He's My Beloved (Slowly Realized)
CHAPTER 16
"already, here is Bi, my house looks like from here. Thanks Bi", said Sarah stopped Abi's car. Abi sidesteps his car and opens the door for Sarah. "keep his road alert stumbling", teasing Abi at Sarah while waving her hand. "Bi, uh,. Bi until when should I lie to you like this?", murmured Sarah saw Abi walking in the car and left from before her.
Almost every night Sarah pondered her attitude towards Abi, how sinful she was to Abi moreover Abi's family was very wellcome to him and seemed to love him very sincerely. If Zaki were Abi, if Abi had first identified Sarah's perfect happiness, without having to deceive her feelings like this.
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Days change, weeks change, it does not feel that Abi and Sarah's relationship has been running for two years. Abi's feelings of affection increasingly on Sarah, especially Sarah often invited to play to her home to meet her mother's father. Abi feels it is true that Sarah is the right choice for him and the ideal prospective daughter-in-law for his mother's father.
"Sar, I think you've moved on from Zaki?", asked Eve who was visiting Sarah's house with Maya. "iya Sar, uda two years old loh your relationship, ask Eve who at that time visited Sarah's house with Maya, not feeling yes. You must have lost Zaki" Maya added. Sarah just kept pretending not to sting her best friend's question. Sarah busied herself watching movies on her laptop. "dih pura budeg this kid", jewel Maya, "what the hell May?jewer jewer ears all?", exclaimed Sarah wagging Maya's hand from her ear. "i was horrified kom guys you asked what. Actually I still can't escape Zaki" replied Sarah lethargic.
"WHAT...?", Shouted Maya and Eve together. "crazy you Sar, two years can not be spared?", "Then Abi you consider what?",cecar Hawa was surprised while massaging his temple astonished with Sarah's answer. "yes I consider a lover but I can not be wholehearted to Abi, Haw." said Sarah to Eve.
The three of them looked at each other, between confused, shocked and inexhaustible with what they were talking about earlier. "you should be honest with Abi, Sar!", Maya's advice was firm. "bener Sar, you must be honest with Abi, you must be honest and ready for whatever decision Abi will love you later" said Eve justifying Maya's suggestion. But Sarah just silently looked down as if thinking about the words of her best friend.
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In the campus cafeteria, Sarah takes Abi to their secret lake to talk about Zaki to Abi. "tumben took her here?you got a Sar problem?" abi asked while sitting cross-legged on the grass. Sarah looked at Abi intently and looked meaningfully at Abi, "Oh my God, forgive me for hurting this sincere young man", sarah could not bear to imagine how disappointed Abi was when he knew what was really.
"what is the silence of Sar? Is there really a problem?, try a story!" force Abi while looking at Sarah from the side. "Bi, I want to be honest with you" Sarah said in a trembling voice. Sarah begins to talk about Zaki, who Zaki is from, how Sarah feels about Zaki, and more.
Abi began to stand staring at the calm water of the lake at that time. "thank you for being honest Sar, I've felt this for a long time, but I'm waiting for you to say it directly", "for your feelings for Zaki, for your feelings for Zaki, I understand that since I was in your current position, holding on to love is excruciating." Abi replied to Sarah's grief after telling Abi the truth.
"lantas, do you still maintain this relationship Bi? Honestly Bi I want to give up and be ashamed of you being sincere to me what else is your mother's father. I couldn't see them wishing for me", continued Sarah. "remain like this, remain my lover even though maybe now only your body can reach. But God did not sleep Sar, God knows what has been my prayer for the third night." continued Abi holding Sarah's arm tightly as if he did not want Sarah to leave.