Happiness Leads to Farewell
Give up at the end

oh yes. thanks de. said Rekha.

do you know whose name Ade is? rekha said again

ooh. I Aysera used to be called Ara.

nice name, son.. as pretty as his guy! puji Rekha's

I can only smile at my own smile looking at the video

still at school, de? ask Rekha

yes. just entered SMK ma'am replied again.

oh just in? well far from here from school? ask Rekha again

good mom ! answer her

your parents exist? how are you serving us? ask Rekha again

oh.. there is but it is usual for my mother and father to go to my village who guard this shop he replied

so where does your mom work? ask Rekha again

oh the rubber garden bu next to it he replied while pointing out the direction where the rubber and palm plantations that seemed a bit far from there

oh so yach you are a good boy who wants to help parents until so rare loh there is a rich child you explained Rekha at length

ah regular mom I haven't started school yet so can help my mom

the answer is low

it's true that the deck has rarely any children who want to help your rich parents gini! continue the Typhoon who also really likes the attitude of Aysera

ah father a lot it's just that my father is here so you think it's just me he replied with embarrassment

it's true not once in a while but he does every day help his parents sell ! because I see this every day every stop here, replied Aslan

ah father and mother are too excessive it is our duty as children to help their parents as long as they can be nothing special right!?

answer it again

oh yes, this is pa. bu his order he said again while offering 2 bowls of boiled indomie and also sweet tea angel

oh yes, thank you deck, Rekha and Typhoon answered simultaneously

yes the same sir ma'am please enjoy and I excuse you to go in first if there is anything needed, just call the farewell Aysera

it is good please de! answer Rekha

...then then Aysera passed inside with her distinctive smile...

...that's what I saw from the video that I'm seeing right now just looking at her I'm so happy and I'm so happy to see her smile even though there's a little envy towards Rekha who can meet directly with my beautiful....

...O loving and compassionate God give me strength and health so that all that I plan can be realized I would love to see and even embrace Aysera directly may You give that opportunity to me I Amen I prayed when it did not feel as long as I saw the video my tears just flowed on my cheeks because the guilt and regret I feel at this time is so regretful and I rubbed my chest violently afraid that someone would see because I was sitting in front of my house...

...because all is gone my son is out...

...bungku school, my firstborn work, my husband and my mother are currently going to my in-laws who are not far from my home...

...Yes, as long as I'm sick, he stays at my house,...

...Currently because earlier maybe he was saturated also at home without any friends if at my in-laws house there are many people there is my sister-in-law, he said, my niece and nephew also has a granddaughter who is only 2 years old so there is entertainment if you play there...

...also because I told him to go there anyway and I'm going to be light so I can take care of myself again even though it's still shaking too but I try to be able to move this body...

...Two weeks I was lying down and bleeding more and more often though not as much as at the beginning of the hospital but the pain became more and more...

But because every day the blood comes out, my body is getting weaker and I'm getting deathly pale said the person who saw me ,and now my appetite is also lacking when I see the food taste so delicious even if filled must come out again

Moreover, every day only porridge and juice, vegetables and fruit that I eat because I began to reduce the name of meat and fish meat only and his country that must be animal protein... though the time of my departure was only a few weeks away from the schedule I had planned but somehow I became worried that all that would happen.

I feel so strongly that all of that would be impossible and very, very unlikely ,

even though I tried my best to try to get up from all this

But because there was one thing that happened yesterday that I hid from my family

That's about my cervical cancer they don't know because I asked Doctor Aisyah to keep it a secret

My family only knew that I had acute inflammation of the intestines and also an acute ulcer as well as very high stomach acid so I had vomiting blood and nosebleeds now and that rationing from my intestinal inflammation which should have been removed (operated) but actually that makes the bleeding My cervical cancer is late stage and has spread to damage the organs around it and make the immune system decreases so I will often feel tired and sometimes very sick especially if the blood has come out plus a disease that is a complication with the same disease state Acute

Time continues to run the day continues to change minutes and seconds continue to spin but my illness never subsided I was trying to strengthen myself temple good course because not want to make all worry and pity I and treat me like a sick person who must be helped continue to others, I do not want it like that. I try to smile and move as usual to hide what I really feel

By restarting work at my sister's place and preparing to go to seminars and visit my place Aysera later but I don't know if it was also two days of work turned out my body was already unable to again struggling. and succumbing to what should happen..

My body suffocated, cold sweat soaked my body. My vision began to blur, my nosebleed and my mouth vomited quite a lot of blood then from ************ I came out fresh blood that flowed quite a lot.I tried to support my body that began to run over....

trying to hold something so I don't fall..groping whatever is near me. but.... I don't know.I wasn't conscious either.

As I recall that time at 18:30 where my sister-in-law had come home from work when it happened I intended to clean myself to pray maghrib. maryam went up because she heard a sound like a falling item.

Tea.... tea...did you hear the sound of falling goods? he asked from outside the room

teh.... teh..he came closer to the door knocking on the door of Yuman's room but there was no answer.

once again he knocked and called again the name of his sister-in-law but still no answer

Tea ..... Yuman?... yuman tea..! call her

strange as usual? his usual teteh if called him immediately replied ? did he sleep again? again he asked himself

ah it's like there's nothing and maybe Yuman's tea is sleeping he said again as he passed by while looking at the door of his sister-in-law's room he passed down the stairs while continuing to ask why yach I didn't answer my call. That question came up again.

then he tepis terasan it and enter his room to check the child is busy playing while watching his favorite cartoon Upin Ipin...and accompanied him in the room until his son fell asleep while thinking about his brother-in-law especially now he did not come down to eat when he was before boarding had prepared food for him.

then he took his HP trying to chat his brother-in-law was usually if chat he immediately reply to his thought but strange again after he tried to chat was he no reply...