store, knowing that Niar has not returned before dusk disappears. When we arrived at the store, it was closed. Then, he researched among the many visitors. So surprised to find Niar sitting with a crying condition. The young man immediately approached to take Niar away there.

In Sakky's hand is still carrying the pregnant milk that he had bought when he just came home from work.

Both walked away, but ....

"Miss Niar!" Someone's voice called Niar.

Niar and Sakky looked back. Kelvin was walking towards them.

"Mas Sakky, let's spit! We're taking a shortcut!" take Niar in a panic, knowing that Kelvin is the one calling.

Sakky is forced to pull Niar's hand wrapped in a long cloth. The young man invites Niar to sneak behind the crowd to outwit Kelvin.